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Update: I got hired to be a youth services librarian at this amazing public library near me and I'm super excited to start that journey!

I resigned from my teaching position and I genuinely have never felt so much more at ease until I did so.

Why I'm Leaving Teaching at the end of this School Year (if I even make it that long)

I know my time on Tumblr is non-existent nowadays but I felt like this little thing I'm gonna write may help others or may even help myself.

This is my 3rd year teaching. Specifically, my third year being a school librarian. My first two years (plus my student teaching) were filled with nothing but positive notes. I felt happy and free and like it was the job I was made for. I went to work every day excited and I spent my says extremely happy.

After two years of being at my first school, I had to make the painful decision to leave because I could no longer afford the rent to stay in any reasonable length of drive to the school. I sobbed my final day as I hugged coworkers goodbye and prepared for my new adventure.

Going to my new school, I went through hell (three separate interviews) and over two months to get the position. I spent many days over the summer (not getting paid) to get things set up.

September was fine. But then, October came.

Students behaviors have made this job, like for so many others, unreasonable. I can't even teach a single class without being disrespected and talked back to. I've addressed admin for help. They know my situation and I'm not alone. Others in my school have had this same problem. But I had faith that admin was going to work with us and we would be okay.

During this time, I was managing two different librarians in two different buildings on the same campus. I had no aide and zero help. But every day, I was being asked "what now? What else?" Which put an overwhelming pressure on me to take on all these big roles to please admin.

I was drowning, doing my best, all by myself, on a limited time frame. And then came the last week in a half.

I had my dreaded evaluation. The first one at my new school. I was happy with it. I thought it went well. And then, I was blindsided completely by my admin who told me I was doing nothing they wanted. I was disappointing them. I wasn't making any strides. Essentially: they were calling me a failure to my face.

I was blamed for all problems with that trouble class. I was blamed for teachers not reaching out to the library. And I was blamed for students not coming in to the space.

I was blamed for not advertising new books (even though I had them displayed and even made announcements). I was blamed for books being in piles, ready to be discarded, despite being pushed to do big projects that required mass amounts of books to be moved with no help. And no one told me the process to get rid of them despite me reaching out.

I was blamed for everything that boiled down to these unrealistically high expectations from administrators and the behavior problems of middle school students.

In the last month, it's made me realize that my first school was one in a million. And my regret for leaving is unlike any other. But I can't go back because they have since terminated my job entirely, in lieu of budget cuts from our state.

Being at this new school, has done nothing besides emphasize to me how and why teachers burn out so fast.

We're given extremely high expectations, unrealistic goals, and pushed and pulled to the brink. We're blamed for students behavior but are given no support to help us correct.

And I'm not going to waste my life fighting these battles that I, and many teachers, never win.

I'm working on becoming a public librarian, despite it being difficult in my state and my area, and I'm looking into other careers goals until I can secure another position.

It's amazing how all it takes is a school to break down teachers to their absolute breaking point. I'm the most depressed I've been in years, and I'm struggling to even go to work. My brain is telling me to not quit and just resign at the end of the year, but my heart is telling me I need to leave now before I truly get run down.

If this is how schools are treating support and special area staff, I shudder to think about how they treat general ed teachers.

I know this post has nothing to do with what I normally post about, but I know I'm not alone.

And that's the saddest part of this reality.

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Why I'm Leaving Teaching at the end of this School Year (if I even make it that long)

I know my time on Tumblr is non-existent nowadays but I felt like this little thing I'm gonna write may help others or may even help myself.

This is my 3rd year teaching. Specifically, my third year being a school librarian. My first two years (plus my student teaching) were filled with nothing but positive notes. I felt happy and free and like it was the job I was made for. I went to work every day excited and I spent my says extremely happy.

After two years of being at my first school, I had to make the painful decision to leave because I could no longer afford the rent to stay in any reasonable length of drive to the school. I sobbed my final day as I hugged coworkers goodbye and prepared for my new adventure.

Going to my new school, I went through hell (three separate interviews) and over two months to get the position. I spent many days over the summer (not getting paid) to get things set up.

September was fine. But then, October came.

Students behaviors have made this job, like for so many others, unreasonable. I can't even teach a single class without being disrespected and talked back to. I've addressed admin for help. They know my situation and I'm not alone. Others in my school have had this same problem. But I had faith that admin was going to work with us and we would be okay.

During this time, I was managing two different librarians in two different buildings on the same campus. I had no aide and zero help. But every day, I was being asked "what now? What else?" Which put an overwhelming pressure on me to take on all these big roles to please admin.

I was drowning, doing my best, all by myself, on a limited time frame. And then came the last week in a half.

I had my dreaded evaluation. The first one at my new school. I was happy with it. I thought it went well. And then, I was blindsided completely by my admin who told me I was doing nothing they wanted. I was disappointing them. I wasn't making any strides. Essentially: they were calling me a failure to my face.

I was blamed for all problems with that trouble class. I was blamed for teachers not reaching out to the library. And I was blamed for students not coming in to the space.

I was blamed for not advertising new books (even though I had them displayed and even made announcements). I was blamed for books being in piles, ready to be discarded, despite being pushed to do big projects that required mass amounts of books to be moved with no help. And no one told me the process to get rid of them despite me reaching out.

I was blamed for everything that boiled down to these unrealistically high expectations from administrators and the behavior problems of middle school students.

