pillowbelphs

[pillowbelphs]

Aha... aha.... hi.

so. i have been gone for a while. BUT IN MY DEFENSE — i’m graduating college in TWO WEEKS. this semester was really tough, so i put away the writing fingers to focus on school. but now, since i am almost completely done with my final paper, i feel comfortable enough to start writing again!

i wont start writing daily until after i graduate (may 19th) but until then i’ll do one or two, maybe three scenarios or prompts per week, starting tomorrow!!!! so please flood my inboxes with whatever!!! i missed y’all :’)

xoxo

admin m

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ALSO: SOOOO LATE, BUT THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR 100 FOLLOWERS!!

although it’s much closer to 200 now... i’m sorry i’ve been gone so long but thank you truly! i love you all so so much :D

xoxo moon

[pillowbelphs]

Hello all and welcome back to my page!

I am back from my vacation (though it wasn’t really a vacation, i was simply helping a family member move) and am ready to write again!!!

i have a bunch of requests to do so i’ll get to them now, but feel free to send more in!

i hope you all had a wonderful christmas if you celebrate it, if not i hope your new year’s eve was wonderful and happy 2021!

ALSO: Y’all do not Know how hard i have been trying to get Beel or Belphies UR+ card, but look who i pulled today!!!! like a little late christmas present for me!!

lots of love!

xoxo moon

[pillowbelphs]

Angst time 😈 could I request a ficlet of belphie finding out the MC doesn't like him and has PTSD because of him? Like maybe they're alone with him they go full fight or flight mode and if he tries to help they just beg him not to hurt them? Sorry if this too specific adkfhj

It’s alright, it wasn’t too specific at all!

I’m not very good at writing angst, so i hope i did your prompt justice!

here it is, happy reading!

xoxo moon

[pillowbelphs]

One Step at a Time

Genre: Angst

Word count: 900

anonymous asked: Angst time 😈 could I request a ficlet of belphie finding out the MC doesn't like him and has PTSD because of him? Like maybe they're alone with him they go full fight or flight mode and if he tries to help they just beg him not to hurt them? Sorry if this too specific adkfhj

author’s note: I hope i did your prompt justice!!!  thank you for requesting, and happy (even though its angst) reading!

xoxo moon

warning: this scenario has spoilers for lesson 16! if you haven’t read that far, don’t read this scenario!

You were nervous. You had never been left alone with Belphie since he had tried to, for lack of a better term, murder you in front of his brothers, but all of the brothers aside from him had gone to a meeting for the school board, which meant that you would be left alone with him for the majority of the day.

To be honest, you were terrified of him.

Regardless of Beel’s promises of him genuinely being a good demon, and only having his judgements clouded by what happened to Lilith, it was hard to forgive him for what he did to you that day. Every time you thought about him, or even heard of his name, it sent shivers down your spine.

What if you hadn’t found out you were a distant relative of Lilith? What if he had ended up seriously hurting you? Every time you think about it, you’re brought back to that day, and it frightens you to your very core.

You tried not to leave your room much the day you were left alone with him, not knowing if he would ever leave the attic or not, but by 6PM, you had realized that you hadn’t eaten since the morning. You decided to go down to the kitchen as quickly as possible to grab a snack, and haul yourself back up in your room for the rest of the night until the other brothers came home.

Of course, though, as almost if by perfect inconvenience, as you were searching through the fridge for the food you had packed away last night, you heard foot steps coming down the stairs.  You felt your body begin to tremble, and found it hard to shut your eyes, for every time you did, you would be brought back to that day. You felt tears well in your eyes as your body almost refused to move itself from the fridge.

Soon, the demon came into the kitchen, pillow in hand, walking straight past you in search of food. What he didn’t realize, though, was that his pillow gently grazed your back as he passed, and you had thought it was his hand

You let out a soft yelp, quickly slamming the fridge shut and running towards the stairs.

“(y/n)?” you heard his voice call after you, “what’s wrong? what happened?”

you covered your ears as you closed and locked your door behind you, softly weeping as you sank down to the ground.

You trusted Beel with all of your heart, but how could a demon who tried to kill you be a good demon in the long run?

Belphie made his way to your room, halting the knock on your door as he heard you softly weep from the other side. He didn’t quite know what to do in this situation, but he promised Beel that if he saw you he would try and comfort you (as Beel told Belphie you were a bit nervous), and he couldn’t break his promise.

