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[originalphilosopherdeer]

Buruknya hati berpijak awan,

Disangka dangkal rupanya bebal,

Santuni diri sehingga ke rawan,

Puas diri janganlah sawai.

[originalphilosopherdeer]

Menolak kebencian dengan benci,

Seolah olah memberi meminta kembali.

[originalphilosopherdeer]

it started again.. I just realized that I'm not loved by anyone accept my family..

I know y'all are like "at least you have family"

but you know, sometimes.. we don't usually talk to family about this and that..

we need friends to talk and express what's in your mind..

so it's kinda lonely being here..

no one to chat to, no one to call, not even my "best friend"

[originalphilosopherdeer]

[originalphilosopherdeer]

“There’s no other way to explain it. There is no beautiful way to put this hurting. I am just tired of existing, and I can’t do this for much longer.”

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[originalphilosopherdeer]

talk to me,

make me happy,

make me smile,

because I forgot the taste of happiness

[originalphilosopherdeer]

[originalphilosopherdeer]

kenapa susah sangat nak tengok mata orang tu?

kau boleh baca dengan mata dia, apa yang berlaku dalam otak dia.

dia sedih, matanya berkaca.

dia gembira, matanya berkilau.

dia resah, anak matanya mengecil.

selalu aku perhatikan mata seseorang kerana hati tak mampu berkata, biar mata yang berbicara.

[originalphilosopherdeer]

FUCK MY LIFE 😔

[originalphilosopherdeer]

I dreamt of killing myself for the first time, I'm speechless when I woke up.

[originalphilosopherdeer]

[originalphilosopherdeer]

I don't know how to tell

[originalphilosopherdeer]

[originalphilosopherdeer]

I’m sick of pretending that I’m okay.

[originalphilosopherdeer]

[originalphilosopherdeer]

you help a person in pain,

but when you're in pain do they help?

[originalphilosopherdeer]

kisah

tidak dapat aku ungkapkan,

Segala yang dipendam aku muntahkan,

Duri yang mencucuk menoreh luka,

Tanpa bunyi dia menyeksa,

Sedih aku tanpa suaka,

Nasi kebulur anak merana,

Diseksa dusta dicerca nista,

Kelmarin dihidang janji bahaya,

Punah harapan ditelannya gila,

Benteng kejumudan ditebangnya nista,

Hina yang cari menempah luka,

Kepalang sakit diam sahaja.