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inbred - ethel cain

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kinda insane how it’s canon that dean is a tad bit obsessed with the fact that he’s older than sam and he keeps calling him “sammy” (diminutive and gender neutral) and his siren turned into a devoted submissive little brother and his first happy memory in heaven features thirteen year old sammy

yeah it could mean nothing

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no bc the amount of times people close to sam and dean have implied there’s something more going on between them?? it’s actually insane. like it’s not just random strangers on the street picking up on the vibes—it's people who know them. people who’ve been around. people who have no reason to joke like that unless they’re seeing something.

we got ruby in season 4 straight up asking if they’re together?? like girl said that with her chest. jody in season 10 telling them they have something special—and you know she meant it in a “wtf is this intensity” kinda way, not just “aww sibling love.” crowley dropping that line about his butler having heard things?? pls. what was he hearing exactly?????? lisa saying their bond is the most tangled-up thing she’s ever seen? bffr. zachariah literally calling them erotically codependent??? that’s not a casual observation, that’s someone who sat down and analyzed it. balthazar asking if dean stole any kisses while sam was unconscious—LIKE??? that wasn’t a throwaway line, that was a callout. and then the reaper in s15 saying she’s seen and heard things?? nah. no way she meant that platonically.

and even cas. when dean’s like “you think sam wants a divorce?” and he’s just deadpan like “it’d take more than that for sam to walk away.” like. that man has seen it all and he’s still not even surprised by the mess they are.

and these are people who have been in their lives for a while. they know the winchesters. they’ve seen the full range of chaos and codependency and still come out the other end making those kinds of comments. it’s not a coincidence anymore. it’s just canonically hilarious at this point. the friends, the enemies, the exes, the angels, the literal death entities—everyone is in agreement: whatever’s going on between those two is not normal.

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sammy canonically thinks he’s not clean but he had no basis for it back when the thought first started, except for being attracted/obsessing over his older brother. in this essay i will

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Nobody has made me feel safer or more respected than the filthy perverted freaks I was warned about.

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first session of stanford uni free student counselling service

therapist: it's completely normal to want to talk to someone, lots of people have trouble adjusting-

sam: yeah i grew up in a car so it's been weird, like, owning stuff

therapist (thinks she misheard): you grew up in- a car? like a caravan home?

sam: no it was my dad's 1967 impala. and, i mean, we lived in motels mostly. ive always shared with my brother so its easy having a roommate at least. sometimes we rented a place for a few months if we were lucky - since dad moved around a lot.

therapist: oh, what did your father do for a living? a travelling salesman? a military man?

sam: um. he was a mechanic.

therapist (why would a mechanic move around every month): ....right. was it just you, your father and your brother?

sam: yeah. and neither of them are speaking to me now because i came here. my dad's angry i disobeyed him, and my brother's just upset i left at all.

therapist (this, at least, makes sense): ah, yeah. younger siblings often have trouble when their older siblings leave home. is he much younger than you?

sam: .....no hes 22

therapist: . right.

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You meet someone like her, doesn't it makes you wonder if it's worth it? Putting everything else on hold, doing what we do?

Go with them. This is your only chance! He's right. Come with us.

and leave sam?

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weecest hits so hard when it’s Dean crying screaming throwing up because he’s a horrible monster in love with his kid brother and Sam so depressed he can’t get out of bed because he’s in love with his brother who will never want his hideous scrawny prepubescent ass back

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compilation of sam and dean getting called out for their incest

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Sam is SUCH a little brother I love him sm

btw @shadystranger made this post first! I just didn’t see it until after I had already posted this

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are you seeing this?????

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But he still asks Dean to go, he throws a fit, he tells him “this is the dumbest thing you’ve ever done.” It reminds me of that scene from Titanic, Jack telling Rose “you’re so stupid” for staying with him instead of saving herself.

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Bonus:

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it's been a long day pass the

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also supernatural would’ve been better if it started with the boys thirteen & seventeen. their father vanishes on a hunt and none of their contacts will answer their phones. john dies when dean is eighteen and all at once he has to fight for custody of his kid brother while weighing their dad’s dying words about maybe having to kill him. sam drops out of freshman year when the visions get too bad, and is stabbed to death - the night before his fifteenth birthday - by another baby-faced kid. dean sells his soul at nineteen, goes to hell at twenty. sam throws himself into the cage on his eighteenth birthday.

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It Could Happen To You: mediocre tv show with baffling politics has really compelling characters in it

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i am absolutely not thinking any unholy thoughts whatsoever.