i notice that autism and neurodivergency has to come with “a look”. “you dont look autistic”. “you have autism? i didnt notice? are you sure?.” but every mean girl group you encounter in middle school notices before you even speak. You know you cant fit in and nobody is trying to tell you that you do. Maybe a backhanded, un understanding “youll find the right people” is uttered once in a while. but they know. so does your english teacher when she grades your writing. Every one can sense that you, are different. You hate this.
Colourblind - Taylor Janzen / God Must Hate Me - Catie Turner / Daughter of God - Phemiec / Youth Group - Semler / Faggot - Sam Vance Law / God is a Woman - Rett Madison / Devotion - Taylor Janzen / Sun Bleached Flies - Ethel Cain / Pray it Away - Alex G / Hey Jesus - Trey Pearson
I probably heard about some of these artists in 2022 or before but I only really became a fan this year. If you have any new artist suggestions for me to listen to I would love if you could tell me! I always love hearing new artists and becoming a part of their journey.
artemis: walking through a forest, hearing the leaves rustling in the leaves, feeling content and happy, holding your journal to your chest, scaling the nearby trees to feel like you're on the top of the world, inhaling the scent of leaves and rain
euphrosyne: skipping across an old rickety bridge, bursting with joy, feeling the breeze in your hair, a book tucked into your bag, a cup of coffee in your hands
persephone: running across a field in spring, holding hands with someone you love, looking at how spring emerges, laughing up at the sun, seeing birds fly across the sky
dionysus: avoiding going to class, feeling like life is stretched out endlessly in front of you, sitting at an empty baseball field, reaching into a bucket of popcorn, drinking slushies at 3 in the morning
aphrodite: going to a coffee shop with the person you love, being best friends, unconsciously looking for them everywhere, realizing you never have to try when you're around them
Snippets (by Multiple Artists) × Bad Buddy The Series
1. Home (by Catie Turner) × Bad Buddy The Series
I don't take spoonfuls of romanticism in my tea
But this is not a love song
It's my truth I have to speak
Oh, you are so important to me
And I won't let you go
I won't let you go
'Cause wherever you are is home
So won't you please come home?
2. Mastermind (by Taylor Swift) × Bad Buddy The Series
No one wanted to play with me as a little kid
So I've been scheming like a criminal ever since
To make them love me and make it seem effortless
This this the first time I've felt the need to confess
And I swear, I'm only cryptic and Machiavellian 'cause I care
I laid the groundwork
and then saw a wide smirk on your face,
you knew the entire time
You knew that I'm a mastermind
And now you're mine
3. For @desi-yearning , Maaeri (by Euphoria) × Bad Buddy The Series
[Translated from Punjabi to English ]
[teriya meriya, bhull gaya
bhull gaya, haar te jeet]
I've forgotten what's his or mine,
Forgotten who lost or won,
[hey mae, ki karna mein jeet nu
hove naa je meet, hove naje meet]
Mom, what good is this victory?
if there are no friends, if there is no friend.
4. Something Great (by One Direction) × Bad Buddy The Series
(PRAN)
You're all I want, So much it's hurting.
(PAT)
You're all I want, So much it's hurting.
Snippets Episode of BadBuddy× my Playlist because sometimes not all of the song fits, but some of it does, phenomenally, and I need it to be acknowledged.
