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Would you ever consider drawing squad leader Hange?

Hanjo needs sleep.

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My OC Sieanor (rbs appreciated)

art taglist @stoned-eren @wyvernslovecake @byteofsoup @phantommaws @junipers-dreamscape

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Thanks for tagging me Val @youre-ackermine

I have the entire alliance protecting me (minus Hange) so I think I’ll do just fine 🧍

Starting off the unhinged tag game with (no pressure):

@daisynik7 , @likelilacwine , @crisae , @nanamikentoseyebags , @wolfnlamb , @gunfiendbabymama , @fairykiins , @wurm-food, @duckiemimi , @ummmlife , @pinkished and anyone who would like to join 🫶

Also, this could go either way depending on your answer 😏

Here’s mine and somehow I feel safe enough

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this is what i imagine coming out to hange is like

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Me when birthday month 😬 (I’m 23 in 3 weeks)

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Squeak...?

Burrow Titan being picked up by the Armored titan (post war in my AU). Burrow squeaks when he's startled.

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“You don’t post anything anymore”

I am so exhausted 24/7 because I’m awake every day from 4am until 10pm and I’m on medication that has sucked the joy out of everything I used to love doing. Chapter 8 is coming soon, I promise. I’ve just had to take a HUGE mental health break.

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Veterans! 🤩

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Vent

I would like to preface this post by letting you know in advance that I will be mentioning things to do with my declining mental health and suicidal thoughts and ideation. It is far from my intention to trigger anybody who reads this and so, I kindly request that if these are triggers for you, that you please skip out on reading this post. Thank you.

I know that some of you may have been wondering why I decided to take a break from social media earlier this week. Unfortunately, I have been severely mentally unstable for a very long time and recently began to feel suicidal, and it took a lot of courage for me to just make that first move into seeking help.

It was far from an easy task for me to do because of things that have occurred in my past that make it difficult for me to open up about my thoughts and feelings to other people. It's nothing to do with how I was raised as my Dad unfortunately has suffered with severe depression ever since I can remember, but there's always that fear in the background of being judged despite knowing your family and friends will always support you.

And so, I was brave and I booked an appointment with my GP about my mental health issues. It was incredibly helpful as I have been provided with many useful links and methods of self-help, and I am now on antidepressants to help me with those horribly self-destructive thoughts. I am starting to feel somewhat better already, and I will be making sure to refer myself to the therapy/counselling links that were provided to me by my GP.

I have a lot of unresolved trauma from my teenage years that has been rattling around in my head and festering for the past eleven years, and it's time for me to finally take care of myself and get the help that I need. I just wish that I could have been brave enough to do so sooner.

But if you've made it this far into my vent, thank you. I know that it really isn't easy to read about how somebody else is suffering; trust me, I've been there. But thank you to everyone who has been there for me throughout the past year. I truly appreciate every single one of you and the little things that you guys do to make me smile every day. Sharing art, making funny posts, dropping small notes of positivity into my inbox; every single one of these means so much more to me than I can possibly put into words.

And to those of you who are in much a similar position as myself, you are not alone. I know that it isn't easy but there are people out there who love and appreciate you and the fact that they have you in their lives; family, friends, sometimes strangers on the internet who you met by chance and have become such close friends that it's almost as though you could be siblings. My point is, you matter and you are seen. And if all you did today was just manage to hold yourself together, then I am so very proud of you.

~ Holly / Spencer

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I’m going to be taking a prolonged break for the sake of my horrible mental health. See you all on the other side 🫡

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Thank you to everyone who got me to 1000 likes!

I never imagined that I would get this far but here I am haha 😅

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Domestic retired Levihan (they sacrificed their remaining braincells to the war)

Original: Way of the House Husband manga

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A thank you gift for @akaritakutranslations for taking my request.

Part 2 HERE  (Doesn’t work with Tumblr app. Please use a different browser. Sorry, it’s a long comic.)

Comic by 이넉긷 ,Source , Twitter

Permission given by the artist. Please support the artist! Please DO NOT repost anywhere else.

