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Can you write a Katsuki x fem reader fic where he thinks she has died on a mission and is enraged, and when she comes back dripping wet from thunder, he's enraged at her because he was so worried, but then just starts to sob and throws himself into her arms, which shocks her.

Thunderstruck

The first time it happens, it’s a flicker.

Static across the comm line. Barely a second. But Bakugo knows the sound of failure. He knows the sound of something breaking.

The comms don’t come back.

He’s halfway out of his seat before anyone else notices. Pacing. Cursing. Hands clenched so tight his nails dig into his palms through the gloves.

“Tch. It’s just interference,” someone says. “Storm’s picking up.”

But his gut—his gut tells him otherwise.

You’re never late. Never careless. Never silent.

And Katsuki Bakugo knows what silence means on the battlefield.

“Don’t be so dramatic,” you teased, ruffling his hair. “It’s recon, Katsuki. We’re just getting layouts and logging activity. No combat.”

He scowled, swatting your hand away. “Don’t act like you can’t get your ass blown off doing paperwork.”

You smirked. “You worried about me?”

He didn’t answer. Just grabbed your chin and kissed you hard, like he could stamp his presence onto your bones.

“Come back in one piece, dumbass,” he muttered.

“Always.”

That was six hours ago.

Now he’s storming through HQ like a bomb with a cracked shell, barking orders even though it’s not his mission, demanding updates like anyone can give him what he wants—

Your location. Your vitals. Your voice.

When Kirishima finally grabs him by the shoulder and says, “Katsuki... there was an explosion at the recon site,” he doesn’t process it.

Until they show him the wreckage.

Until they pull something half-burned from under a pile of concrete.

Until it’s your uniform jacket.

Still smoking.

Bloodied.

He goes still.

Every sound disappears. The rain, the shouting, the chopper overhead—it all fades to a dull, suffocating roar inside his skull.

No body.

No confirmation.

But the silence? The silence is screaming.

He doesn't realize he's dropped to his knees until someone tries to lift him.

He shoves them off with a snarl, dragging the scorched fabric into his lap like he can will it to be fake. Just some mistake. A wrong jacket. Someone else’s blood.

But he knows it’s yours.

He can smell your shampoo burned into the fibers. His hands have been on this fabric a hundred times—pulling it off you, gripping it when you hugged him from behind.

And now it smells like smoke.

He doesn’t remember getting back to HQ. Doesn’t remember smashing a hole in the wall of the locker room. Doesn’t remember sobbing, just once, into the broken tile before punching it again.

What he remembers is fear.

Not the kind from battle. Not even the kind from losing.

It’s the fear of never getting the chance.

Never getting to say he loved you, not really. Not with the quiet, sacred kind of love he’d never admitted out loud. The kind that choked him when you left the room and lit him on fire when you laughed.

You died thinking you were just his teammate. His girlfriend, maybe.

But not that you were everything.

So when the door creaks open five hours later, and you stumble in—drenched, shaking, scraped raw but alive—

Bakugo doesn’t believe it at first.

He thinks it’s his brain cracking under the weight of grief.

But then you speak.

“Guys?” your voice wobbles. “I—I’m okay. I—”

He turns.

And the pain doesn’t leave him.

It erupts.

“WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!”

Your eyes go wide. You don’t even get the chance to answer before he’s across the room, voice thunderous, hands clenched, eyes glowing with something rabid and shattered.

“Do you even fucking realize what you did to me?!” he growls, stalking closer. “You just disappear in the middle of a mission—comms go dark, and then BOOM—nothing but rubble! Nothing but your jacket and a bloodstain and you think you can just—just fucking—walk in like you didn’t just RIP MY GODDAMN WORLD APART?!”

“I—I fell—into the canal,” you stammer, backing up a step. “There was a blast—I couldn’t—my earpiece was gone, I tried to get back—”

He isn’t listening.

“I thought I lost you,” he snarls, voice breaking. “I thought I’d never hear your voice again. Never feel your hand. Never—fuck.”

The rage snaps.

He stumbles forward like gravity’s finally won, fists slackening as a choked sound breaks from his throat.

And then he collapses into you.

A full-body crash. Hands in your soaked hair. Face buried in your neck. Shoulders trembling. Your heart almost stops—because Katsuki Bakugo, your Katsuki, the one who never cried, the one who mocked people for crying—

Is sobbing.

Silent. Violent. Breathless. He clutches you like something fragile, like something he still doesn’t trust to be real.

“...Katsuki?”

You whisper it, barely breathing.

He can’t answer.

Because this is the second time he’s lost everything.

The first was when he thought he’d never be good enough.

This time it was you.

