percythink

[percythink]

I really want to be excited by good omens season 3, but the fact that n*il has done those horrible things to these women makes me sick to my stomach. I don't think I'll be able to see good omens the same way I did before. I don't think that separating art from the artist is the right choice in this situation. At least for me.

[percythink]

Can we talk about Izzy Hands, his relationship with Ed and how tragic he is.

First of all, he might just be the best written character in the whole show. He is basically a personification of Ed's past. He didn't just feed into his darkness. He was the darkness. All throughout Ed's darkest times, he's been there, by his side. He was the encouragement, he was the chaos, he was the passion. It's kind of fitting that he is so overlooked, since he was basically just an extension of Ed. And on the contrary, Stede was the hope, brightness and freshness ahead of Ed.

But was Izzy really just that?

Let's look at it from his perspective. Imagine being so devoted to someone, so passionate, so loyal, only to be replaced. That in itself, must've been unimaginably hurtful, but to learn that the replacement is actually what made Ed evolve, blossom... that would've made anybody miserable. You were the one who stuck by his side, always ready for another order. He kept you on a leash and you yearned to be loved. And yet, you never got what you desired. You yearned for closure, but the only closure you could get was when he pushed you against the wall in pure anger, or when he spit on you with disgust. So you chased that. He has molded you into a pet of his own making, and you made sure he knew he was the master. That's how it has always been, and how it always would be. But then, when another person shows up, suddenly, you realize - he's changed. And he has changed for the better. So that means, he was always capable of it, you just weren't worthy enough. You realize how you made him who he was.

And with that, Izzy was stuck with the horrors by himself. That's when you realize, Ed was a piece of him, not the other way around. And he lost it. Gone. Forever.

[percythink]

i always find myself wanting to stay in a limbo, a purgatory of sorts. a bus ride to school, few quiet hours before sleep, a night before a big test, the smoke break. it gives me comfort, knowing i can wait, yet it feels me with a feeling of impending doom. like im falling from a building and im about to die, or im driving a car and its about to crash into another.

i wish i could stay in those moments forever.

they say that right before you die, your brain will show you your fondest memories. im pretty sure it's gonna be filled with me being still.