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this is who runs this account btw

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Hello! I JUST woke up and saw this, and since you asked for opinions, I'm going on an embarrassingly long and self indulgent rant about this topic! Below is what I wrote straight up after leaving the soft, warm comfort of my bed.

I've thought about this exact topic before and actually pretty recently, too. While I agree with most of what you wrote, I think frankly that Nny would simply hate the concept of "race" existing in the first place. I imagine he's not impervious to prejudice and hatred, which is clear in the comic since he's often picked on and sometimes even physically attacked for his looks.

Exempli gratia, this panel here in issue five, where he gets shoved around for being weak, ugly, skinny and generally unmasculine.

And he DOES say, in this exact panel, that people that use racial oppression as a shield while only reinforcing old stereotypes, just like you said. But I'm not entirely sure he'd be "anti-woke" or be mad at the idea of people finding community in certain aspects of themselves. I think he'd be more angry at the concept of race even BEING a thing. In another panel, that I CANNOT find for the life of me, Nny attacks a predator that was trying to hurt Todd. If memory doesn't fail me, he cuts off his hands and kills him, and shows Todd the predator's brain. He goes on about how some people call other people monsters, but that there's no such thing, as everyone has the same shit inside them and therefore is, ultimately, the same.

I think he would think similarly about race. I might be projecting; because I, myself, am BAFFLED at the notion that so many foreign people still genuinely use the word "race" to describe someone's ethnicity or even just skin colour. Einstein went over this a while ago, there's no such thing as race, just the human race. That said, I think Nny is rather intelligent, when he's lucid enough to actually follow reason, even if just for a little bit. And I think he'd come to my same conclusion in matters of race, albeit maybe more exaggerated in his way of thinking. That being that there is no such thing as race, and that everyone who thinks differently must be intellectually and emotionally stunted. I think he'd be able to understand that literally nothing distinguishes us from one another, apart from our actions (although as humans, our behaviour tends to fall into patterns).

We choose to act the way we do. The people that Nny kills chose to bully him. Nny chooses to kill people. Everything else, (skin colour, ethnicity, nationality, sexual attraction, fetishes, likes, dislikes...) is there by chance. We can't choose that. That's why I think Nny would only REALLY judge people based on their choices, hating whoever chooses to suck or yes, even someone who chooses to make their queer identity "their whole personality". All that to say, I don't think he'd reject his race. I think he'd reject the concept of race itself. I think he'd reject the idea that, because of the way he looks, he's categorised as something HE didn't choose. He can't choose to not be labelled as Mexican or brown like he can't choose to not be labelled as gay, ugly or skinny. He looks the way he does, and people will make assumptions based on his appearance. Full stop. That happens, to everybody, always. And I feel he would be especially pissed about being perceived, in general. Which is also why I think he kills, sometimes. We, the readers, are well aware he sometimes kills people for no apparent reason. I think one of the reasons he kills without an apparent motive is for the simple fact that he was being perceived, and it drives him mad that he can't stop it. Except he can. He can kill whoever perceives him, ultimately stopping that person from doing so. It gives him power over it; they can't perceive him as anything, because they are no longer conscious enough to.

And of course he would think race wars are stupid, everyone with more than three working neurons in their head can understand that fighting over physical attributes that are out of our control and/or slight and harmless cultural differences is stupid. (Not insulting you or anyone specific, just saying)

As for his gender identity, I completely agree. I don't think he's either cisgender OR heterosexual, but I do agree he'd HATE being labelled as anything. I don't necessarily think he doesn't like labels to begin with, at all, but I do think he'd hate being forced into a box by someone else... As shown in the comic, since he kills several people for calling him a faggot. In my opinion, in those cases, he's not JUST angry with being called a derogatory slur, he's angry that he's being CALLED. He never told these people whether or not he's attracted to men, therefore they shouldn't ASSUME he's attracted to anyone at all. Because that's his business, and unless he decided to share this peculiarity of his, nobody should bother him about it. The same could be said about his ethnicity. He never went out of his way to announce that he's Mexican, so nobody should feel the need to bother him about it.

Anyway, yeah. That's what I think. To make a long story very short, I (relatively) agree with you.