And if he ever had to go through that again, it would kill him.

You hold him tighter. One hand on the back of his neck, the other gripping the back of his hero suit.

“I’m here,” you whisper against his temple. “I’m right here. I’m sorry I scared you.”

He inhales like it hurts.

“Don’t you ever do that again,” he whispers, voice shaking. “I swear to god, I—if I’d lost you, I—”

You pull back just enough to see his face. Tear-streaked, flushed, and furious—but the kind of fury that only comes from love.

“I won’t,” you say softly. “I promise. I’m not going anywhere.”

For the first time all day, his breathing starts to steady.

And then he kisses you.

Hard. Desperate. Like he needs to feel every inch of you alive beneath him.

And you let him.

Because for a moment, both of you were ghosts.

But now—he’s real.

And so are you.

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what app do we use to make smaus nowadays i’m in pto and inspired

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how i look at my screen after y/n just got called kitten/puppy/bunny

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ao3 goes down for a couple hours and i genuinely truthfully start considering reactivating my writing acc where i haven’t posted writing in over a year 😭😭😭 sorry guys that’s just how i am. also i’m gay now. and non-binary. the pronouns on my bio are literally wrong

kinda thinking abt,,, writing bnha stuff again,,,, is anyone here does anyone still read bnha stuff

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kinda thinking abt,,, writing bnha stuff again,,,, is anyone here does anyone still read bnha stuff

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hi i'm back here are my updates from the past month(? i think that's how long)😭: i turned that english paper in the morning after it was due but my english teacher was nice and gave me full credit so i got a good grade and all my classes went well this year, i got my pants back but i think i told you that😭, and i didn't get the job i told you about but i got a different job at this little movie theater and i like it a lot so far! except on days when marvel movies come out bc thursday so many people came in right when i was supposed to leave even though that's the time the movie started so they probably should've come earlier😭😭

but how are you, how's your break going ? and how did your exams go? -🍓

JKSNKDJ IM GLAD YOURE DOING ALRIGHT!!!!!!! IVE MISSED YOU!!!!!!

my exams went okay! i got alright grades in all of them, which means i have been accepted into my second semester of uni let's gooooo

on another note i think i'll either turn this blog into an archive or straight up deactivate it dskjfskdf oop. yeah. if you still want to talk to me i'll still be on my main blog so :] oof

anyways how are you

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hey everyone! i know it’s been a little while but i’m thinking of either deactivating this account or just keeping it as an archive. i barely use it anymore + i’m honestly not that interested in the things i used to write about. i’m still thinking about this bc even tho i don’t post here anymore i’m still,,,,,,,, very attached to this blog LMAOOO SO YEAH. i’ll give you any updates as soon as i make my mind. 

meanwhile if anyone wants to keep following me just for the fun of it my main blog is on the desc. of this blog and all that. i don’t post about anything i used to post here but i’m Constantly Vibing There so eh. idk. if any of my anons want to, like, migrate just so we don’t fall out of touch- PFFFT YEAH <3

anyways. talk to you guys soon, maybe. :]

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okay so he didn't just go in my room and snatch them😭 what happened was sometimes my mom does our laundry and she'll mix up our clothes like tee shirts and socks and stuff like that but whenever she does idk if my brother doesn't notice or doesn't care but he doesn't give them back until you ask him if he has it😭 and ig my mom thought they were his bc they're men's sweatpants but i've been looking for them for so long bc they're my favorite, and then we had to go out to help my grandma pack stuff they other day and he walked past me and i was like ??? bc they looked like mine and they were but he said he didn't realize they were mine😭😭

anyways i'm procrastinating on my english paper rn even though it's literally the last assignment i have😭 but did you get to study or write what you were planning to? -🍓

OH LMAOOO THAT MAKES SENSE THAT MAKES SENSE

bro i just got out of an exam it was a NIGHTMARE but i think i did alright. i did write!!!!!!! like i was planning to!!!!!! im probably not writing at all this week bc of exams tho <//3 oof

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HIIII! i missed you😭 i'm good! i'm almost done with school for the summer i just have some finals and an essay left this week, i don't remember if i ever told you about the SATs but i ended up taking it and that went well, and i have a job interview tomorrow but i'm a little scared😭 i'm kinda mad right now because i'm pretty sure my brother stole my favorite sweatpants?😭 like at some point they got mixed up in his laundry and he just never gave them back and was wearing them today but i'm waiting for him to get home so i can figure it out😭 other than that i'm okay tho! how have you been ? -🍓

i missed you too!!! im glad youre doing well!!!!

