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How's it going everyone?

I'm back after a long hiatus and I'm glad to report that regular posts will start on all of my blogs again very soon. However, before I can start making those posts, I got to do some rearranging on all of them and make them into a happy place for me to be again.

I want to be able to stay here for the long haul and make sure I feel safe here like I did a long time ago. So until everything is over, I hope you'll stick around and deal with notifications if I send any out to you. I did a lot of thinking over this and I'm happy to come back now that I feel I'm in a better place after everything that happened.

I missed you all and I'm glad to be back!

Pardon the construction.

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The scars of persecution always harden into spite.

I've taken on too much energy. I haven't been able to defuse for the last six months because I've been so deep in my grief and finding out where I belong. Because I was looking so desperately for a community that would understand me, I have made horrendous, personal mistakes that have rendered me no better than when I first started. The machination that I made for how I wanted my blog to be was ruined early on by Sylpha and the Doctor Strange community. I came here looking for people who would help me and instead found nothing but people who would only see me for one reason, no matter how hard I tried.

Yes I made wonderful friends - one of which still surprises me to this day - who helped me process my grief, I met the love of my life and I got Tony back, but it also made me spiral. I have cried, been angry and triggered so many times in the last two months that nothing feels right anymore.

I have conceded to my fate that the community has me in chains and no matter how hard I pull, nothing I do will ever matter as much as he does. I continue to be myself, but I am holding onto too much energy and it has me stretched very thin. I hurt emotionally, physically and I have woken up sick so many days that I can't count because I'm mentally stressed and exhausted.

It's to the point now that I don't even recognize myself anymore. It's like I'm just grinding my wheels and digging a rut. No matter how hard I try to do something, there always seems to be one more thing and one more thing right behind what I got done. And no matter how far back I step, I can't see the picture I've painted.

I feel like @darsynia: I've hit a brick wall in this community. But I'm the opposite side of her.

Where they won't allow her in and she feels like they're pushing away her content, I'm inside, shackled and having the life drained out of me. I pull at the binds they have on me, push the defects in hopes of getting out but they've just decided they won't let go.

I don't even feel human anymore. I have tried, and tried, and tried to do other things because they have caused me to fall out of love with Stephen. But god, I miss him. Every time I look at him now, I just remember how scorned I am, how bad I was hurt by that bitch and how lost I feel because now in place of losing Tony... I've now lost Stephen too...

I loved Stephen once, but that love is dead and gone...

So this is my message to all who follow me.

I am leaving Tumblr for the foreseeable future to repair the damage this fucking platform has caused to my spirit.

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That fucking red tie was everything.

The part where he loosened it had me on my knees and sweating. Was wishing he'd pet me the way he ran his hands down across it. And still do.

mcu meme | [5/5] outfits ↳ tony’s tom ford suit

“Please tell me you brought a suit.” “Sure did, it’s a lovely Tom Ford three-piece two button.”

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Welp.

*Clears throat.*

comic about girlfriends

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This man will never look more like a god than he did in this movie. He was fucking gorgeous.

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Man introduces his puppy to neighborhood cat

(via)

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"I cry tears that you never see.

So fuck you, you can go cry me an ocean and leave me be.

You are what you love, not who loves you."

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Psychic Warping and Hydrokinetic Surfing.

Both of these track as a person with sixth sense and a water sign.

Click on it twice. These are your two super powers.

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I took this from you @darsynia lol. Not sorry 💕

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I don't usually go for these kind of things because they're so cliche, but after I put these together I had to fucking share 😂

This is Nick "Valentine".

And upon seeing that we were going to Miami (which is a current fanmade DLC for the game he's from) for a romantic dinner only for it to end up with me in the ER, that tracks lol!

Nick is a detective that lives in the post Apocalypse of Fallout 4. So yes, this seems legit and I love this. 😂 💕

𝐕𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐞'𝐬 𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝐓𝐚𝐠 𝐆𝐚𝐦𝐞!

𝑻𝒊𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒇𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒊𝒏 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆, 𝒃𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒆𝒔! 𝑮𝒆𝒕 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒚 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒂 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒐𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒘𝒂𝒕𝒄𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒌𝒔 𝒇𝒍𝒚!

𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐏 𝐎𝐍𝐄: Head over to your camera roll. The last celebrity or fictional character saved to your gallery is your Valentine’s date — oh! what a cutie! 💗

𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐏 𝐓𝐖𝐎: Sneak a peek at my Valentine’s Date scenario chart! Here’s how it works: Choose the first letter of your first name, your birthday month, and your star sign to reveal the ins-and-outs of your romantic getaway! 🥀

𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐏 𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐄𝐄: Share the deets and share the love! Tag any lovely moots or followers that you think might get a kick out of this! Cheers! 🥂

𝐎𝐏𝐄𝐍 𝐓𝐎 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘𝐎𝐍𝐄!

I’ll go first…

Okay… the Governor and I are headed to Vienna to catch a show at the theatre and I’ll be gifted a love letter! Trés sappy! Honestly, I’m expecting a double cross. ❤️🥀

moots, assemble! *no pressure, of course!*: @starstruck-loner @goldencherriess @astudyinlaura @lumosouls @misaverawrites @selcouthangel @asherloki @baby-bloos @thespiritoflife @lydiablack-m @starryeddie @andthevillainshallrises @bakerstreethound @silverdaydreamer @thatawkwardlittlefangirl @classickook @lucywrites02 @stupidthoughtsinwriting @blogthebooklover @imeternallylove @fictional-hooman @waiting-for-cas-to-save-me @amplifyme @frostandflamesfanfic @mindibindi @foxmulderlovebot @space-helen @inlovewithfictionalcharacters666 @paperheartsarts @aephereal @christinasyellowflowers @natti-ice

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shout out to ace and aro kids who are constantly bombarded with the opinion that sex and romantic love are directly connected to living a happy life.

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Mmm, perfection indeed.

Thank you for the tag, my sweet moonflower. 💜

RDJ’s Perfect Side Profile

✨Serotonin Saturday✨

a/n: pics from the ever so useful Pinterest

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✨ATTENTION✨

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✨ATTENTION✨

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✨ATTENTION✨

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Coming Home Bucky Barnes x FReader

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@sobeautifullyobsessed You need this right now, especially after our text chat earlier my dear 💜

Dear Writer Friends:

First: It's perfectly natural to feel disheartened when your efforts seem to go unnoticed. It can be difficult when you put so much effort into something and yet it seems to make no traction, while you look over at someone seeming to put minimal effort in getting so much more attention than you. And it's okay. You're not less than them. You don't matter less. Your words still matter and your efforts do as well. This is why comparison is an enemy to our craft.

Second: You are not any less important than other writers. They may get more notes but your words still have the potential to help someone else, inspire them, motivate them, uplift them, help them heal... your words have so much power to them, even if you don't see what they're doing for others. Even if it feels and appears that all of your effort is in vain.

Third: Writing is hard. It takes a lot of work, a lot of patience and creativity and it does not make you any less to be exhausted by it. Take breaks when you need to. You are human, you need breaks, you need time for yourself to get your mental energy back. It is perfectly normal to get drained from using your creativity so much and you should feel no shame for needing to rest. Creativity is draining.

Fourth: What you do is amazing. Just think about it... we take thoughts in our heads and we can create entire worlds, galaxies, universes from a single thought. You can have the simplest thought that a non-creator would just let go by. But you're creating this massive project out of that single thought. That's amazing.

Fifth: To writers that have tons of WIPs, you're awesome. It's not something to be upset over or feel bad about. If you're jumping WIP to WIP and never able to finish your WIP, that's nothing to be ashamed of. You don't need to change yourself. Your creativity is just that massive and expansive and maybe you just haven't quite gotten the million dollar idea yet. It's okay, keep trying, keep trekking and keep writing.

Sixth: To writers that only write one WIP at a time, you amaze me. Your dedication to a single WIP is inspiring. It really is. It may not always feel that way, but you are dedicated and passionate about your WIP and that's amazing. You have the ability to create something so vivid because of how much time you put into this one project, that it could feel like you're in the world. You are doing amazing things. Keep it up!

Writing is a challenge. It's not something that should be taken lightly. We shouldn't be putting ourselves down because we don't write like our more successful friends. We shouldn't be comparing ourselves to other writers because there are just so many ways to be a writer, so many ways to write. There are fluff writers, angst writers, horror writers, writers who work on 100 WIPs at a time, writers that work on one at a time, writers who are highly into description and those more into dialogue. No matter what kind of writer you are, you should be proud and love your work and the energy you put into your craft because it's something that is admirable. Even if you're not where you want to be as far as how good of a writer you are, you have the potential to be as good as you want.

Keep writing. Keep pushing forward and putting in the effort. Keep trying. Your efforts are seen and they're not done in vain. You're doing incredible things. Don't let the self-doubt monster scream at you. Scream back and let it know you won't be bullied into silence.

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