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DECAPARACIDOS

a school film directed by: benmar famador & written by: james cedrick lita

by: grade 12-humss 02 productions

i'm so grateful to be part of this team. we did a great job, humanistas!

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what it feels like to have anxiety, depression and panic attacks

pansin ko lang, laganap na sa panahon ngayon ang mga taong may anxiety and depression well, i'm one of them. having those kind of mental illness has been a real struggle for me. madami akong gustong gawin pero hindi ko magawa because of that.

having anxiety and depression really hinders me to do the things that i want in my life because having anxiety and depression is not easy.

i know anxiety is a feeling of not being good enough (correct me if i'm wrong) and it can lead to serious cases like being depressed (serious case din naman yung anxiety). i still have anxiety until now. 4 years of having anxiety, feeling depressed and encountering panic attacks that i can't prevent (sometimes) but i kept going and still.

i wish that i have a healthy mindset— a good mental health. because sometimes, my anxiety waves at me (wow parang messenger lang no?) i remember nung vacation (may 2019) halos araw-araw akong umiiyak without knowing why yes ganun po ako haha. i easily get sad and hindi ko alam kung bakit minsan, pumapasok din sa isip ko na why did i exist, what's wrong with me, why i'm always like this. i always think na i'm not worthy of things. i even think of dying— yes, i have suicidal thoughts but i never hurted my self, because i know killing is a sin and that my Creator will be sad and I know that it is just the devil that tempts me to do so.

do you know what keeps me going? it's because of the Lord. He is my anchor and my strength of this sinful world. I know that this fight is worth it until the end. I always feel His presence whenever I'm having attacks. For I know He will cover me with His wings.

you, yes you if you have anxiety, depression, panic attacks and is dealing with different kinds of mental health illness, just keep going i know that it's worth it in the end because we have the Lord who is faithful and merciful. believe me, you will have the peace that you needed because in the beginning, the Lord already defeated the devil.

claim your victory.