He sat against the door, back pressed against it like yours was as he grabbed his phone.

As your soft sobs stopped and you uncovered your ears, you heard music playing from the other side. It was a song you had told Beel you liked and that calmed you down—he must have relayed the information on to Belphie at some point. 

You sat and listened, Belphie replaying the song for you until he couldn’t hear you sniffling anymore.

“(y/n),” he spoke after the song ended,  voice as gentle as he could make it. his voice, though, still sent chills down your spine. You couldn’t help but think of the maniacal laugh he let out as he gathered you in his arms when you let him out of the attic. “May I come in?”

You didn’t know what to do. You felt yourself trembling as you stood, looking at the doorknob. You promised Beel that you would give him a chance to redeem himself one day, but you just didn’t know if you were ready or not. 

You reached for the doorknob, turning it slightly to unlock it, before you backed up towards your bed. 

Belphie slowly pushed open the door, leaving it open so you two wouldn’t be trapped together. He took a step towards you—only one, and yet it had you cowering again. You went to your knees, holding them as you shook.

“Please,” you said weakly, tears beginning to cloud your eyes again, “Just….Just don’t hurt me.”

Belphie watched as you cowered in front of him. Before this point, that’s what he wanted; he wanted humans to fear him. And yet, watching you do it felt like a knife to his heart. He stepped back again, reaching into the hallway to grab some things; his pillow, and a pudding.

“You haven’t eaten all day,” he mumbled, placing the pudding down on the ground in between you two. “You shouldn’t have to go without eating because you’re scared to see me.”

You didn’t say a word to him, sniffing as you looked at the pudding.

“It’s not open or anything… You need to eat something.”

Belphie stood in silence, watching as you rocked yourself a bit.

“I won’t hurt you. But I know you don’t want to see me, so i’m going to go back into the attic, okay?”

Silence.

As Belphie walked towards the door, he looked back at you. 

“(y/n), i’m really sorry.”

With that, he closed the door, leaving him in the hallway as you stared at the pudding he had left you. 

You trusted Beel with all of your heart, but you just weren’t ready to forgive and forget yet.

[pillowbelphs]

I’m literally so in love with your writing 💞 hope you’re having a good night/say whatever time it is for you! 💞💞

WAAAA I GOT THIS LAST NIGHT AFTER I FELL ASLEEP ;-; thank you so so much, it makes me so happy to know that you like my writing o.o i hope you’re having a good day/night as well my dear c:

xoxo moon

[pillowbelphs]

[screeching while banging pots and pans] MOON IS BACK PEOPLE THIS IS NOT A DRILL

WWAAAAAA YES I’M BACK AND READY TO WRITE HELLO ANON :D

xoxo moon

[pillowbelphs]

Hello 🏵️♥️ is it okay if I request some smut content with the undatables (without Luke of course!!) Maybe about their first time doing it with MC (?) ♥️♥️

ooOoOoOooooOoO saucy ;) i’m going to do it in headcanon form, so it’ll be a couple of quick bullet points, i hope that’s okay!

happy reading!

xoxo moon

the undateable’s doing it with MC for the first time~

NSFW UNDER THE CUT

Diavolo;

- with him i feel like there would be lots of foreplay beforehand, but he doesn’t quite head to your warnings of overstimulation because he wants to make you ~feel good~

- very big boy...but like, almost unaware of how big he is

- like he knows he’s big...but he almost doesn’t?  so he is very gentle with you the first time 

- but also he like, grabs you a bit roughly

- he kind of enjoys the sound you make when he does that....he makes a mental note to do that again at a later date

-  he likes the aftercare part of it, he runs you two a bath afterwards, so you get to relax against his chest c:

Barbatos;

- WHY does barbatos strike me as a kinky little bastard

- it’s because he’s so proper and kind when near Diavolo, so I bet he’s a little freaky when you get him alone ;)

- i don’t see him as being the nervous type when it comes to this stuff, especially with MC. He probably would have been a relationship with them for a long time before he decided to do anything so it’s not like there's anything to worry about

- wouldn’t get too freaky yet, and would rather take care of mc and make sure they’re okay

- i feel like he would be able to go for another round after the first time (if you’re up for it) and that’s when he’d start being a kinky little shit 

