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you know what lets actually bring back lolcats, they were so simple and so benevolent. like check this out

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As someone with a fear of pregnancy, I usually hate the "afraid of pregnancy but has a baby anyway for him!!!" trope. I think its misogynistic and reduces the pain and terror and high chance of death that pregnancy presents. Despite this, I love the Hunger Games and its ending, where Katniss ends up happy with her children and Peeta, whereas usually I'd roll my eyes. Heres why I think that is.

My fear of pregnancy is mostly centred around pain/uncomfortability, which is what most main characters think about when the pregnancy trope is involved. They dont want to go through the body and mind altering/often destroying process pregnancy is (and before someone jumps down my throat im not anti pregnancy i just think ppl should be informed its very dangerous). So when the author plops them with a baby at the end bc they just love their lover so much, it feels... ignorant. Like theyre ignoring all the pain that they feel as though love can override it and presenting the only way they can truly be happy is if they have a baby. Its gross and I hate it.

But Katniss' fears arent about that. Theyre about having children who are born into the games, not the inherent horror of childbirth. Its more about bringing children into a world she knows will eat them alive and spit them out broken or dead or both. So when they end the book and theyve taken down the Capitol and there are no more hunger games, that bruden is lifted. Existing, having her children isnt shown as an obligation for her to be happy or complete and it isnt shown as her pushing through the fears of pain bc she loved peeta so much, its more of a screw you to the capitol. She is allowed to have her children, her private and raise them in a world that she is no longer afraid to have them in. And yes, Peeta plays a part in it, because what more to counter your fear of children in an uncertain world than a man you can always be certain will love you and them?

Its not a strong woman being told "you need a family and a man to be complete after telling the narrative repeatedly how you dont want that" its a "we have broken down the barriers that were previously holding you back, and you can be free now to have your family and it will be so radically different than you were expecting and that will fulfil you." They arent just children, theyre a representative of her triumph over the capitol. She fought to have them.

I know this makes no sense, she just means a lot to me.

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For real tho

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Big fan of this show

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never beating the gremlin allegations

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<3

hello, when you have the time, could you make one with jellyfish, please?

jellyfish png ♡🪼

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YOU THERE

HALT !!!

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My coworker who also owns a small business offered me a job at his business doing admin work

Thanks mom and dad for teaching me phone etiquette so I do well at talking to clients over the phone

And thanks autism for giving me a passionate love for spreadsheets

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Sometimes you're cold calling previous clients trying to get them to return, and the lady on the other end is actively in the hospital with her father

And you feel so insanely SHITTY

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Be ungovernable

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He's got his money and she's got her drugs, so they're both happy.

I see plenty of people celebrating Lahan anime day - I hope this contributes a tad bit to that too.

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Cult Goatin'

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weakest link 1/?

pt 2 (eventually)

Inspired by all those fics where, if gravely injured, the first person Narinder calls out to is not Shamura, but Kallamar the coward.

greatly influenced by that one fic that I cannot find, which had Narinder say he looked up to him, not because of his domain's splendor as Kallamar had expected, but because he had the ability to ease pain, whereas Death can only end it..

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@importantcatpics

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after the family's funeral

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I think I can comfortably say that I am the only person on the planet who has drawn a Wonderbread manatee.