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It’s wipWednesday on Twitter and although I said no more sneak peeks, I just HAVE to put this up here. I haven’t touched this in a few days now but here’s more of the wedding chapter 🥰

Hange looked to the side upon hearing Onyankopon, seeing Falco approaching them. The young man was dressed in incredibly smart formal clothes; a simple black suit and he smiled with warmth and pride as he arrived at the end of the aisle. Clutched in his hands was a small white box, and when he stood before Onyankopon, Falco carefully opened it to reveal a pair of rings.

Upon gentle urging, Levi carefully grasped the ring intended for Hange and pulled it from the box; it was a simple band made of platinum that shone like a mirror as it caught the light. Levi gave a small sigh before gently holding Hange’s hand, clutching the ring as he gazed lovingly into their eyes.

“Hange, this ring is a representation of my love for you; I am yours, now and forever for the rest of eternity. It is the gift that lasts forever just as the ring itself has no end. Know that I am always going to be there beside you. I love you, always.”

Levi’s voice was gentle and filled with nothing but pure love and warmth which wasn’t lost on Hange. The platinum band effortlessly slid onto their finger, and they couldn’t help but admire the way that the sun reflected off the highly polished surface. It was simple, but that had been exactly what they and Levi had wanted.

“And now your ring to Levi, Hange.”

Hange took in a deep breath, hoping that it at least made them give off some kind of sense of courage, and proceeded to take the second silvery-coloured band from the box where it lay. They held it up as Levi offered his hand to them, and they almost felt giddy with excitement as they prepared themself.

“Levi, I give you this ring on this beautiful summer evening as a token of my undying love and appreciation for you and everything that you have ever done for me. It is my way of showing you just how much I love you; to show you that I am absolutely delighted to be the person who has the honour of calling you their husband from this moment until forever.

“May it serve as a reminder that you are always going to be in my heart, and that you are mine to cherish forever until the end of time for not even death itself shall part us.”

The ring slid onto Levi’s finger with ease, and Hange couldn’t help but gaze into their lover’s eyes. This was it, the moment for which they had been eagerly waiting for such a long time. Hange could only just hold back the excitement they felt, heart racing in their chest as Falco retreated to his space beside Gabi.

Onyankopon gave a smile as he looked at his two closest friends stood before him, their hands now adorned with the wedding bands that they had each chosen. Seeing their relationship blooming throughout the five years that he had known them had been incredible to witness, and he couldn’t help but admire the pure adoration that they had for each other.

“Levi and Hange, you have each expressed your unwavering love for each other in the most beautiful way through the commitment and promises you have just made to each other. You have kissed many a thousand times, maybe even more. But today brings the beginning of a new journey where you are not simply just best friends and partners, rather now becoming husband and wife. And, with this today, this next kiss is a promise with which you seal your marriage.”

Hange’s lips were soft, almost like silk against Levi’s own as they leaned in toward each other. His fingers teased the strands of their hair as he breathed in the slightly earthy scent of their skin. What he wouldn’t give to stay in this moment for the rest of his life, and time itself felt like it stood still as he and his now-spouse parted. Hange gazed at him with nothing but love, and it felt like a pleasant warmth settled in across his chest.

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I have the huge one of these dragons. His name is Moss and they were my reward for finishing my final university project.

Moss and Sprout 💚

Finally have another small dragon. Her name is Ivy and her tail sticks up in a very silly fashion

Ft. her big brother Basil the medium dragon

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Hange is a biter 100%. Feral little goblin, they especially bite people who they love. It’s affectionate but it still hurts.

List of AoT Characters Who Have Been Told Off for Biting:

(Not for shifter purposes.)

Sasha (food related)

Eren (he’s batshit insane and off the wall)

Floch (he’s an asshole)

Hange (they’re insane and got overexcited) (Moblit needed stitches)

Ymir (she’s an asshole) (also thought it was funny)

Armin (lost the plot one time) (Jean won’t stop making fun of him for it)

Gabi (she’s batshit insane and off the wall just like Eren)

Pieck (forgot that she can’t carry people in her mouth in human form, it was an accident she swears)

Bertholdt (he was really overtired and angry, leave him alone) (also Ymir convinced him to try it one day)

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PikuHan Snippet - Pale Reflections

I’ve been sitting on this wip for a little while and don’t know where to take it. I’ve only been in the AOT fandom for just under a year and my current fic is focused on LeviHan, but I’m also writing a oneshot to show my love for PikuHan. I would love any comments and/or constructive criticism on what I have so far, or for you as the reader to hopefully enjoy my content so far <3

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What if?