My fave songs of 2022 in no particular order
1. Coco Jones - ICU
2. Carly Rae Jepsen ft. Rufus Wainwright - The Loneliest Time
3. Catie Turner - Step Mom
4. Meghan Trainor - Made You Look
5. Beyonce ft. Grace Jones & Tems - MOVE
6. Beyonce - THIQUE
7. Kim Petras - Treat Me Like A Slut
8. Megan Thee Stallion ft. Jhené Aiko - Consistency
9. Charli XCX - Constant Repeat
10. Lizzo - 2 Be Loved (Am I Ready)
11. Nicki Minaj - Super Freaky Girl
12. PinkPantheress - Boy's a liar
13. Summer Walker, SZA, & Cardi B - No Love (Extended Version)
14. Latto ft. 21 Savage - Wheelie
15. Megan Thee Stallion & Dua Lipa - Sweetest Pie
16. Tate McRae - what would you do?
17. Ethel Cain - American Teenager
18. Rubi Rose - Single
19. Demi Lovato ft. YUNGBLUD - FREAK
20. Halsey - So Good
21. Weyes Blood - God Turn Me Into a Flower
22. Black Eyed Peas, J. Rey Soul - DOUBLE D'Z
23. Sunnitharapper – Thickkk
24. Talameshia ft. Beatking - Heat
25. Nicki Minaj ft. Skeng, Spice, Destra Garcia, Patrice Roberts, Lady Leshurr, Pamputtae, Dovey Magnum, Lisa Mercedez & London Hill - Likkle Miss (THE FINE NINE REMIX)
26. Ravyn Lenae ft. Doechii & Kaytranada- Xtasy (Remix)
27. Jazmin Bean ft. Lucy Loone - Carnage
28. Royal & The Serpent - IM NOT SORRY
29. Tove Lo - How Long
30. Mallrat ft. Azealia Banks - Surprise *FAVE SONG OF THE YEAR*
31. The Weeknd & Swedish House Mafia - Moth To A Flame
32. Cloudy June - Devil Is A Woman
33. Carly Rae Jepsen - Bends
34. Rachel Chinouriri - All I Ever Asked
35. Kim Petras - Throat Goat
36. Tay Money ft. Kali - Blow It
37. Saucy Santana ft. Latto - Booty
38. Holly Humberstone – I Would Die 4 U (Prince cover)
39. Benny Sings - Dancing In The Dark
40. Beyonce - PURE/HONEY
41. Grimes - Shinigami Eyes
42. Brooke Candy - Flip Phone
43. Diana Ross, Tame Impala - Turn Up The Sunshine
44. RAYE - Black Mascara
45. Carly Rae Jepsen - Talking To Yourself
46. Marissa - Favorite
47. Chlöe - Surprise
48. Dove Cameron - Girl Like Me
49. WeddingCake x Heidi Klum x Snoop Dogg - Chai Tea with Heidi
50. Tove Lo - Grapefruit
51. renforshort - Julian, king of manhattan
52. Taylor Swift - Vigilante Shit
53. Anna of the North - Nobody
54. Rihanna - Lift Me Up
55. Kimbra - Replay!
56. Lakeyah ft. Flo Milli - Maneuver
57. Erica Banks - Throw a Lil Mo (Do It)
58. Erica Banks ft. Bankroll Freddie– Nasty
59. Rubi Rose - Wifey
60. SZA - Shirt
61. Sukihana - Grinch
62. Charlotte Lawrence - Morning
63. Lah Pat ft. Big Jade - Rodeo
64. Lous and The Yakuza ft. Adekunle Gold - Handle Me
65. Emeli Sande - Family
66. Flo Milli - Nasty Dancer
67. Tove Lo ft. Channel Tres - Attention Whore
68. Flume ft. Caroline Polachek - Sirens
69. Carly Rae Jepson - Anxious
70. Taylor Swift - Maroon
71. Taylor Swift - Bejeweled
72. Taylor Swift - Karma
73. Taylor Swift ft. Lana Del Rey - Snow on the Beach
for i am still that little girl asking if she can play too; and i am still that little girl being awkwardly declined and i am still that little girl thats wants to be wanted more than anything but i am that little girl that is starting to really really not blame them for it. and i am that little girl asking god why she is different warning him that if jesus died for all our sins, that he left one behind; the body i am in.
idk if u do this but a web weave about kids who sit in the back of the class? You know the ones, with bad reputations and broken hearts. Astronomy by Conan grey, one of us is lying, and Robin buckley quotes would be good resources idk
holly warburton, a face in the crowd // catie turner, prom queen // stranger things (2016-) // dodie, 6/10 // edvard munch, evening on karl johan street // leonard cohen, avalanche // american vandal (2017-2018) // the rolling stones, laugh i nearly died // dennis wells, alone in a crowd
for when you're ready to move on, accept what has happened to you, tired of feeling shitty, aching to run into the arms of someone who loves you, feeling light as a feather: