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pidayforpi · 17 hours
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WIP Wednesday
(Something I have written 1.5 years ago, uploaded here as a draft 0.5 years ago, and only posted now.)
(And a WIP of a work that won't be finished in the near future. But a WIP I am quite proud of, and of a story that will mean a lot to me.)
[Legit Warning: Depression, Mention of Suicidal Ideation]
...Sleep didn't help, because I couldn't sleep at all.
I just closed my eyes and waited, for varying lengths of time. And then somehow, before I knew, the sun would be back again. And now it was the start of another new day.
They kept telling me I should sleep early so that I could have the energy to enjoy the next day. But what was so great about tomorrow that I needed to sleep early for?
The vision of a new day was ever cheerful, but the morning sunlight was nothing but agonising. Mocking and taunting me for having the pleasure of living another day.
I started feeling sluggish, and the feeling intensified day by day. I didn't have a choice to just lie down and do nothing. I would just get dragged up. I would just drag myself up.
Although, sometimes, when I lay on my bed in the early morning, looking at the same old ceiling, I found myself thinking...
"I wish I never woke up again."
I wish I could just close my eyes and never open them again.
Like Sleeping Beauty in the fairy tales, falling into an eternal slumber.
And when I woke up, a prince charming would be there to give me eternal happiness.
Or I would just sleep forever, and that would be just as fine.
Because I didn't have the energy to wake up again.
I didn't have the energy to get up again.
I didn't have the energy to lie to myself anymore.
Eventually, I slept a lot more, sometimes a lot less.
Although I definitely spent a lot more time lying on my bed.
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But on that day, when I opened my eyes to the same sun...
I saw salvation.
For the first time, I found myself happy to see the light of day.
I found a purpose to wake up to.
Days are no longer colourless. Every day is an adventure. Every morning, I have something to be excited for. Every afternoon, I have something that makes me glad to be alive.
When I lay on my bed again tonight, I looked up to the stars that I had never seen in my home city. There, I finally found something that made it worth sleeping early for. I finally found something that made me look forward to tomorrow.
In this strange world, I finally found hope.
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pidayforpi · 2 days
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Growing up in a very small city, I find it fascinating to see someone coming from the same place as I do.
My hometown (homecity?) is not only (geographically) small, but is also...very boring. Not boring in the sense of there's nothing to do there, not at all. In fact, if you mean modern entertainments, there are lots of them: Theme parks, cinemas, museums, pubs, restaurants...and an excessive amount of shopping malls.
But when it comes to arts and fandoms...I find it severely lacking there.
The only form of media that most of us are interested in is anime (which is why I am also a weeb), and...that's it. And some video games too. But even then there isn't a fandom for those things.
(Like I am sure a lot of us know what Pokémon is, and probably love it too, but you won't see people making fanarts or conventions for it)
So, there's a lot of things I am interested in that others won't know and/or be interested as well. I am sure out of all the fandoms I am in, 50% of the population will have no idea what any of those are (I can bet that 70% of the population have no idea what Darkwing Duck or Tiny Toons are). For very famous productions, they will probably know what those are, but only the broad idea and basic concept (e.g. They will probably know Donald Duck and maybe Scrooge McDuck, but not Ducktales).
And I am sure almost no one is aware there is something called a "furry fandom".
Or, even if they know such a thing exists - or are even interested in it - they won't say or admit it. Actually, I was one of those people, because it's kind of a taboo if you did so (they will either have no idea what you are talking about, or you will be seen as childish and/or weird).
At least, talking from my personal experience.
So that's why, when I first saw a furry artist living in the same place as I was...
Back in my Twitter days, in spring of 2019, I came across them. I forgot what was the first post I saw of them. It was probably a furry artwork that caught my eye, but what led me to stay was the info in the bio.
A flag emoji, and their location.
Among many of their wonderful artworks, I saw photographs. Of places I knew. Of public transport, brands, roads and sceneries...that I knew.
I especially remember them sharing one of their meals eating out, and that was exactly my favourite restaurant chain to dine in during those days.
I remember looking through those photos for an hour, absolutely surprised and astonished. I couldn't believe it, that someone so talented and with the same interest as I did, was living on the same ground as I was. In the same boring city, where I thought I was the only "weird one".
And then I wondered: Would we have possibly met? I probably wouldn't know them in real life, but would we have at least crossed paths? Be in the same place, at the same time? Had they walked on the same road as I did? Had they eaten at the same restaurant as I did? Had we sat on the same seat in a shop, in a park, on a bus or a train?
Having just watched Makoto Shinkai's "Your Name", those thoughts crossed and filled my mind like waves crashing into me.
I never interacted with them other than likes and retweets. They won't know I exist. I just know them as an online fursona and a talented artist, residing somewhere in that crowded city we call home. We will probably never ever meet, never get to know each other. Especially not now.
But if I were to say something to them, I would thank them for existing and sharing their works with the world.
For they have shown me I wasn't alone.
(25-3-2024)
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孤独感に関する漫画
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Animation remake of a scene from DuckTales.
From Donald to Duck Avenger
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"I don't think I've seen you before." "I am, as the Americans say, from out of town."
Morcego Verde finally lands at Duckburg and meets its greatest defender. Insert shenanigans because Jose and Donald don't recognize each other because of their superhero personas.
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Dungeons & Ducks!
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Platypus + Vaporwave = Platy Wave!
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Some Fantasy AU designs!!
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Dawn runs the local tavern that her and her husband Tony own, Natalie owns the town bakery, and Fenton is a guard/housecarl for the alchemist Gyro, who is unwillingly made Jarl of this village by King Scrooge. MD (Mad Ducktor) is there too as an assistant that Gyro makes.
I wish I could show you those designs, but they aren't quite ready yet. Anyways... I've been playing too much Skyrim.
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Geaks Week Day 1: Dragon
@geaksweek2024
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I recently caught back up on Betsy Lee's No Evil and remembered I had a buncha Corns I never posted from 2020! I went through a whole-ass sculpting phase that never made it to tumblr, lol
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Just woke up and I’m already feeling so tired. Social media  + Commissions  + PAPERCUT
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Ducktales Theme Song starts playing...
Insert a plot line where Scrooge takes advantage of Trip's abilities in the horse track and they all get into huge trouble. Trouble with who? Glomgold and his goons, of course. Or worse, two angry dads.
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This scene happened for real ...
except the last panel (ywy)
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Fanarts by @pand-a-mort
DO NOT REPOST/STEAL PLEASE. Thank you.
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blazer style
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pidayforpi · 5 days
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It starts! Tomorrow!
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pidayforpi · 6 days
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do you have any other drawings of Duke? 👀 asking for a friend
if they’re behind a paywall i completely understand, i just like looking at him. i mean my friend likes looking at him…
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I got some doodles from my sketchbook! :>
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Freaky duck with hands
I actually got him as an adopt from @ratmeatzone !
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He's literally perfect. I mean. Look at that hair
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May I please request something Negs x Fenton related? With more jokes about Jim’s height?
ill use this as an excuse to post these all...
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