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I wouldn't change being a lesbian but God it's so fucking lonely

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"Bloodthirsty" filet crochet piece ♡

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reaching peak avoidant by avoiding the account i made to vent about my avoidant personality disorder because i think other avoidant people looking in the avoidant personality disorder tag will think that i’m weird. this is great. i’m going to get a good grade in avpd, something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve

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It's fading

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the "feeling like something is wrong with you that you have to hide" background noise is often a result of childhood trauma because an abused or neglected child who doesn't rationalize their mistreatment runs the risk of alienating themselves from what little shelter and care is actually being provided. it's theorized that blaming yourself at that age is a way to survive by coming up with a justification for why you're being abused so you don't blame your caregivers for your own suffering, thereby alienating them to the point that you are fed or sheltered or protected even less than you are currently. believing you may be able to "change" so that you're worthy of love also prevents despair/giving up. it's of utmost importance to the survival of very small children to develop a worldview that keeps them alive, even if it's by totally magical thinking and at the cost of their ability to perceive reality or navigate normal human relationships. the same thing can happen to adults in abusive domestic situations.

anyway once you're out of that situation it's time to get really pissed off

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hello kitty tea set 𐙚

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@/hisethelcain. “now u just wait a minute, mister” twitter, 31 mar 2020.

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12-21-2024, 4 PM

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i feel like i’m cursed forever but other than that i’m doing alright

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how to signal to goths in public that i am an ally friend and lover despite dressing like a camp counselor

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