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i have been noticing too many characters with parent problems who have rain symbolism across different fandoms. in milgram its amane for obvious reasons and yuno the reasons being teardrop and this ↓

pupa said the rain symbolism is a metaphor for the character not having a shelter/becoming the shelter themselves

Ooo that’s a really interesting observation (And ha, rain, ha…ha….chapter 3….) especially coupled with how I’m like-90ish percent sure that the water in Milgram generally symbolizes some sort of extremely unhealthy and destructive love. Amane for…obvious reasons again but also Haruka with his imagery in AKAA, Muu with her honey, and Mahiru’s BF who is dripping with water.

Consindering how we can interpret the rain as “punishment” in Purge March specifically and the umbrella as her shield for it we have a lot of ways this can be taken which is fun...nodding along with Pupa for those metaphors yeah.

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FUCK MY RETURN POST HAS A HORRIBLE TYPO IN THE FIRST PART- actually wait no this is terribly in character for the stuff I write I have to keep it in for the True Nott Experience now

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Yoh know, I was planning on doing this at the end of the week. Just to really make sure the month long break was month long and to confirm I really did want to return, but damn the state of the tag in the last month or two is so sad and I have a hunch as to why.

So, hi again Milgramblr! I’m Nott! I’m an enjoyer of analysis and a believer that it’s a collaborative experience where people with various opinions and come together and discuss topics!

“Nott why are you saying this, statistically speaking, we already knew this about you?” Oh cause I experienced harrasement and outright got lied to multiple times lol.

I’m just saying it because I might as well, it’s pretty obvious something happened. I don’t like saying names publically, especially when I don’t plan on ever talking about this afterwards unless they engage which…well their blocked so I hope not. But I’m using this as a jumping off point for the actual topic of discussion.

Again, part of my enjoyment of analysis comes from collaboration, and as much as I love sending giant walls of texts to friends I enjoy seeing discussion from people I don’t know too well or maybe even not at all.

I think it’s important to create spaces in which analysis without fear of being executed in the middle of town square. It’s good to have more people working togehter in good faith to enjoy something, obviously, and the only real way of doing so is to…let people’s analysis be shared and discussed.

So! I’m turning my return post into a CALL FOR ANALYSIS YEAH! I HAVE BEEN GONE FOR A MONTH! TELL ME YOUR COOL OPINIONS EITHER HERE OR IN MY ASKBOX! I am holding my paws out like furry Oliver Twist going “Please, may I please have more analysis.” The intermission is the perfect time to discuss the information we have been provided!

On stuff I’ve been mulling over: I’ve been doing my usual narrative analysis and uh…attempting to write the monster theory analysis and then Not. Plus some other fun stuff you might see soon from me! Hope you enjoy what I got thought up!

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In case you missed the milgram anniversary stream

They announced that in T3 they're sending the characters to super hell

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Okay I am just noticing the severe amounts of crosses on this. I thought it was just on the chair but no its also on Hiiro's Outfit that's intriguing. Also she has a band around her neck here, it doesn't seem to be the prisoner collar but it is Interesting to note...

fringed iris: rebellion, a lot of friends

acacia: friendship, secret love, elegance

white water lily: pure, innocent

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Q.18: How is life here different from your regular life?

Not that much in fact. The only difference might be that I don't need to think about work here.

I stayed at home most of the time, so the general feeling is the same… But I'm sad we're not allowed any music and internet.

I used to study a lot, do all sorts of art, and go on walks. But here, I feel like a rat in a sewerage.

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girl who is a little bit too silly this is a redraw of an art of her from previous year but i don't like showing my old drawings so just trust me

So it means; the absolute evil is not in taking away another’s life, but in that the person allows themselves to play God. If this is the main sin, how much do you think terrible of a sin is  playing Messiah? 

