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small update!

i've been absent for a fucking while, sorry lmao. anyway.

from now on, i'll also be writing about stray kids and tomorrow x together (all members)! i'm working hard behind the scenes to come up with prompts, scenarios and stuff and i'll be making sure to work ahead so i have things to upload. i'll also update this in the introduction post that is pinned on my page (:

i'll be silent for a little while longer, but hope to be back soon!

asks will be open so you can submit requests for seventeen, stray kids and tomorrow x together!

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not anymore - y.jh

pairing: jeonghan x reader includes: break up, ex-lovers, moving on wordcount: 0.8k summary: you retrieve your stuff from jeonghan's place, your ex-boyfriend. this time, it's definitely over.

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When Jeonghan texted that your stuff was ready to be picked up, you hesitated to go at all. His presence was enough to send you into a spiral of shame and regret, but after much consideration you decided to get it over with.

With determined steps, you slipped into the elevator to Jeonghan’s floor. The closer it came, the more you regained confidence in your decision. You had to fight against your tears three weeks ago and it took all of your energy to resist his pleas. Sobbing and shaking, you had told him the inevitable and all that was left now was the shell of that person. A hard rock shell. 

Once, you loved Jeonghan so much that you were willing to put yourself through the cycle over and over. It was worth destroying yourself for. 

As you stepped out of the elevator, his apartment door was already open. The place that felt like home three weeks ago tried to squirm its way into your heart again, but you left your hurt and sorrow at the door. It couldn’t reach you when you stood in his living room. Not anymore.

It was for your own good, you reminded yourself. No matter how bright his presence in your life had been, how you felt on top of the world being with him, it was never worth the betrayal towards yourself, the person that really mattered now. Over the couple of weeks after the breakup, you were learning to forgive yourself for your blindness. 

The ruffling of a bag and a thud against a hard surface shook you out of your peptalk. Instead of a warm blanket wrapping around you, being near Jeonghan felt like the freezing winter breezes followed you inside. Turning your head to the side, your gaze fell on him.

“I hope this is everything,” He spoke tautly. His eyes wandered from you to the stuff in front of him.

Your blood started to boil at his behaviour, but you pushed that away as well. “I hope so, too,” You replied in the same manner, leaving it up to him whether you mocked him for being an asshole or you really felt that way. You snatched the stuff from the table and turned on your heel. 

“So this is it, then?”

The words made you freeze. Previous fights were predictable; you knew that would end with you two back together like you hadn’t given each other hell. The end had never been the end, until now. 

You weren’t sure how the actual end was going to go and the uncertainty embraced you so tightly, you couldn’t breathe anymore. But you prepared yourself for this. 

Jeonghan didn’t need to know that.

You turned around, as if the past few seconds weren’t riddled with doubt. You flared your nose as you clutched both bags into your fist. “Yes, Jeonghan,” You replied monotonously. “This is it.”

He nodded slowly and leaned back against the counter. As the light hit his face, you realised that his eyes were sunken back into his head. Dark bags hung underneath them and they looked almost black on his much paler skin.

Even the sight of him couldn’t break you. Not anymore. 

“Are you really sure?” He asked again. 

“Yeah, why?” 

Jeonghan took a deep breath as he crossed his arms. “We’ve had this before, you know? We fight, we make up, we move on. It’s nothing–”

“–we can’t do together.” You chuckled bitterly. “You say that every time, you know? What’s your plea this time, Jeonghan? Did I misjudge the situation? Don’t I have enough faith in our relationship? What have I done wrong this time?”

He cocked an eyebrow at you. “I never implied that you did something wrong.”

“It’s what it always boils down to.”

“Then I apologise for that, because that was never my intention.” He pushed himself away from the counter and walked over to you. He stopped right in front of you so you had no choice but to look at him.

Even if he looked like he hadn’t slept since you broke up, you didn’t stop seeing what you’ve seen throughout two years of being together. He was still kind and patient, like he had all the time in the world for you. You couldn’t bring yourself to care about more than that. 

Not anymore. 

“You can’t change my mind this time,” You said as a matter-of-fact. “I won’t allow myself to sit through another round. I deserve better than that.”

Jeonghan flinched at your words. He opened his mouth, but nothing came out. He clenched his jaws together again and for the first time, he accepted defeat. 

You swung your bag over your shoulder and bowed your head. “Good luck with Seventeen. You guys deserve the best.” 

All he did was smile, but it didn’t reach his eyes. 

You never stuck around to find out if it ever would again. Not anymore. 

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The aesthetic of your blog is very lovely

thank you so much! i think it's lovely, too <3

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📼 svt as 80s songs

a/n: i picked my favourite 80s songs and they're purely based on vibes! also this is my first imagine so i honestly have no idea wtf im doing thanks for clicking on it tho <3

SEUNGCHEOL: blue hotel - chris isaak it's melancholic, it's nostalgic (i'm 22) and the vocals are *chef's kiss*. the general vibe of the song made me think of him even though it's a song about loneliness lol.

JEONGHAN: smooth criminal - michael jackson the way jeonghan cheats while playing games made this the perfect pic. nothing else. also the music fits him i can't explain why that is.

JOSHUA: say say say - paul mccartney & michael jackson no i won't comment on adding michael jackson twice, but the vibe of the music made me think of joshua. it's beautifully 80s.

JUNHUI: let's dance - david bowie the freedom this song represents combined with the authenticity that david bowie as an artist has is what i think jun possesses too. easy pick.

SOONYOUNG: head over heels - tears for fears it's a cute and passionate love song that made me think of soonyoung from the first second. that's it enjoy the song.

WONWOO: owner of a lonely heart - yes another song about loneliness lol but it's a little sarcastic at times. i just thought the vibe of the song fitted wonwoo i don't think he's lonely.

JIHOON: rock me amadeus - falco rock me amadeus is about mozart's genius as a composer and musician and how loved he was. i think i don't need to explain more than that.

SEOKMIN: army dreamers - kate bush it's a slow art pop song, one of the few slow songs i listen to and it's fitting for seokmin because of it. also the song is just a masterpiece.

MINGYU: rock the casbah - the clash this is one i can't explain but i understand when i listen to it. you should listen to it too (:

MINGHAO: personal jesus - depeche mode it's because the song is about giving someone hope and care and minghao has that realistic outlook on his life as an idol that appeals to me (he's my favourite member can you notice?)

SEUNGKWAN: bigmouth strikes again - the smiths not because he's a diva though, but because he's not afraid to open his mouth when he needs to. that's what this song is about.

VERNON: easy lover - philip bailey & phil collins the vibes fit him, don't ask me why. it's another one that's hard to explain but give the song a listen! it's a vibey one.

CHAN: big love - fleetwood mac the song has this upbeat and cute vibe that i think fits chan more than it does the others. it's one of my favourite songs at the moment too.

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my askbox is open for requests, but i'll also write my own ideas. i love interacting with other people so if you just want to ask something or share your thoughts, you're more than welcome too <3

when i've written and posted my stuff, i'll make a masterlist!