And this is just stuff that's on my mind, but Johnny's relationship with his race could be explored a little. Sometimes it frustrates me when I read that Vasquez gets annoyed that people call him pale, and asks the reader if he even looks like someone who is pale, but the thing is... all official stuff of Johnny that is colored could reasonably pass as white, and this comes across to me as Vasquez intending for Johnny to visibly not be white, yet failing to execute this properly... which is why I appreciate whenever I see fanartists draw him with a darker tone

Anyway, my point here was initially going to be about how Johnny most likely isn't connected to his heritage at all, and considers himself someone who "happens to be Mexican" rather than a Mexican—he's too dissociated to even factor in his race, but I like to imagine that there would be times where it catches him off guard, like maybe he'd eat some Mexican dish and suddenly it reminds of something—home, ostensibly, but his memory fails him and he can't be too sure—all he knows is that it's familiar.

I've also played around with what his relationship with language and bilingualism would be like, I personally believe that he has on multiple occasions forgotten that he knows Spanish, and will overhear conversations and go, Huh. Right. I can understand what they're saying. as a result of that aforementioned dissociation. It's not like he doesn't know he knows Spanish, it's just something he gets reminded of. I also don't think he is particularly fluent, but understands it just fine—he's probably better at listening and speaking (and can hold a conversation if suddenly thrown into one) than he is reading and especially writing.

Another thing I wanted to bring up is the idea of Johnny rejecting his race, not because of super internalized racism (although it does play a slight role into this kind of behavior), but because he's the type of person to be like "race wars are stupid, we all suck" and hate the kind of people who "use race as a shield" because they are oppressed—kind of in this "anti-woke" mindset (despite literally being the guy in the pic) when he's really just mad at the idea of anyone finding community in anything. He is so isolated that he can't fathom why people of color would want to do this and build community because he thinks everyone ever sucks and is against him one way or another. (Kind of like how I don't think Johnny is particularly cis, but would absolutely hate being called trans and/or nonbinary, and would hate the kind of queer person who "makes it their personality.") I can't tell if this last part here makes sense but let me know what you guys think, this isn't a topic I really see talked about.

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Tabasco (again) but dark cacao kingdom version

Copying and pasting what I wrote on the crk oc community:

LORE WISE he was Burning Spice Cookie's disciple and loyal helper, he found beauty in all things living and all things not. Even when his master eventually grew tired of all the suffering and began bringing destruction everywhere, he managed to see the underlying beauty in it. Before Burning Spice Cookie's souljam was taken from him by the witches, he began to venture alone into the wilderness, simply for the pleasure of marveling at nature and everything that was in it. Excruciatingly long story short, he got lost in the woods right outside what eventually became the Dark Cacao Kingdom, and remained frozen for hundreds of years. He was found just after the battle between Golden Cheese and Burning spice by some dark cacao soldiers and brought back to the kingdom to be healed. Blah blah, he gets better, gets accepted into the community, becomes loved and appreciated for his usefulness and ends up remembering how much he loved being useful and gentle, blah blah... If you want to know more, I'm more than happy to answer any questions!!

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I don’t think she wants her garden anymore

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Yes... My wildest fantasy...

I'd have a pet Goliath beetle and pet them all the time. I'd call them Leonard and they'd sleep in bed with me, my family would tell me that's unsanitary. I would not care. They would sleep in bed with me anyway.

glimpse into my beautiful imaginary world where arthropods are really big and we domesticated them

edit: people are starting to say some "my worst nightmare" or "eeeww no that one is yucky and scary" comments on this like they do on any bug post and id like to say. it's fine if you don't like bugs it's fine if you're scared of bugs but don't put that on MY post clearly talking about how much i like them and how cute i think they are. you can make your own damn post about how much you hate wasps or spiders or whatever. i'm blocking people who make these kinds of comments.

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how the absolute FUCK am i supposed to live long and prosper in these conditions

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I relate to this, lol.

"I'm Zero."

"What? Never heard of such a name before. Can I call you something else?"

"??? No you cannot"

Like hello don't headcanon me,,, it's not even hard to pronounce, leave me alone!

STAR TREK: DISCOVERY 1.03 | Context is for Kings

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The real difference between McCoy and Kirk is that when Spock turns into an unskipable cutscene McCoy is frantically mashing every button while Kirk is enjoying the view

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Traitor of the heavens.

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Indeed, I do!

you punch nazis!

(requested by anonymous)

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He's so pissed... I find this delightful

More of them I think they’re silly

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Unspoken history

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isn't that nice

textless + og screenshot !

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Oh god you people are KILLING ME with these... 😭😭😭

One day I am gonna grow wings.

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It's important to show that you care. Fuck being nonchalant. Text first, send multiple messages in a row. Tell them what they mean to you, be honest about how you feel. Tell your friends that you love them. Love is a gift that can be given away freely, by anyone and to anyone. Show that you care.