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Greenhouse reading nooks 🌱

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Different views of Picadilly Circus by George Hyde-Pownall

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How about art by actual Palestinians?

Located on the Apartheid Wall in Bethlehem, Palestine.

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-  Wangechi Mutu, “Water Woman” (2017) & “Mamaray” (2020)

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Nov. 20, 2023

Somehow, it always feels like once I finish one thing, three other things are added on. That even though I work for 9 hours straight, I somehow haven't made any progress in any of the projects I have. And literally this shit SUCKS!! :(

I'm trying to stay positive though, so here are three things I'm grateful for today:

positive feedback from all of my preceptors

my friends who are always there with me as I go through this volatile period of my life

my family for always supporting me behind the scenes

I know I'm competent and intelligent and personable, but I'm trying to get everyone else to see that, and it's tiring to have to always sell myself like I'm a product (which I guess I am ha). I just think about how in exactly 4 months from now, I'll know whether or not I'll be a resident or a community pharmacist and it's scary to see how much can change in that short amount of time. I've always had a hard time accepting change into my life because it always makes my life unstable and honestly, with all the shit going on with myself, I crave stability. So I try to avoid change and pretend it doesn't exist, but I feel it around me All The Time and it paralyzes me a lot, like too much. So I honestly think I need to re-evaluate my purpose, my interests and my own mindset because I want to live, I want to thrive, and none of that can happen until I do something about it.

Tonight is a catch-up night for all of the small things I need to get done, like finishing up my "strengths and weaknesses" to send to my preceptors for LORs, uploading their information onto the application portal, and finishing all remaining school assignments. It's a lot, but it's also all half-finished so I feel like if I just knock it all out tonight, it'll leave me in such a good position tomorrow. Cause then I'll only have my patient presentation and my Excel sheet for residency programs to work on :)

Hoping this week goes great because Thanksgiving is on Thursday!! And I get Thurs and Fri off thank god :3

On another note, I'm broke but I want to buy so much stuff during Cyber Monday pls hold me back fr

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