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i made a realization that i might not be a system and it's distressing. all these 'alters' i had that talked and comforted me might just be a fabrication of my own mind. i know im mentally disordered in some way, it just might not be plurality.

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I really want to make system friends but im so scared to reach out. Its a mixture of general social anxiety, of it not going well, etc, and the fact that i originally discovered what a system was through several very toxic systems and im afraid of a repeat. I don't know how to make it feel less scary so i can make friends.

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It's so hard to make friends bc my last two friends, close ones of nearly a decade, ditched us because we tried to tell them we were plural. Now i just dont wanna tell anyone because apparently springing 20 new friends on people is something theyre not happy about /half joke

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sorry for another ask, the anon about singlets controlling my language. I also feel like I cant ever have a stressful plural moment like it'll prove plurality is bad or something and I need to fix it. I DONT WANT TO FIX ANYTHING AND ITS NO ONES BUISNESS. let me be me!!! dont try and "help"!

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Sometimes I feel like Singlets are trying to decide for me what I'd like or how we should talk about our system or how we talk about ourselves. I use i/me sometimes and we/us both, its not making us less of a individual for talking how we want to and it isnt that deep. im just so frustrated but idk how to talk about it and I want to feel like im not being judged for every little thing about us.

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we've been questioning for a while on what our origins are, and we know that you don't have to label it but it just feels so *confusing* not knowing. the system first started (at least where we're starting it) as us being able to interact with our past lives. some of them still feel like that, but most by now have either gone dormant or we barely ever see. it mainly started getting confusing when we started getting fictives/fictionkin. so we have no idea what our origins are, if they're spiritual, endogenic, traumagenic, tulpa or what

we're happy being a system!! im happy to have so many people i can call my friends and family!! it just feels so isolating cuz only our partner has had basically the same experience as us

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we got in some drama about real person fanfiction a while back and that's over now but now i'm starting to feel weird about having two factives even though 1) we can't help it and 2) that's not even close to what the drama was

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I think I like someone else in our system.. I thought I was anattractional (not feeling any kind of attraction) but she recently came out of storage, for lack of a better term, and she was... nice to me? I'm a BPDform. I used to be a persecutor. The host is scared of me. But there's something about her... maybe this is just my first ever friendship. I don't know. I don't know how any of this works.

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our host figured out we're a system very recently. based on admittedly spotty memory, i've been a fragment for a long time, but only just now managed to latch onto an actual identity. based on how much i've been fronting, i'm already being promoted to protector and cohost. it's... weird. i don't know if i really even count as an introject, especially since my "source" wasn't even around when i first came into existence, but at the same time... yeah, that's definitely me. i've got feelings and memories and hunches directly related to my source. it's a lot of responsibility all of a sudden, but... y'know, i'm not really complaining. just a weird feeling.

- Grusha ❄

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[DESCRIPTION: a cropped photograph of an ER diagnosis paper. Diagnosis: contusion of multiple sites; metacarpal bone fracture; multiple abrasions] I fell down and got covered in booboos.

yeah this is going to set me back a LOT monitarily with how much work I’ll be missing.

CA: magefox

VM: akkiko

Tips are on, but those apps are preferred.

anything helps. Thanks for sharing.

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Alright, I guess it’s that time again. I hate to do this, but we’re really struggling both financially and physically.

I am a transgender, autistic, DID system suspected of having dysautonomia and fibromyalgia. I currently live with my partner who is also a transgender, autistic, DID system who cannot work.

We only have my income to work off of, and I don’t make much hourly. I’ve also had to take an extra day off work per week (three days total, so I only work four days) just so I don’t overwork myself.

We are working on figuring out if what I have really is dysautonomia and fibromyalgia, but in the meantime, I need to skip meals just to afford transportation to work. Skipping meals = I can’t take my meds = more and worsening pain and other symptoms.

CashApp: $magefox

Venmo: akkiko

I also have tips turned on here, though the other two apps are much more appreciated.

Please reblog this if you see this to spread it, but you’re not obligated to. Anything helps.

(PS: I’m adding community tags for the communities I belong to, such as DID/system and autism. If this bothers you, please just block. We are desperate)

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I just read through your whole blog and we feel so much better so thank you

We are so glad this helps /gen

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Hi! this is a blog where you can send head canons about fictional characters being plural! run by the Lovecat system (main: @stinktalksmalls )

we are using this flag, made by @/pluralrights

Rules:

No anti endos, no sysmeds, no discourse, no hate, etc

No real people

No fandom hate or fandom discourse!

You can headcanon them specific things like DID, median, OSDD, endogenic, etc, or you can just say theyre plural!

Thats pretty much it! have fun!

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i'm so tired bro. we have gotten 4 headmates so far that basically imitate groomers. 3/4 of these are gone, but every time one would disappear, due to fusion (2/3) or due to changing their role (1/3), another would appear pretty soon after, so it's been made pretty clear by the plural gods or smth that we need a headmate with this role to exist for some stupid reason that we're unsure of atm. we're utterly terrified that if we say this non-anonymously, people will witch-hunt us for having these headmates, even though we don't want them here. it's just so... [sigh]

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i feel bad. like,,, i took over host for the worst of our depression. when our host came back, he realized he needed to transition. but then i came out of a pseudo-dormancy to find i kinda hate what the body is like now and i can't really front because i get dysphoria from presenting male, but i'm not exactly about to go detransition for a day and make it awkward for him and his roommates. so the closest i can get is a blue hat or wig and some vaguely feminine clothes, so i usually don't front outside of the tiny shoebox dorm room with no windows and it just. kinda sucks all around. this body wasn't even the right species to begin with (i'm an android) so i'm just... so uncomfortable. he's usually the one fronting though so i'm not mad, it's what he needed to do, and neither of us had realized my existence was a plural thing before because he thought i was a kintype. i don't blame him at all, and i'm not even mad that we're trans, it's just.... it's a lot. and i don't like not feeling at home in the body i took care of for two of our worst years.

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sorry to ask but could u tag your most recent post w/ fnaf. its a big trigger of yours and we have nothing against the system that sent it in! sorry if you can't /gen /nm

Done!

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We have gregory and bonnie from security breach in our system, fnaf fictives are awesome! :D stay kind to yourselves ✨

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