- get ready to be tied up if you want to go for round two~

Simeon;

- maybe it’s because he’s an angel, but i feel like he would be a very sweet lover

- very attentive to mc and their needs;  a lot of foreplay before you actually do it, like Diavolo, but i feel like he would know when do stop before you get overstimulated

- is literally in love with your body; he leaves little kisses and love bites everywhere and often praises your body and how beautiful he thinks you are

-  he likes the closeness and intimacy of it all, i feel like he would be the type to hold hands while he was doing anything :( what a sweetie pie

- very gentle, he wouldn’t want to hurt mc 

- and cuddling after c: lots of words of love and appreciation for you 

Solomon;

- another kinky little shit

- is a little goofy when it comes to sex, like he likes to make you laugh? Idk why i think he does but he definitely likes to like, make you giggle. maybe its because he’s low-key ~nervous~ to do anything with mc because he doesn’t want to mess it up

- so his instinct is to make like funny remarks

- that sometimes come off as dirty talk...but it’s not unappreciated

- the first time wouldn’t be planned or anything like that, it would probably just happen? and i feel like you two would have probably experimented with foreplay before you wanted to do anything for your first time, so he would probably be more aware of the things you like and don’t like than the others are

- probably would leave a bunch of marks on you because he likes the noises you make when he sucks on your skin, so get ready to be teased about those for the next couple of days ~

[pillowbelphs]

If you take requests, How do you headcanon everyone would react if Luke got into a fight with a low level demon... and won!

WAAA OH OKAY! this is quite interesting!

i’m not sure if you meant like, *everyone* everyone, or just all of the demon brothers, so i just did the demon brothers for now! if you want the rest, let me know!

xoxo moon

Brothers react to Luke winning a fight !!

Lucifer;

- he would worry if the fight was anywhere near R.A.D school property so it wouldn’t be an inconvenience to him and Diavolo

- though he would be intrigued as to why an angel needed to fight a demon

- pretends not to be intrigued, though; just wanted to know details to make sure it wouldn’t cause him to have to do paperwork

- “Was any blood shed near the main building? No? alright.”

- isn’t sure if he should congratulate him or not

Mammon;

- “Wow, Fido, I didn’t know you had it in you!!”

- would gain a little bit more respect for luke. A little.

- would probably say that they should start having matches where people pay to watch so they could make a little extra money

- when luke refused, he would probably roll his eyes

- “cmon! you’re a bad-boy now, ain’t ya? Let’s exploit the weak little demons who can’t stand a chance against luke!!”

Levi;

- i don’t think he would be *too* interested

- he would find it quite shocking that luke won in a fight, but wouldn’t really know how to react

- like lucifer, he would be kind of confused

- “should i congratulate him? ask why the fight happened?”

- would give him a high five since that’s his default thing to do when he’s confused

Satan;

- wouldn’t be interested, but he would pretend to care because luke looks excited to tell his story

- he would find it funny, though

- what kind of demon would be so weak to let little Luke beat him?

- “I mean, good for you if you wanted to win, but what did this demon look like?”

- i feel like satan would also give him an awkward little high five because luke seemed so happy to win >.<

Asmo;

- “let me check your hands to see if you have any bruises, i’m sure I have some cream to help them!”

- i feel like rather than focusing on the fight, asmo would focus on luke’s physical condition

- they aren’t friends necessarily, but he doesn’t like seeing people hurt

- would probably offer to help him get better if he came back with any bruises while luke tells him the story

- “good for you my dear, now hold still while I apply this ointment”

Beel;

- would ask why they fight happened, if more people wanted to fight, and ask if Luke told him because he needed more protection 

- “do you want me to walk around with you for a while? no of course i’m happy you won...i think...i just want to make sure youre safe.”

- would probably like...pat  Luke on the head? if luke looked like he was proud of winning the fight

- idk he would probably be as equally as confused as satan and levi but would be more worried about it luke was in danger or not

- “do you need to hide out in my room again for good measure? though i think lucifer might get mad again..”

Belphegor;

- would not care at all and would not even act like he did

- “...why are you telling me this?”

- would probably give a half assed “congrats” to luke while luke pouts angrily.

- cmon, belphie, you’re supposed act surprised!! an angel won in a fight against a demon!!

