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my melody my beloved ♡

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my korilakkuma keychain plushies ՞⸝⸝> ༥ <⸝⸝՞

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i'm so tired of everything

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Cloud Elixir by NVDD. Very soon #fw3014

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Koi no Tsuki, Love and Fortune, 恋のツキ, 恋之月 by nitta akira.

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i wanna marry him soon :c

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i'm so in love with him, he doesn't even have any idea how much i do.

i did have feelings for guys way before him, and yes, i did fell for them hard too and gave everything i had. but for him, it's too different.

it doesn't feel like how i used to be so attached to someone. how i would always be 24/7 worried if they're getting tired, always thinking if i'm doing something wrong and if i'm still doing what they want, etc. it was obsessive attachment and it was ultimately draining yet it got me too addicted with wanting and keeping the attention i'm getting from men that never cared about me as much.

back then, whenever i get involved with a guy, i knew in an instant that it would be that kind attachment and yet, i chose to stay because i always keep the hope that maybe it's just in my brain or an assumption i'm so used to experiencing. but, it will always lead to me getting extremely hurt in the end because i expected too much and held on like an idiot.

all i really wanted was to feel loved. but i never felt it, i never knew what it felt like.

but for him, it's different. the very time i talked to him properly and learned more about him personally, it felt really unfamiliar. it's like in that second i felt like i was safe - like i know whatever i say, it will be okay. of course the stuff i said weren't overly weird (like we were already close), i still tried to protect myself somewhat because of all the hurt i've been through, until i just couldn't hold it in any further. i just talked and talked and talked. i said whatever i wanted and he did the same thing. we slowly opened up. i already liked him so much, i just couldn't really admit it. i became so anxious and cautious after everything, so i had to reject him at first. until i gave it a thought for a whole night if my decision was right and it felt wrong. really wrong. i was crying because i did that. and that next day, i'm glad he didn't really give up on communicating with me because it helped me a lot more to know if it's right to commit to him or not. but it was the very first time i experienced what it's like to mean so much to someone. he talked to me with care, he said all the right things, he made me laugh and we share many things than i ever thought. i thought before he wasn't so approachable, and it was only business he is after. but now, after talking to him that much, i never knew a home like this would exist. and i want to fully let myself indulge in it and stay forever. but i took my time because i know i wasn't really fully ready yet. now, it's been more than 5 months since we were together. i guess this is what love is. i never felt such warmth in my heart and i do want to treasure it forever. this is a different kind of attachment. it even feels wrong to call it "attachment" since it seems superficial and more associated with all i've been through from other people. but just being with him feels different. i feel happy, i feel comfortable, i don't feel worried or anxious (maybe at times but it's mostly just me fighting my brain towards healing), i don't cry everytime before i sleep anymore. i just don't feel anything negative anymore. i want to keep him in my life and i do hope he would let me stay too. but i know he will, he always reassured me that we will always be together no matter what happens. i love him. i love him so much. i want to say that as many times as i can on some mountain just so that the world can know that he's my everything. he has my entire heart and i know he'll always take care of it. i love you more than my entire being can pour out. i'll always try my best to take care of you too. let's have more memories and spend time more when we meet very soon. i'm looking forward to growing and building a life with you, what we both want and want to share with everyone else that is important to us. i do hope we live long too. i hope time will be slow so we can cherish every second we have together and even in the afterlife. right now, we may be busy and there could be problems but they're temporary as you always say. and that you will never abandon me no matter how difficult it is. after all of it, i'll always run back to you. i wait for the day when we can be together and continue to know you more and more face to face. until then, i love you. i love you. and thank you for everything. thank you for entering my life.

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Strawberry Cheesecake / Strawberry Tart

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at the end of the day it’s just you and your silly little life. so go on, enjoy it, be the person you want to be.

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akiko higashimura’s princess jellyfish || 東村アキコの『海月姫』

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https://www.instagram.com/p/B8oXbzqgFCS/?igshid=1g51knotn1fzk

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豚骨味增叉燒拉麵, 火遁爆辛拉麵, 火影忍者一樂拉麵, 一樂拉麵, 台北, 台灣

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blush nails ✿