HELL YEAH STRAWBERRY GET THOSE GOOD GRADES GET THAT JOB HELL YEAH YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!

strawberry brother what the hell <//3 why would he steal your sweatpants omg

ive been alright!!! i have two more weeks of uni classes and then i get a fucking break thank god. i am kinda tired tho LMAOOOOO and i needed to start studying like 2 hours ago but ive been vibing so. hope for the best <3 then i'll try to write later?

but yeah that's. that's how things are LMAOOOOO

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Hii omg! I havent see you in like foerver omg😭

Thats great that you've been writing a lot, that must feel great!! :D

Also u should totally play genshin!! its a free to play game and so much fun omg. I'm a f2p player, and You only have to pay unless you really want to! :)

Ah how much long are u in school for? Mine ended in march! But i hope the rest of your school year goes well!! And isnt as boring :P

I KNOW IM SO SORRY BUT HI HOPE YOURE WELL LMAOOO

i have i have!!! it’s so cool!!!! i wrote a really good piece like a few days ago and i’m. so proud of it. i wanna make a chapter 2 to that but i haven’t gotten around to it

woooo okay i like that actually. mmmmm i’ll probably play it soon!!!!

i’m in uni until the 25th 💔💔💔 i HATE IT HERE

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hey nina!! sorry we haven't talked in so long omg, but hello!!!!! im sorry to hear university is tough, i hope you're having fun though :) lmk some of the music you've been listening to! i saw one of your tags that said you have been listening to lots of music lately. i've been really into gorillaz, the cure, and the cocteau twins :') have a lovely day <3

it’s okay!!! i hope you’ve been well!!!!

WOOO OKAY OKAY MUSIC REC TIME WITH NINA HELL YEAH i’ve been listening to bo burnham a lot (inside kicked my ass), but i’ve been a big lovejoy fan lately 💔💔💔 it’s an indie band and they have literally just 4 songs but those 4 are SO good. been also listening to a lot of mitski and stuff bc she’s great. basically that? i think? also also!!!! khai dreams. i like his music

hope you have a lovely day as well!!! and i’ll make sure to check out the artists you mentioned mmmmn

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Yayy im glad you've had time to watch movies wih your friend omg i miss that ngl 🥺

good for you for getting back into writing! :) it must be hard after not writing for quite some while!

JSVZJS TWO CATS OMG 🤩 i bet they're so cute

my day was good ty for asking!! I had a couple of online classes which were boring lmao😔 But i got some time to play Genshin Impact so that was a lot of fun :)) how was your day nina!?

-eri 🍎

HELLO,,,,,,,,,, DJKSBFEKFBIK I'M A BIT LATE TO ANSWER THIS

yes i've been writing a lot actually!!!!!!!!!! i missed it so much!!!!!!!!!!! not. not x readers tho. but writing!!!!!!!

they are. my cats are very cute and i adore them. yessir

i wanna play genshin impact honestly but i'm pretty sure it costs money and i'm not doing that <//3

my day has been alright. i woke up at like 8 today and then ive been vibing. i'm currently in class right now but i'm not paying attention i got so little sleep i think i simply Deserve to not care about class <3

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hi omg it's been so long!! i've been overwhelmed with school stuff and projects(again🙄) so i haven't been on here a lot for the past month or so but i'm catching up and i'm feeling better! i've been taking better care of myself and everything, i drank a bunch of water yesterday but that was bc i was doing a recording for band, whatever works tho😭😭😭 but how are you?? how's your college stuff going? - 🍓

HI STRAWBERRY,,,,,,,,,,,,, HOPE YOU'RE STILL AROUND,,,,,,,,,, I LOVE YOU,,,,,,,,,,,

i haven't been here a lot either as you can. probably tell. ive been good, actually!!!!! university is.......... a lot more than i expected it to be, i'd say. but i quite like it!!!! even tho i'm sleep deprived as fuck <//3 PFFFFFT LMAO YEAH <3

what about you. if you're still out there. are you good

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Omg Nina?????? I’ve missed you so much!!! Yes I’m still here pls update your blog (if you wanna)

omg i'm loved!!!!!!! again!!!!!!!!! hello!!!!!!!!!!!

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Yes we want to read your writing!!!! You are one of my fav zuko writers ever 😭😭😭

omg i'm loved

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i wasn’t tagged but i can do whatever i want

The wind passed by slowly, whistling as if greeting an old friend.

hehehehe and i’ll tag uhhhh @missmorosis @shotos-noodles and @kimjihyun nice

lol I’m going through a crisis but want to do a fic tag game so please share the first line in your most recent unposted wip.

She woke in water.

Tagging: @whats-her-quirk, @shadowworks, @mindninjax, @pleasantanathema, @lookslikeleese, @messwriting, @lady-lunaaa,