probablyyawningrightnow

[probablyyawningrightnow]

[probablyyawningrightnow]

[probablyyawningrightnow]

[probablyyawningrightnow]

[probablyyawningrightnow]

[probablyyawningrightnow]

[probablyyawningrightnow]

[probablyyawningrightnow]

[probablyyawningrightnow]

You're a good man

Hey. Just wanted to let you know I'm trying to get my anxiety under control. Its moments like these, when I feel powerless, that feel the worst. So, a coping mechanism would be to write this down.

You're a good man. You act like an adult and are responsible towards everyone's feelings, including my own. You always tell me that if there's something wrong or if I feel something different, we could talk about it. And even though I feel that that's just basic human behavior, it's really hard to find these days. Some would say that the standard is very low. And I'd have to agree. But it's nice that someone met such standard.

You're a good man, is what I tell myself to lower my anxiety, and to be able to sleep. If you're a good man, there's no way you'd mess us up, right? There's no way you'd cheat on me. And there's no way you'd break up with me because of one of my dramas. To be honest, I feel like a dumbass when I think you're gonna cheat on me. The way we look into each other's eyes, the way we kiss, what we tell each other after sex and what we do afterwards too. There's no way you'd cheat. There's no way you'd mess me up.

You're a good man, and even though I have to trust that (and you), I woke up at 8am on a Sunday, scared that something bad happened to you, or to us, or to me. You're just hanging with your friends. You went partying last night, with some people I'll never meet. You even looked happy in the pictures you sent me. It means a lot that you sent them over privately. You wanted to show me what was going on. So how the hell would I distrust you.

You're a good man, but someone like you messed me up. I felt all these things before. It's a kind of fomo. I had the chance to practice how to deal with these situations, and eventually, right before the end, I was comfortable with my partner having his own life besides me. However, after we broke up, all my trust in him went out the window. The thing is, he was just like you. Cute, hot, and an attitude that you'd say "this guy's a teddy bear and a saint, there's no way he messes this up right?". But he did.

You're a good man, but I cannot help but the think about the future, the present, and the past. I cannot help thinking about our end goal. What are we going for? What are our plans? I know I'm supposed to be happy with what I've got, living in the moment, but I cannot help but wonder.

You're a good man. But am I going to be hidden away forever? Am I supposed to act just like a friend in front of others? Am I supposed to feel like a hobby to you? I know it's not the case, but all these questions make me feel like you're ashamed of me. You're actually hiding yourself, but I get shun in the process. I tried not looking at your stories on Instagram, because I know you'd upload pictures with your friends, in the party, having fun, etc. I failed to do so, and you uploaded one of the pictures that you sent me beforehand. You looked so happy there. And even so, I felt sad and anxious that I might never be there. On your stories. On your parties. On the rest of your life.

You're a good man, but I wonder, why do I put up with this? I had the best time of my life yesterday with you. Now I have anxiety again. Why am I still up on this rollercoaster? "I gotta lose the fear of this rollercoaster. Going downhill is not that scary, and maybe it's only this steep in my mind". All of the things I'm feeling right now are in my head, and I wanna know how to deal with them. For your sake, but mostly for mine.

You're a good man. Even though we're apart, and I might not see you again for a couple of weeks, I still worry about you I think. Even though I don't know where are you, what you did last night, what's on your head, and what lies ahead of us, I've decided to trust you. I wanna see this through. Because I have to enjoy the present right? I have to. That's what we agreed to, to enjoy the moment.

You're a good man. That's why I'll keep moving on. I'll keep living my own life, even if for you I'm just a hobby.

I can't wait to see you again.

[probablyyawningrightnow]

How sweet he is 🤣🐈

[probablyyawningrightnow]

AGATHA ALL ALONG (2024-?) 1.07 | Death’s Hand in Mine

[probablyyawningrightnow]

AGATHA ALL ALONG — Death’s Hand In Mine (Episode 7)

[probablyyawningrightnow]

personally I think phone chargers and laptop chargers and shit should throb and pulse when plugged in. just so u kno thee energy is going thru them. right

[probablyyawningrightnow]

[probablyyawningrightnow]

she was stronger than any soldier for this

[probablyyawningrightnow]

An idea I got during my current run of p5r. There is an overarching Emotion in these games!

[probablyyawningrightnow]