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richard siken

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Steven Universe - "Disobedient" // The Mountain Goats - "Sept 15th 1983" // Virginia Woolf - Carlyle's House and Other Sketches // SkyDxddy - "DON'T TALK ABOUT IT"

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On Weaponized Incompetence

From Reddit / Manchild by Sabrina Carpenter / labour by Paris Paloma / Olivia Rodrigo promotional image / Goodbye by Marina / I'm Not Your Mother, I'm Not Your Bitch by Courtney Barnett / Scene from Challengers / Ain't Your Mama by Jennifer Lopez / Arms by Blondshell / L8r Boi by Ashnikko / Scene from Gone Girl / No More Suckers by Marina / GIVEN ENOUGH by Nessa Barrett

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whimsy

a genre of tv/film/book

inkheart (film, 2008), dirk gently's holistic detective agency season 2 (tv show, 2017), stardust (film, 2007), the princess bride (film, 1987), the neverending story (film, 1984), the secret garden (film, 1993), the wizard of oz (film, 1939), the starless sea (book, 2019), this is how you lose the time war (book, 2019), chitty chitty bang bang (film, 1968), the secret of moonacre (film, 2008), inception (film, 2008), the real will wood (film, 2020), alice in wonderland (book, 1865 & film, 2010), arrival (film, 2016), hugo (film, 2011), interstellar (film, 2014), the matrix (films, 1999-2021), myth (album/audiobook, 2024-5)

stories within stories about stories, stories coming to life, blurring the line between imagination and reality, rewriting your own story, bittersweet-in-their-mystery endings

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Who will come into my kitchen and be hungry for me?

you say you don’t want a boyfriend, but you know that’s not true - Charlotte Green/the voice - Anaïs Nin/the unabridged journals of Sylvia Plath - Sylvia Plath/tolerate it - Taylor Swift/the unabridged journals of sylvia plath - Sylvia Plath/the unexpurgated diary of anaïs nin - Anaïs Nin/ @treebloods/@lovebeing-a-girl/@ sanwtch on instagram/ @onlyanothermundane/@tullispink/I am an observer, but not by choice - @fatimaamerbilal/the prophecy - Taylor Swift/criss cross - Lynne Rae Perkins/Vladimir Mayakovsky in a letter to Lili Brik/what I could never confess without some bravado - Emily Palermo/little weirds - Jenny Slate

requested here

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on being yourself

@ brainsoupp_ on twitter// @stmichaelthearchangel// @ cybermrcury on twitter// @throughmy-eyez // @ shellerina on twitter// @caesarsaladinn// @ nelsoncj4 on twitter // @ heimberg_a on twitter// make your own kind of music by cass elliot// @ soledadfrancis on twitter// ? // @ sourcenectar on twitter// @superorganism

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from the introduction to emily wilsons translation of the iliad

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the past isn’t behind you it coils inside your body that’s why some years you feel closer and more nostalgic for certain ages than others just fyi

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i keep thinking about how rfk said that autistic people "will never write a poem." i keep thinking about that, about if humanity is calculated on the back of old verse. how far we measure personhood is in baseball and stanza breaks.

i keep thinking - i have over 7k poems on here alone. language can be a special interest, after all. did you know the word autism comes almost direct from the greek word autos, meaning "self"? self-ism.

maybe he is right - i haven't really played baseball. i was a ballet dancer instead. and besides - my sister once accidentally hit me in the face with an aluminum bat. i'm not sure if the injury gives me half points. am i only a person in the dugout? hand in a mitt? swinging?

does softball count? does cricket? am i a person if i throw the ball to my dog. am i a person as long as the ball is in the air, or do i stop being a person as it rolls into the bushes. i took my girlfriend to fenway recently; was i a person in the sun, with my hands up, with the game laid out at my feet in a diamond. i felt like a person, but that was back in the summer, and i often feel my most person-like then.

am i more of a person because of the sheer number of things i've written? does quality matter, or is it quantity? i used to write entire books every summer in high school - i wasn't doing well. i felt the least like-a-person back then. but then - does any person feel human in high school?

in the library, ink on my skin, i feel personhood shutter at the edges of myself. actually, writing feels blissfully like not being myself. it feels birdlike; escaping into creation so my body dissolves and i survive only by muscle memory. i am not there, i am writing.

but who can deny the falconlike focus of warsan shire, the tenderness of mary oliver, the sheer skill of amanda gorman. those are poets. they are certainly human. you could line them up with the way their words have influenced us and measure their literary shadows like wings.

perhaps it was very assumptive of me to want to be a poet rather than "a [ label ] poet." i wanted the work to fill itself in, rather than be stained by what i am. i do not write in despite of my neurodivergence, i am just neurodivergent and writing.

does the poem have to be in english or can i send it through my palms into the coat of my dog. does the poem have to make sense. does the poem have to love you back.

if i break a glass, will the poem appear naturally? or is the act of breaking the glass human-enough. the shards of my life glittering out beneath me - do i have to write the poem, or is it self-evident in the pile of glass splinters? i cannot grasp this world the way other people can. regardless, i endeavor to touch - even the mess - very gently.

i broke my toenail against my coffee table recently. i released a bug outdoors. i made coffee. i walked my dog.

i didn't write a poem about any of these things.

something else, then. existing without humanity.

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there is always tomorrow

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edmund and edgar stagger home

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wikipedia // mariecurie.org // booboo on medium // judas-redeemed // judas-redeemed // c.c aurel // trista mateer // ocean vuong // liz newman // donna ashworth

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“there is no moral. the wolf eats you one day and until it does, the forest is beautiful.”

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"If you will permit me, [...] all I am hearing from you is 'I this, I that.' Have you not considered that your suffering and redemption might be less important than making things up to your victims?"

the empire of gold - shannon chakraborty

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no choice in who made you, but choice with your time.

last name - catie turner

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- on mothers

lady bird/ @death-born-aphrodite/ everything, everywhere, all at once/ rupi kaur/ unknown/ maia baia/ your best american girl- mitski/ lady bird/ unknown/ @inkskinned

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"in the world of the living, one must live. and has this not been her wish? to live. truly live.

gods of jade and shadow - silvia moreno-garcia