In the last month, it's made me realize that my first school was one in a million. And my regret for leaving is unlike any other. But I can't go back because they have since terminated my job entirely, in lieu of budget cuts from our state.

Being at this new school, has done nothing besides emphasize to me how and why teachers burn out so fast.

We're given extremely high expectations, unrealistic goals, and pushed and pulled to the brink. We're blamed for students behavior but are given no support to help us correct.

And I'm not going to waste my life fighting these battles that I, and many teachers, never win.

I'm working on becoming a public librarian, despite it being difficult in my state and my area, and I'm looking into other careers goals until I can secure another position.

It's amazing how all it takes is a school to break down teachers to their absolute breaking point. I'm the most depressed I've been in years, and I'm struggling to even go to work. My brain is telling me to not quit and just resign at the end of the year, but my heart is telling me I need to leave now before I truly get run down.

If this is how schools are treating support and special area staff, I shudder to think about how they treat general ed teachers.

I know this post has nothing to do with what I normally post about, but I know I'm not alone.

And that's the saddest part of this reality.

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TAYLOR ZAKHAR PEREZ & FRIEND

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Coming back to say that it was Omar last week and tomorrow it's Romeo and Juliet. I'm still in a bit of awe haha

I will not be seeing Dan and Phil though as I sold my tickets to someone else given that I just don't have enough interest in them anymore to keep them.

Also: twitter is pretty much unusable now so does this mean I finally have to come back to this hellscape for my fandoms?

Jumping back on here to say that all of these famous people need to stop being so active because tell me why I'm going to NYC and seeing:

Omar Rudberg

Romeo and Juliet with Kit Connor

Dan and Phil

Literally all in the space of one week.

Like lord save me and my poor bank account 🙏

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Since it appears I only come on when I need advice, I am back again needing some more advice lol

I am going to see the new Romeo and Juliet on Broadway with Kit Connor this weekend and I would love to stage door for it.

However, never done stage door before for a broadway show and the videos I've seen of this one are a bit overwhelming.

Has anyone done it and can provide any tips? We are staying at a hotel only a few minutes from the venue by foot so we were considering going a night that isn't the same night of our show but is that like frowned upon?

Help a girl out please lol I just wanna get a signature from Kit and Rachel lol

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Random question:

Did anyone here on Tumblr go to any European Omar Rudberg shows over the last week? If so:

How long did the whole concert last? Like from start (the openers came on) to finish (he took his final bow).

I'm going to NYC on Monday and have an Uber scheduled to pick us up after but I'm scared of having the wrong time so I wanna get a good estimate of what time to schedule the Uber.

Thanks in advance!

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fuck u for making ur fan fics locked unless u got an account

If you have a problem with it, then just get an invite and make a burner account on Ao3 lol it's not that hard.

Also, I'm not sure when you sent this but I'm genuinely laughing at how aggressive this is. Like just request an invite, man 😂😂😂😂

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Jumping back on here to say that all of these famous people need to stop being so active because tell me why I'm going to NYC and seeing:

Omar Rudberg

Romeo and Juliet with Kit Connor

Dan and Phil

Literally all in the space of one week.

Like lord save me and my poor bank account 🙏

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New Classroom Wish List

Hi Everyone!

If you've already followed me, you know that I am a teacher, specifically a K-12 Library Media Specialist. Just recently, I was hired at a new school, meaning I will be leaving my current classroom and library behind. With that, means most of my classroom decor and supplies that I have previously purchased will remain in my old library for the new teacher/librarian to use (as most are already being used in various places around the library and it would make me a massive a-hole to remove it all).

So that being said, I am looking at essentially starting fresh with decorating and supplying some neccesseities for my new library and classroom.

I have created an Amazon Wish List and it would mean the absolute world to me if you would consider giving it a view and donating to my classroom/library. Teaching materials like classroom decorations and storage supplies, are often not supplied by the school and teachers are required to buy their own. With that being said, statistically, teachers will pay nearly $1000 out of pocket just to get their classroom ready for students. On a teachers salary, that is damn near impossible.

So please consider helping out and if not, just sharing this for anyone who might see it and would be willing to do so! Thank you again!

Amazon Wish List Link

-Alexis :)

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New Classroom Wish List

Hi Everyone!

If you've already followed me, you know that I am a teacher, specifically a K-12 Library Media Specialist. Just recently, I was hired at a new school, meaning I will be leaving my current classroom and library behind. With that, means most of my classroom decor and supplies that I have previously purchased will remain in my old library for the new teacher/librarian to use (as most are already being used in various places around the library and it would make me a massive a-hole to remove it all).

So that being said, I am looking at essentially starting fresh with decorating and supplying some neccesseities for my new library and classroom.

I have created an Amazon Wish List and it would mean the absolute world to me if you would consider giving it a view and donating to my classroom/library. Teaching materials like classroom decorations and storage supplies, are often not supplied by the school and teachers are required to buy their own. With that being said, statistically, teachers will pay nearly $1000 out of pocket just to get their classroom ready for students. On a teachers salary, that is damn near impossible.

So please consider helping out and if not, just sharing this for anyone who might see it and would be willing to do so! Thank you again!

Amazon Wish List Link

-Alexis :)

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YOUNG ROYALS 3.04 | 3.06

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YOUNG ROYALS 3.01

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First shot versus last shot Edvin Ryding, Young Royals

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WILHELM & SIMON YOUNG ROYALS | 3.06

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young royals duolingo, 13/?

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