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“What do you say when you’re not enough to make someone stay? What do you do when you meet the love of your life and realize it’s all about timing? How do you accept that no matter how perfect you are for each other, circumstances get in the way? How do you compete with that kind of fate?”

— Katie Kacvinsky, First Comes Love

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“All parents damage their children. It cannot be helped. Youth, like pristine glass, absorbs the prints of its handlers. Some parents smudge, others crack, a few shatter childhoods completely into jagged little pieces, beyond repair.”

— Mitch Albom

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its so brave that you have such a 2012-coded url in this 2024 world

would you call a bear brave for standing in a new construction suburb or would you recognize the unfamiliar world they built around him

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“Instead of worrying about what you cannot control, shift your energy to what you can create.”

— Roy T. Bennett, The Light in the Heart

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“I want to make beautiful things, even if nobody cares.”

— Saul Bass

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Dear professor this assignment did not nourish my fundamentally curious soul so i did not do it No penalty full 100 points please Goodbye!

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04/22/24

just pulled through the worst heartbreak of my life, only took six months, thanks for telling me seven months into exclusive dating that there was a 30% chance you'd ever love me. that is royally messed up. thanks for having the ex I'd write anxious letters about, on snapchat, the whole time. that is royally messed up. thanks for asking me to move to your state with you after college, then change your mind when I was about to do it. that was not cool. thanks for letting me spend over a thousand dollars on plane tickets to visit you only to use me for my body and ignore my very presence every single time I visited. that was royally messed up. thanks for having me wait 40 minutes at the airport for you when we landed at 2am only to book an uber and pay two-hundred-fifty-dollars for a hotel room because you couldn't wake up for your alarm. that was royally mortifying. thanks though for paying me back for the hotel room, and thanks for flying up to celebrate my birthday with me. thanks for above all trying to be a good partner and being the best man I've ever been with. I am infuriated you don't seem to be my forever person. I don't expect whoever it is to be six four and make me feel so safe. I am so sad. but technically in the capitalist scheme of things my feelings don't matter. so there's that. the worst part easily is that you don't feel a fraction of the way I do back. that's why we broke up in the first place. you didn't love me back and you had confidence that you never could. why did you say 'I love you too' when we were hugging goodbye? why don't you want to try again. I don't get it. why text me back and why have long calls with me now if you don't feel the same way I do. I don't get it. why call me an angel from heaven if you didn't mean it on one of the calls we had. I don't get it.

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life update (07/09/23):

i'm in seattle rn with my siblings. met someone pretty cool, hope it works out with them. even considering heavily moving to follow them which may or may not be the best idea. i mean, i already got a job offer there, it feels right. hoping my life becomes so very beautiful.

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I hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight, and that’s all they do. They don’t pull away. They don’t look at your face. They don’t try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it.

Unknown (via stay-close)

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If you don’t leave your past in the past it will destroy your future. Live for what today has to offer, not for what yesterday has taken away.

Unknown (via stay-close)

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“If you have to speculate if someone loves you and wants to be with you, chances are they don’t. It’s not that complicated. Don’t waste moments waiting and wondering. Don’t throw away your time dreaming of someone who doesn’t want you. No one is that amazing, and certainly not someone who would pass you up.”

— Donna Lynn

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to accept you may never be understood is crumbling

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MY TWO MOODS

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Of course the queen dies the day before my birthday

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“If you have to speculate if someone loves you and wants to be with you, chances are they don’t. It’s not that complicated. Don’t waste moments waiting and wondering. Don’t throw away your time dreaming of someone who doesn’t want you. No one is that amazing, and certainly not someone who would pass you up.”

— Donna Lynn

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Wild animals can develop mental illnesses too but we just assume they are being wild.