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Leave the girl, we don't need her! Come with me and play my games-

04/27/2024

Leave the girl, we don't need her! Come with me and play my games-

I was helping out in the kitchen after my talk with Daniel. Nell had taken to wearing his helmet around me I guess it was his way of distancing himself from the situation. Man, I really wished my uniform had come with one of those now.

Yet when he jumped almost dropping a dish out of nowhere and holding his stomach I was immediately concerned. I was trying my best to ignore the voices that I guess were trying to be funny to lighten the mood by quoting online jokes.

I placed my hand on Nell’s shoulder to get his attention since he couldn’t hear and his sight was hampered when he had that on. He quickly jumped away from me and pulled off the helmet.

“Ah, sorry I’ll be more careful. It feels weird to wash dishes in what looks like the dark so I p- I kind of got grossed out.” Despite his words he didn’t look that freaked out. His gaze grew wary as he looked over at me. “Um, you don’t have to help with cleaning dishes you know. You have a lot of duties as the guard already.”

“No, no… I really don’t. I just go around pestering Daniel for the most part.” Honestly, I was mostly loafing around and isolating myself. “Are you like afraid of me- Do you not want me here?”

“Huh, no I just thought with renovating you’d rather be anywhere but in the kitchen.” He said as he continued cleaning up. “Either way miss guard can you order some candy here. Geraud wanted me to ask. Since I’ve been put in charge of food stuff.”

“Hm, I can see about it. Do you like candy Nell.”

“I like dark chocolate and fruit-based ice creams. Hot chocolate is good too. Yet, generally no I don’t particularly like super sweet things. I will eat them with friends though. Those things are more fun to eat on outings with people anyway.” He always said everything like it was the common course of the situation. It was like he never even paused to consider the other options.

“Are there any you’d like to try just to try?” he looked at me as though I had asked something incredibly odd.

“Hm, no not really I’m not particularly lacking in desert experiences. I’ve been given a lot of sweets in my day. We have peanut butter here so I could make peanut butter cookies until you order sweets.” He immediately drifted into thinking about things he could possibly cook again. No doubt he was trying to think up the menu for tomorrow.

“Do you like cooking Nell?”

“Yeah, it’s relaxing.” He passed me the dishes he’d dried then I began putting them away. “In cooking you can control the outcome of things make them as bad or as good as you want.” I watched as he gave the plate a once over. “At least if you’re practiced enough… Then you can share the results with others. There’s a lot of small things in life like that. Things so easy to overlook that we don’t really miss them until we can’t have them anymore. But we can’t really appreciate them to the fullest if we’re busy worrying about the ending. Being alive at all is a pretty cruel series of contradictions.”

“That, is wow that’s really depressing.” I couldn’t stop the words from coming out.

“Isn’t it; hm, I’m thinking pork chops for tomorrow.” Right back to it after saying something like that… Nell was really something else. “I’ll have to ask if anyone doesn’t eat that after this. Are you good with it Nayo? Not allergic?”

“I’m fine with it.”

Lope: ... I'm not religious but Christ that kid is thinking about troubling things.

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You know…Daniel you don’t really seem like someone who would cause a fight? Even if you were “the problem”

Lope: Ah, actually trying to get to know them a bit now. That may not be the healthiest option.

04/27/2024

You know…Daniel you don’t really seem like someone who would cause a fight? Even if you were “the problem”

I placed the recorder in my pocket as I made my way up to Daniel. He’d begun keeping to himself more after the interrogation. Right now, he was sitting on the floor with his back against his locker.

“Daniel, um… Ya, know you don’t really seem like the sort to fight. Even given your noticeable muscle.” He sighed while glancing down the hall and avoiding my gaze. “I mean even if you were the problem… I can’t really imagine you instigating a fight but maybe I just don’t know you that well…”

He glanced down at his wrist for a moment, “Things are more complicated than that Nayo.” He sounded incredibly tired… “In life it’s not always about instigating or deescalating. What comes off as deescalating to you may not be the same for me. At worse that can look like instigating…” He toyed with the bracelet on his wrist with a somber expression, “Anything can start a fight, Nayo. Yet the ways we handle them once they occur how they end I think those things matter. Do you not?”

I’d never seen him so serious before, “I-”

He huffed, “Maybe it’s just due to how I was raised…” Daniel felt his uniform with a bit of familiarity. “Maybe I’m just stubborn and entitled.” There were so many feelings in his movements. Deliberate, cautious, and hesitant as he removed the bracelet from his wrist and put it in his pants pocket. “Yet I keep thinking that maybe I just believe- That I- I’m more in control than others and my issues are way bigger than they really are.”  

I was breathless almost stun to speechlessness all I could muster was, “Daniel…?”

“Maybe you’re right and I didn’t start that fight. Still, I don’t want to ignore my part in it either. I don’t want to give myself that out. Just like I don’t want to give myself an out here. This whole situation… Being here…”

“Wha- what does that mean?” I rushed over to him and grabbed his arm. “What do you mean by that? Being here- did you figure something out?” He pulled away from me and looked at the ground.

He moved towards me, “Don’t you feel it sometimes too?” and I staggered backwards.  “A-a Guilt you can’t get rid of!” he grasped my hand there was no force behind the act, but I felt trapped there all the same. “Don’t you feel it in every moment dragging at you? Telling you it’s not okay to be anywhere?!”

I wish I could say I didn’t know what he was talking about- I wish I could say anything at all. Yet, with all that had happened I knew the feeling well.

“That maybe everything you’ve done up until this point has been a mistake.” he continued talking but I really didn’t want to hear it. I didn’t want to consider it… The weight of everything. The fact that through just being here I was putting Daniel and everyone through this. Having this power to judge things that even a person’s closest loved ones don’t know. Having to judge such intimate things how could anybody do it?

“That sort of guilt!” Daniel’s yell snapped me out of my thoughts, “If that sort of thing can be judged here and now -” I looked up from the ground to see him smiling, “Then selfishly without question that’s what I want! So, if you can weigh this burden of mine with one single test I- I want you to do it without hesitation.”

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Hiiro: We can ask for anything that is not dangerous or luxurious. Kouta: … Hiiro: Right? Kouta: Mhm?.. Hiiro: And we can ask for cigarettes which we know from your request. Kouta: … Hiiro: Right? Kouta: Y-yeah? Hiiro: What about alcohol? No one has tried yet, have they? Kouta: … Hiiro: Can you keep a conversation? Kouta: …Do you drink? Hiiro: No. I’m the type to be the only sober person at a party who takes everyone home. Kouta: …? Hiiro: —Trying to talk to you is really hopeless.

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That answers an important question on who Ayame was living with…some sort of partner probably…..

Q.17: How do you feel about your upbringing?

I’m too old to blame my personality on my upbringing

I left home early, but my parents always tried hard for us. I think they did all they could.

The fate of the “older sister” can be burdensome at times.

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fringed iris: rebellion, a lot of friends

acacia: friendship, secret love, elegance

white water lily: pure, innocent

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I don’t have anything but happy anniversary Milgram!

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wanted to try drawing in the minigram art style

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Trial 2 timelines graphic

I did a thing with the timeline conversations.

Unlike the other post, this one doesn't include the ones before Trial 2 began. Not much is lost, though; each pair from before then ends up speaking again.

The color of each line corresponds to the birthday of the prisoner. Haruka, however, has two extra timelines outside of anyone's birthday. (Please forgive Muu-san)

[Image ID: Chart of the 10 Milgram prisoners (in chibi form) in a circle, with lines connecting them based on their timeline conversations. /end ID]

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Revisted Digimon these past few days, and man... I really miss Digimon so so much, Gomamon remains my favourite of the original cast~

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Q.16: What are your relationships with younger people?

They naturally view me as some sort of a bad parent But doesn't it also include our relationships? Do you pay no attention to them at all?

I don't want to do something wrong and hurt them.

I prefer people who inspire me rather than those who drag me back.