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I wont respect you if you wont respect me

I really hate the fact that my parents answer me sarcastically when i ask them

But when i answer them sarcastically

It’s like I’m always the one at fault

I really hate the fact that they’re too closed minded to even notice it.

This is why i hate talking to my parents and i tend to shut myself in my room

and when i do they always scold me for it

Having annoying parents really sucks

Sometimes I wish i never have to communicate with them when i get home

I rather have my brother fetch me from school than to let my parents fetch me

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RANT

honestly im just fucking pissed

i dont know why but i cant even take the course i want in college my parents are always so centered towards this elite university and it just pisses me off

I want to take an art related course or a design centered course but that specific school they want me to be in doesnt even have it cuz it’s a business centered school

Meanwhile the school i want to be in has different courses ranging from law,business, med, and arts and i want to be in that school but my parents are hesistant to let me go because it’s too far from our place

Now the thing that pisses me OFF THE MOST HAS TO BE THE DAMN FACT THAT THEY TELL ME IM NOT INDEPENDENT ENOUGH WHEN IN FACT THEY’RE THE ONES HINDERING ME FROM ALL MY DAMN DECISIONS

we had this trip in our school on going to another country just for the fun of it

No parents just you, the school’s admins and your friends/ classmates

It’s optional for you to go and it isnt required

I wanted to go last year but my parents didnt let me go because i dont even know why

I KNOW THEY CARE I KNOW THEY’RE WORRIED

BUT COME ON CANT A GIRL JUST LIVE LIFE THE WAY SHE WANTS TO LIVE IT?

I CANT TRAVEL BY MYSELF , I CANT EVEN GO TO THE MALL WITH MY OWN BROTHER BY OURSELVES

It’s just suffocating me to the point that i have to be locked in my room forever

THEY COMPLAIN,THEY TELL ME HOW DEPENDENT I AM ON THEM WHEN IN FACT I CANT EVEN DO SHIT INDEPENDENTLY BECAUSE OF THEM

Im having anxiety problems and i shake when i talk to other people and i cant even socialize properly with other people that aren’t my closest friends because I’m A SHUT IN!!

I WANT TO MEET NEW PEOPLE, EXPERIENCE NEW CULTURES, AND BE INDEPENDENT

HOW

THE

HELL

CAN

I EVEN

LIVE THE LIFE

I WANT TO HAVE

I WANT TO BE A DESIGNER THEY WANT ME TO BE A BUSINESSWOMAN

SOMETIMES I TELL MYSELF WHY CANT I JUST HAVE THE FREEDOM TO CHOOSE WHO I WANT TO BE

WHILE MY OTHER FRIENDS HAVE THE FREEDOM TO CHOOSE THEIR SCHOOL THEIR CAREERS AND THEIR FUTURE

BUT FOR ME IT’S ALL DECIDED AND I CANT EVEN DECIDE FOR MYSELF

LIKE YEAH ILL HAVE THE CAREER ILL HAVE THE STABLE LIFESTYLE BUT AM I HAPPY? I AM NOT

I WONT ENJOY MY JOB I WONT ENJOY THE LIFESTYLE BECAUSE I DONT ENJOY WHAT IM DOING

IF I CHOOSE ANOTHER SCHOOL IM AFRAID ILL LOOK LIKE A FAILURE BECAUSE THEIR MINDSET IS OH YOU HAVE TO BE IN THIS SCHOOL SO WE CAN HAVE BRAGGING RIGHTS TO YOUR RELATIVES

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new bujo and a book im annotating for school!

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Narwhals for August

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