- would probably say something like, “and what will happen if michael hears about the fight?” to scare luke off  

[pillowbelphs]

Could you write something for number 18 and Barbatos please? Thanks.

hello hello!! of course you can!! the scenario you want is here, happy reading!

xoxo moon

[pillowbelphs]

First Impressions

Genre: Comedy, a little bit of fluff if you squint

word count: 700

anonymous asked: Could you write something for number 18 and Barbatos please? Thanks.

Fluff prompt number 18. “You come here often?” “Well considering I work here, yes.” from this list

Author’s note: if you have any other requests, feel free to drop by my inbox!! happy reading!

xoxo moon

You had only met Barbatos once or twice—Though both times were in passing, so you never got to give a proper introduction. You saw him roaming around Diavolo most of the time, and though you knew Diavolo was kind, you were too nervous to bug the Demon Prince, or the man who seemed to be his right-hand man. 

You and the brothers, though, were invited to the castle of the Demon Prince, for a welcoming party for all of the new exchange students.

You were nervous, to say the least—you were unsure of how to act at the castle of the demon prince, and you knew that Mammon would attempt to steal some valuables, so you had to keep your eye on him, as Lucifer deemed you his “keeper���.

You dressed nicely, a-la the advice of the demon brothers, and went on your way to the castle.

When you arrived, Diavolo greeted you with open arms. “(y/n), our newest exchange student!” he smiled, patting your back, “i’m so glad you can make it! Feel free to walk around the property, there’s a really pretty garden outside! Make yourself at home! There’s a buffet table ov—“

“Buffet?" Beel asked, following Diavolo’s finger to where the table of assorted foods sat, quickly making his way over there.

As the demon brothers all spread out to eat or mingle, Mammon wandered over to you.

“C’mon, (y/n),” Mammon said, grabbing your arm, “If you’re my keeper, that means you have to be my accomplice in this.”

Mammon dragged you to the depths of the house and into a tiny room, trying to get you to help you steal, but you refused to put anything in your pockets.

“No, Mammon!” you whispered, watching as he grabbed what seemed to be a small, but expensive-looking candle holder. “Can we please just get out of here? Please?”

“Damn, human!” he said, very gently pushing you towards the door, “You don’t have to steal with me if you don’t want to, but you need to do something! So go be on look out!”

“Ugh!” you groaned, Mammon shutting the door behind you as he continued to ransack the room. As you turned around, you were met with a semi-familiar face.

“AH!” You screamed, making Barbatos chuckle a bit as he rose an eyebrow at you. You didn’t want to bean accomplice to Mammon, but—

“Hey,” you stuttered, leaning against the door frame in attempts to act casual. You, of course, did not look casual.  “You come here often?”

“Well, Considering I work here, yes,”  Barbatos nodded, a small smirk stilly playing on his lips as he watched you. He looked at the door, almost as if he was looking inside of the room, and then looked back at you.

“Is Mammon in there?”

“Yeah.” 

You didn’t even try and deny it. You simply moved to the side and allowed Barbatos in.

Once Barbatos had successfully dragged Mammon out of the room and into Lucifer’s line of sight, you sat in the kitchen with him.

“How did you get mixed up in that?” Barbatos asked, standing on one side of the island, while you sat at the other.

“Lucifer claimed that I was his ‘keeper’”, you said, throwing up air quotes around the word as Barbatos passed you a water, “So he drags me into all of his ideas. I’m usually able to talk him out of it, but this time I couldn’t.”

“You’re a good friend,” Barbatos said, “At least Mammon has someone who looks out for him and tries to talk him out of doing things he shouldn’t be doing.”

Barbatos walked over to you, a tray of cookies in his hand. “I made them myself. they’re edible, I promise.”

“I’m sorry that this was our proper first meeting,” you mentioned, taking a cookie off the tray before he set it aside, “I swear i’m not always trying to steal things from various castles.”

“I know,” he hummed, taking a seat next to you at the island, “We may not speak, but I do see you around campus. I know that you’re kind.”

He smiled at you, watching as you munched on the cookie.

“Don’t worry about that being our first meeting. In fact—“

He turned his body to you, sticking his hand out towards you, “Hello, It’s nice to meet you. I’m Barbatos, I work here, for the Demon Prince. And you might be?”

You smiled back at him, taking his hand delicately.

