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𝖠𝗋𝗍 𝖻𝗒 𝖠𝗇𝗇𝖺-𝖫𝖺𝗎𝗋𝖺 𝖲𝗎𝗅𝗅𝗂𝗏𝖺𝗇 | 𝖨𝖦: 𝖺𝗇𝗇𝖺𝗅𝖺𝗎𝗋𝖺_𝖺𝗋𝗍

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I loved you once

And I love you still

Always have

and always will

Even tho you’ve destroyed my soul

Ripped out my heart and left a hole

Absconding with the light you stole

I promised you this life and next

You loved me not for who I am

Only for what you could make me be

I loved you as you were and are

But I wish you’d love me for me

I tried to text and tried to call

Maybe in a way I’m trying to stall

As I curl up and start to ball

I still long to hear your voice

You so you’re disgusted by my body

You say I’m ugly as sin

You think of of her to get it up

But it dies once it goes in

Every night I cry for hours

And every day I long for flowers

In a garden that is all ours

But ‘‘twas never meant to be

I saw my future in your eyes

I wanted to start a family together

But according to you I’m beyond unworthy

Yet somehow still you’ll “love me forever”

Why can’t you just love me for me

Why is my worth based on my body

I’m sorry that I’m not a hottie

But I’ve been trying so fucking hard

I worked my ass off to loose the weight

135 pounds and counting

All of this in just 10 months

And yet your disgust is ever mounting

Call me crazy if you want

As I grow ever more gaunt

Your words are a spectre never ceasing to haunt

Your voice ringing out from the spectre

But it’s ok, I was born alone

And in the end I’ll die alone too

I’m sorry I wasn’t pretty enough

Or that I’ll never be good enough for you

But that’s the way the pages turn

And that the way our bridges burn

But it’s my fault I had to learn

My mother was right all along

“Love me tender and kiss me sweet”

You said to me on our first date

But it turned out to be a facade

As for my body you had so much hate

“I am nobody, who are you?

Are you nobody too?”

It seems that now our story is thru

Im sorry I was both too much, and not enough.

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Supermoon is rising behind Istanbul's Camlica Mosque by johannes_moths.

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Istanbul, Turkey 

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Cozy kitchens 🧺

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summer, baby <3

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by dominik.hildner

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i love this one

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Save Trees - journal / scrapbook / letter kit

Just updated my etsy shop. Come check it out for wonderful little things you can use for your journal and letter. If you’re placing an order, don’t forget to leave me a message saying you’re from my tumblr so that I can include some extra things in your package!

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April 2018