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Here's us with our actual heights.

I made my system alters in this cute app! The app is Lily Style.

Me (Soda), Phoenix, and Elliot.

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I made my system alters in this cute app! The app is Lily Style.

Me (Soda), Phoenix, and Elliot.

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We are three versions of our body. We don't feel completely different from each other, but we feel different enough. We have different roles within our system.

Phoenix handles our anger and protects us, Elliot handles our trauma, and I'm the main alter who's handles everything else.

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All three of us are alterhuman in some way.

❤️When Phoenix isn't fronting or co-fronting, we don't feel like a cheetah. When Phoenix is fronting alone, he fully feels like a cheetah.

🧡I am the only alter that's merperson otherkin. No one else feels connected to merpeople or identities as a merperson.

❤️🧡💙All three of us alters are cat otherhearted. We all strongly identify with cats and we all feel connected to them. But none of us feel like we are a cat. We grew up with cats and feel especially connected to them because of our autism.

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One little heart,

Broken by an unstable home.

Little heart breaks apart,

Into different parts.

But over time,

Little heart slowly heals.

A tri-coloured heart.

Little heart covered in bandages,

But the scar will never fade.

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I drew another picture because drawing helps calm us down. So, here's a little drawing of me.

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I drew how I'm currently feeling as a way to express my feelings. I need a way to let this out.

We're the orange one in the middle crying, our mom is the purple one with tears in her eyes, and the blue one is our dad, who's angry.

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Tw Vent

When my parents argue, I just feel so small, like I'm a kid all over again. It's not a nice feeling and I just want everything to be better again. I wish my parents weren't so unhappy and I wish they could get along. Even after moving out, I still have to be near them.

We are the only person our mom has to go to when dad makes her cry. But we can't handle it! That's one of the reasons we moved out is to get away from all that. It's too much and it's so overwhelming.

I want to help my mom, but I can't help her without it affecting our metal health. I don't know what to do.

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TW Vent below 👇

I am going away tomorrow with my parents until Sunday. I'm worried about my parents being in the same car and same hotel room.

This early afternoon, my mom was already upset because of of what my dad said. (who has the day off). She gets so unhappy because of my dad and he seems to not know or care how his words and actions affect her. I hate seeing her cry, but there's nothing I can do to help her. I feel so hopeless.

When I spend time with my parents I feel like I have to be super happy to try to make my mom happy, but it's so hard to be positive when my parents are arguing and unhappy.

I try to act as a buffer between my parents so my mom doesn't have to be alone with him, but it's just too much pressure and I don't think I can handle it this weekend.

I am excited to go in vacation, but I'm just worried about my mom getting upset. I just have a feeling my parents are gonna argue and my mom is gonna get all depressed afterwards.

All these negative feelings are making Elliot co-front with me. So it's just the two of us trying to handle this and try to help my mom.

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Did this for our system. We mainly just use the terms: system and alters.

I like you, here have fill out charts about system terms and boundarys I made for fun:

(Reblog if use, please)

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We aren't very good at making user boxes because we're still new to making them, but we tried making one for you. In red and orange. (If you want a different colour, let us know).

why are there no userboxes that just say "we're blurry rn" that arent violently anti endo bro

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Phoenix is a cheetah therian. He identities as a cheetah in a non-physical way. He doesn't fully feel like a human. Phoenix has felt like a cheetah since we formed as a system. When Phoenix fronted more, our system felt more connected to this cheetah theriotype. When Phoenix started fronting less, our system felt less connected to our cheetah theriotype.

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Our system's relationship with gender is so weird.

I don't identify as any gender and see myself as completely gender neutral. I don't care what gender people see me as because it's not important to me.

Elliot is a demiboy. He feels partly male, partly gender neutral. He doesn't mind being seen as male or as non binary.

And finally, Phoenix is a trans man. He strongly feels male and only wants to be seen as a man.

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Making outfits based on our alters, part three.

❤️ Phoenix❤️

Shirt jacket jeans glove boots

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Making outfits based on our alters, part two.

💙Elliot💙

Sweater pants hat Shoes

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Making outfits based on our alters, part one.

🧡Soda🧡

Shirt shorts shoes

Bracelet hat gloves

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Here's a better version of our previous drawing. I wanted a way to express how we feel, so that's why I drew this.