“(y/n). It’s nice to meet you, Barbatos.”

[pillowbelphs]

May I request #13 from the fluff prompts with Barbatos? Thank You!

hello my love! I actually have done prompt 13 with barbatos already, andit’s right here if you want to read it! Feel free to request any other number with barbatos as well, happy reading!!

xoxo moon

[pillowbelphs]

Hello :) can I please request the undatables...or better said new datables when it comes to cuddling ? :3

EEEE YES YOU CAN!! here you go~~

xoxo moon

Cuddling the new (un)datables :3

Diavolo;

- BIG ASS TEDDY BEAR

-god he most be so warm

- likes to have you on his chest and have you wrapped in his arms c:

- gets really excited to cuddle you because he’s always so busy so he rlly likes night time

- can talk to you for h o u r s about literally nothing at all before you two fall asleep

- plays with your hair like really lazily

- he likes to fall asleep after you so he’ll do his best to stay up

- he likes knowing you’re getting rest

- he likes to give you kisses and he often does it while you’re talking

- because you’re just so cute he’s like! i must kiss now!

Barbatos;

- definitely likes spooning

- and definitely likes being the big spoon

- he does the thing where he like. puts his hands underneath your shirt but in like the LEAST sexual way possible

- he just likes to feel your skin

- if he’s not doing that, he’s playing with your fingers

- he will most likely knock out the moment he gets comfortable with you

- only because cuddling with you is so calming to him

- he likes knowing you’re safe

- he probably comes home when you’re asleep anyway so there’s not usually too much time for talking

- if you turn towards him in your sleep his heart will M E L T

- “wow theyre so close...”

- “*kiss*”

Simeon;

- likes to have you whatever way you’re most comfortable with while cuddling

- he likes when he’s able to see your face

- reminds me in asmo because he’s very affectionate

- giving you kisses on your nose, cheeks, eyelids

- he likes to make you giggle because he thinks it’s the sweetest sound in the world

- you’re always so close your noses are touching

- OH HE GIVES NOSE RUBS

- like when he nudges his nose against yours

- his voice is always very gentle whenever you two are alone

- he likes to tell you stories about the celestial realm because he knows you’re interested

- or about his childhood

- always gives you kisses before he knows you’re falling asleep but he won’t force you to stay up, his baby needs their sleep!

Luke;

- is the little spoon by default

- or if you’re like, on the couch, he’s cuddling into your side

- you’re just so warm that he automatically attracts to you like a magnet

- your presence is so calming, he always falls asleep really quickly like barbatos

- but he’ll like. pretend he didn’t fall asleep ?

- so he’ll wake up and you’ll be like hey. did you hear that? like what i said?

- and he’ll be like yeah mhm sure definitely! even though he was just snoring not even two minutes ago

- oh yeah.. he snores when he’s in a super comfy position when he sleeps

- so he snores when he falls asleep on you. a lot.

Solomon;

- another boy who likes to have you on his chest

- but he also doesn’t really have too much of a preference

- i feel like solomon is not super cuddly

- or he wasn’t before he met you

- but now he just wants to hold you all the time

- so as long as he has his arms around you he doesn’t care 

-  loves to cuddle during movies

- because it’s like. he likes that he can feel you laugh? like how your shoulders shake when you laugh

- he thinks it’s really cute

- he gets really warm during the night so he likes when you two like. Hold hands or pinkies in your sleep

- but then he often misses you in his sleep so he pulls you into him anyway

- he’ll deal with being warm if he gets to hold you

[pillowbelphs]

Could I request a scenario where Mammon hears the reader fully laugh for the first time? I'm talkin like struggling to breathe, wheezing and snorting lmao. Maybe Mammon did something stupid but funny and the reader just. Fuckin looses it jdkdh

of course! its a bit short, but here it is! i hope you like it, and feel free to request more for mammon!

xoxo moon

[pillowbelphs]

For Goldie

Genre: Comedy(?)

Word count: 500

Anonymous asked:Could I request a scenario where Mammon hears the reader fully laugh for the first time? I'm talkin like struggling to breathe, wheezing and snorting lmao. Maybe Mammon did something stupid but funny and the reader just. Fuckin looses it jdkdh

Author’s note: Please keep requesting for mammon, i never get requests for him! this one was rlly cute, i see mammon as a clumsy little demon hehe c:

xoxo moon

It was another night of chilling in Mammon’s bedroom. You would find yourself in there most nights, watching movies with him, passing your phones back and forth showing each other funny memes, just enjoying each others company. You two would also often play pranks on each other in attempts to make each other laugh.

