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Can You Feel My Heart || Bring Me The Horizon [\m/]

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I don’t even expect anything anymore and I’m still let down.

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do u ever listen to a song and remember exactly what life was like when u first heard it

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repeat after me:

I love my life. I love myself. I always get what I want. All my dreams and desires come true. It's my life and I have full control over it and it feels amazing. I am the creator of my reality.

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“Life happens so hard and fast I sometimes wonder who is me.”

— Sylvia Plath (via slobbering)

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Reblog for a miracle to happen tonight

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Sometimes you just need to listen to the same song for an entire afternoon 

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dear future me (if you exists),

i hope that you’re doing ok. and if you’re not doing ok, i dont know what the fuck you’re still doing here and i guess i just wanted to say i’m sorry for not having the courage to end this from the beginning. if you are doing better, then i guess i’m not sorry. i hope that you are able to eat at least three times a day, if not more. i hope that you do not feel guilty when you eat a burger or fries and enjoy them as much as you should because that shit is fucking good. i hope you can genuinely smile at someone because they genuinely make you happy whether that be in a relationship or friendship. i hope that you don’t accept anything less than what you deserve. i hope you have standards. and most of all, respect for yourself.

 if you do have respect for yourself, that’s a fuckin miracle. i mean it’s not like i’m full on expecting you to love yourself but i feel you’d be ok if you just had respect for yourself. and know what you are capable of and what you deserve. also, you better be able to have fun. you better be going to shows every other weekend. you better be crowd surfing at all of them. you better be laughing with your friends instead of complaining to them. and you better realize you’re happiness. and take advantage of every aspect of it.

i really do hope you’re writing. whether it’s novels, screenplays, scenes. i just hope you love it and are obsessed with it. i hope it’s one of your priorities. please try to be successful in all of the dreams i’ve had for you and all of the dreams i’ve gave up on. and if you’re not successful, i hope you’re working your ass off. and not giving up and not letting anyone control your emotions, your thoughts and your work ethic.

you could be doing anything in your life whether i wanted you to do that now, or if i never even had it planned for you and never in a millions years thought you would be doing it. just be happy that you’re doing it. and just love every second of it. and realize that this life is worth living and that you think that if i would have killed myself, i would have regretted it.  

don’t be miserable. don’t destroy yourself, embrace who you are for what you are and dont’ try and be someone that you’re not. or someone you look up to. i hope you’re not constantly comparing yourselves to others-judging them against you and make it control your actions. just work on being yourself and take advantage of what you have to offer.

last thing i wanna mention, i hope i love you.

sincerely,

patricia

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Tumblr. A place where you can see a blow job, a cute puppy, and a delicious looking pizza in a matter of seconds.

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“For reasons unexplained, every person in the world is born with a large gaping hole in the center of their chest…while not uncomfortable, it is widely considered unsightly, and pretty much everyone tries to fill it with something…some people fill it with religion, others just buy a bunch of stuff, and some even fill it with other folks…I left mine alone, though, because I found out if you run against the wind at just the right angle, it makes a whistling noise.”

— Aaron Diaz

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i distracted myself and thought i was healing

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#WHATITUSEDTOBELIKE

#RECOVERED

The only thing that will make me feel a little better as of right now is NOT EATING.