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I just found out a girl I know has the same scars as me, or rather scars in the same place. She's really cool and she's a really talented artist and the only other lesbian/queer girl I know and idk, it's just strange to think hers are so healed they're barely visible and she's so confident and I want to be like that but first I have to stop cvtting for more than six months at a time. Idk. Shit got me feeling fucked up rn

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High res (as in ~1,000kcal +) all the way

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Same, it's actually sunny for once and I'm stuck in long sleeves

I wish I could comfortably wear short sleeve shirts! It’s getting so hot out and I hate the heat :(

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I just ate an entire punnet of cherry tomatoes but it's OK because it was 45kcal and delicious

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scrolling through tumblr in silence while drinking tea 🍵~

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I got to lock in fr or it's over for me

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Whyyyyy do I get sick the day I decide to start restricting again? Is this a sign? An omen? A warning? I'm taking it as a sign that I'll actually lose enough to look visibly sick this time, because I've spent about two or three years being "underweight" and not really looking it

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My friend, who as far as I know had ana/mia and then bed, is on a diet now and says she's already lost 5kg. She's overweight so her TDEE is way higher than mine and I know that realistically I can't keep up with her but I want to try

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cinnamon is an ana girl's best friend

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I'll stop when I'll look like I'm from a Tim Burton's movie :)

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I'm binge watching the Foodnetwork channel while drinking tea and it's kind of a vibe ngl

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A poll for edblr

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Dude I'm burning rn, I'm a fucking terrible cook

"but you don't look disordered..." LET ME COOK☝️

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I've decided I'm going back to restricting because I looked down at my thighs yesterday and I swear they looked like they had doubled in size. My waist is still fine but my legs? Fuck no.

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My friend saw my scars but she doesn't sh so I had to explain they weren't fresh, they were just purple because that's the second stage of healing. They scab, then they turn purple, then fade to pink, then fade to white, then become barely noticeable. To be fair to her, she didn't freak out about it because she knows I sh so she brought it up casually and I explained and it was fine

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I keep picking at my scabs in the hope that they'll scar more visibly because of it

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soup is fire