You had decided to hide goldie from him, and not give it back unless his did what you said.

Usually, this would have him like putty in your hands, willing to do anything just to get his goldie back.

This time, though, he was not budging.

“Give it back (y/n)!” he said, lunging for it, but missing as you pulled it away, “Give her back!”

“HER?” you giggled, shaking your head as you kept pulling his beloved credit card away from him.

“Yeah, her!” Mammon said, “And I don’t like the way you’re holding her! give her back!”

“I want to take her out!” you said defensively, holding goldie to your chest, “We were having a very nice conversation before you butted in!”

“Give her back, or I will have to use force!”

“Force?” you challenged, “What kind of force?”

Without another word, Mammon’s hands were viciously poking your sides, eliciting giggles from you as you attempted to escape from his fingers. 

“N-no!” you laughed, shrinking down to try to get away, “Stop!”

“Not until you give her back!” he said, cornering you until your back was against his couch, fingers still tickling your sides without any signs of stopping. You fell onto the couch , laughing so hard you could barely breathe. 

You were near tears as you kicked your feet into his stomach. He got up quickly to avoid your kicks, which ended up making him losing his footing. He fell with a loud thud, his back landing against one of his cars, the trunk closing on impact and hitting him gently in the head.

You couldn’t help the fit of giggles that left your mouth.

“Hey, human!” Mammon said, rubbing his head as you continued to laugh, “It’s rude to laugh at someone’s pain, ya know!”

You were wiping away tears, wheezing as you waved your hand, signaling that you couldn’t talk, you were laughing so hard.

Mammon’s heart fluttered at the sound of your laugh.

“Yeah well!” He said, becoming a stuttering mess, “I’m getting a drink, you just stay in here and laugh your little butt off!”

As he walked to the door, almost as if it were on cue, the door swung open and hit mammon in the nose, causing you to fly into another fit of laughs.

“Woops,” Leviathan said as he looked at Mammon on the floor, “Bad time?”

“Just go, kid!” Mammon said, looking at you as you rolled on his couch, holding your stomach.

“I c-can’t breathe, oh god..” you said, snorting once or twice, “ Woops? Just Woops?”

Mammon shut the door as he stood, Shoving Levi out in the process. He walked over to you, shoving your feet off of his couch to make room for him to sit.

“I’m glad you’re laughing so hard,” he said, watching as you sat up , “but now my head AND my back hurts.”

“Aw, poor baby,” you said, placing a kiss on his forehead, “I’m sorry for laughing.”

Mammon felt a blush rise to his cheeks as he pouted.

“No, you aren’t.”

“No,” you hummed, “But i’ll go get you an icepack to compensate.”

“Just give me my damn credit card!”

[pillowbelphs]

Can I get angst seven with asmo please!

hey hey!! yes of course!!1

your scenario is right here, happy reading! :D

xoxo moon

[pillowbelphs]

Happy Ever After

Genre: Angst (?), kind of sad, a little bit of fluff at the end :o

word count: 1.1k

@coalbuff0w0​ asked: Can I get angst seven with asmo please!

Angst Prompt #7: “I love you.” “No you don’t”  from this list

if you have any other requests, feel free to drop them in my inbox!!

xoxo moon

Asmo was a very loving demon. He had always loved everyone around him from the time he was young, and he was never afraid to show that he loved them. He gave them everything he had; he would give them physical affection, food, jewelry, anything their heart desired—anything for the ones he loved. He throws himself into relationships all too easily, and he’s never been afraid to admit that. 

The thought of true love, though, had never crossed his mind.

Satan had brought the subject up to him one day, asking Asmo if he thought he would ever find his true love.

“I find new loves everywhere around me, Satan! It’s hard not to love me, you know?”

“I know, but I meant in a forever type of way. None of our relationships have ever lasted. Some demons are simply meant to be alone, and I don’t know if that’s me or if it isn’t.”

The thought had never came into Asmo’s mind; surely he would find someone who would want to spend the rest of their life with him, right? He would never end up all alone, there was too much for people to love about him, so surely he would find someone who would love him for him.