It was a question that plagued her as she sat on the mattress in complete silence, long black hair tangled from neglect. The night was cold and dark, and with it came the horrible thoughts and feelings of despair; Pieck was no stranger to such emotions now – they were commonplace in her day-to-day life following the Rumbling.

The battle had been the hardest she had ever fought in her life and she revelled in the knowledge that she was able to return to her father. However, nothing could ever come close to helping the heavy pain of loss that settled across her entire being like a blanket.

The war had not been without severe casualty; despite the immense efforts of everyone in the Alliance, they had only managed to save a fraction of humanity – a meagre 20%. Yes, she had to admit that it was better than nothing, but her heart ached whenever she thought about it too much. About what it had meant, considering how she had suffered such a deep, personal loss from which she wasn’t sure she could recover from.

Upon first meeting them, Hange Zoë had come across as nothing more than a crazed, eccentric soldier with a passion for science and nothing more. However, as Pieck had taken the time to get to know them better, she had learned that behind their strange demeanour lay a kindhearted person who just wanted to understand more about the world and those who resided in it.

It was admirable, and she had taken the time to sit with the Commander and tell them everything that she knew about the people of the world, the different countries and cultures. It had been worth it to see the way that the light would return to Hange’s eyes and the way that they would smile upon learning something new.

That smile.

Oh, that smile. How Pieck longed to see it again, even if just once. Hange had rarely smiled in the days leading up to the beginning of the Rumbling, and that fact alone made the former titan shifter sink further into her feelings of despair.

No matter how hard she tried, she would always fail to conjure up an image of Hange’s smile. Even their face was slowly starting to look blurry whenever Pieck imagined them, and it terrified her to no end when she realised that she was also beginning to forget the sound of Hange’s voice.

Laying down and curling under the covers did nothing to soothe her horrible thoughts. It had been roughly eight months since the Rumbling had been stopped, and yet the pain felt as fresh as the day it happened. The bed was cold and Pieck felt so very lonely, trying to ignore the fact that the one she longed for would never be able to share it with her.

She missed the way that Hange would hold her close at night, arms wrapped around her chest while her head rested under the older scout’s chin. The way that they would kiss the back of her neck while whispering sweet nothings about the plans they had made together for a future family – a future that would now never happen. It made Pieck feel physically sick with grief, to imagine a life that would now never be lived.

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Eight Months Prior

Pieck shuffled uncomfortably from foot to foot as she stood there on the stage alongside the other members of the Alliance. Something about being stood in front of a crowd of thousands of people felt so inherently wrong to her – she hated the thought of being put on a pedestal for simply doing what was right.

“These medals have been presented to each of you as a symbol of your bravery in the Battle of Heaven and Earth. May your names be committed to the history books and may the many generations to come tell the story of your heroic deeds upon this land.”

The cold metal felt like a deadweight sat there upon her chest. She didn’t want this; all she wanted was for her deeds that day to be forgotten and for her to live out the rest of her life in peace with her friends and family. But now, she knew that was not a possibility for her. The Alliance would be expected to take up the mantle of being ambassadors for Marley. To negotiate with the island of Paradis and be responsible for preventing any future conflicts was an incredibly big responsibility for anyone, but for Pieck it felt like the weight of the world itself was resting on her shoulders.

“Captain Levi Ackerman, I believe that you wanted to say some words?”

She brought her gaze back up to follow the Captain as he slowly made his way up to the podium, struggling even with the cane he now used to help himself walk short distances. He looked so tired and pained, and his voice matched his expression as he began his speech.

“There are many things to be said about the events that have transpired here. The losses suffered by everyone who has survived were unnecessary and I personally cannot even begin to imagine how I would apologise for the lives that were cut short. But from the ashes of devastation rises a new era for the future of humanity, one in which I am hopeful for peace between the people of Eldia and the world.

“It has taken an innumerable amount of sacrifice to bring about an end to the Rumbling, and none other stands out more than that of our selflessly brave leader and Commander, Hange Zoë…”

It felt as though her entire body reacted upon hearing her lover’s name mentioned in the Captain’s speech…

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