Right?

The thought of being alone plagued Asmo’s mind for the rest of the day. Sure, there were times he felt lonely, but he never felt alone or unloved. It was impossible to feel alone when he had so many people so ready to give him love.

He had called around old flames of his, wondering where he went wrong, or why the relationship didn’t last, and they all shared the same answer; it wasn’t that Asmo wasn’t lovable, but the complete opposite—Asmo was too lovable, and it made it hard for people to stay with him. 

He had never thought that the aspect of his personality that he loved so much would be such a hinderance to him and his relationships.

He began to overthink, the many thoughts swirling in his head telling him all of the things he didn’t want to hear; who would ever love someone who never feels satisfied? What type of person looks at another while on a date with someone else? Who would love Asmo’s sin, when it made him almost unable to give his whole to someone willingly?

Who would ever love him?

It was a scary thought. For the longest time, Asmo thought that the love that he was given was fine; but in reality, it was just a shallow love to pass the time. He thought that one day, surely, he would find someone to settle down with, because it was impossible for him to perceive himself without his happily ever after.

Yet, when he closed his eyes now, he couldn’t see what he saw before.

Was he meant to be with someone? Or was he meant to be alone?

For the first time, he had felt alone.

He hadn’t risen from his bed by the time you came into his room later that evening.

“Asmo?” you asked, speaking into the darkness of his bedroom, “Are you in here?”

you turned on his light, which only caused him to groan. You walked over to his bed, taking his hand as he sat with head in his pillow.

“My love,” you said softly, “What’s wrong?”

“I’m not your love.”

His voice had never sounded so cold. Not to you, anyway.

You had been dating Asmo officially for six months. It wasn’t a long time, but it was a long time coming in the eyes of the other brothers, who had been pushing you to accept his offer of taking you out on a date. 

“What do you mean?” you asked, softly squeezing his hand. Without another word, he pulled his hand away.

You sat in silence for a second, not knowing exactly what to do in this situation. Usually, when he was upset, he would want you to hold him, but now, he was shying away from your touch. You didn’t want to upset him by touching him more, so instead, you decided to give him more vocal affirmation.

“I love you.”

“No, you don’t.”

You looked at him in shock complete shock, watching as he turned his back from you. “What do you mean by that?”

“Who could ever truly love me? You’ll end up getting hurt, just like everybody else has. You should just go before I hurt you, too.”

“Asmo, please tell me why you’re saying all of this,” you pleaded softly. “I have never thought once that you would hurt me.”

“But, what about my sin?” He said, now sitting up and facing you. His face was puffy, and his eyes were red—it was obvious that he’d been crying for hours, but he wasn’t trying to hide it like he normally would. “I can’t help but love other people. I look at other people, I flirt with other people. It hurts to be with me, doesn’t it?”

“I’ve never been hurt,” you said, scooting closer to him to rest your hand on his cheek. “I know that you have a lot of love to give, Asmo. I would never have said yes to you if I didn’t think I could handle it.”

“But, why?” you wiped away his fresh tears with your thumb, his words breaking softly as he diverted his eyes for your gaze. “Why do you love me? How can you love me?”

“I love you because you love everyone whole-heartedly,” you said, scooting a bit closer to him again, “You aren’t afraid to put your heart out on the line for people you love, and I find that very admirable. I don’t know who put the thought into your head that your sin was bad, but I love that you aren’t afraid to love. And I know that even if you playfully flirt with others, that at the end of the day, you’re going to be coming home to me and giving me all of the love you have.”

“But,” he said, his cheeks now flushing, “What about the future?”

“What do you mean, my love?”

He looked at you. “Can you see a future with me? A happily ever after?”

You smiled at him, nodding gently as your free hand went to his other cheek, “I wouldn’t have gotten into a relationship with you if I didn’t see a future with you, Asmo.”

Asmo felt his heart swell at your words; you completely contradicted everything everyone else, including himself, had told him—and yet, your words were so sincere and filled with love, he knew he could believe you.

Without another word, he pulled you into a hug. He couldn’t help but squeeze you, which made you giggle.

“Asmo, you’re suffocating me!”

“I love you, too,” he mumbled, pressing a kiss to your forehead.

It was then he realized; he had found his true love.