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rachiies-blog Ā· 8 months ago
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This has become my diary.
Hello. No one but hi.
Im going back to school. Im LDS again. Im sobies! Going to the temple tomorrow šŸ’—
I’m scared I won’t get a good LDS man because of my past and I cried at testimony meeting.
I don’t do half the things I said I would do…
Trying to make that milly
Love love
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rachiies-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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Bullying is not cool. I should have hurt you more. I should have been strategic… but I was scared of your evil, scared of the black who have thrown me out of the house, criticized and slapped me. Abuse is not cool.
I’m your victim no matter how annoying that word is.
You made it on my tumblr bitch and everyone loves you over me. What an ugly girl. I wish I would have punched you. Pushed you to the ground and slammed your head on the floor.
Maybe you would have been a paraplegic. Then you wouldn’t be so rude. However I’ve seen a girl who couldn’t talk and paralyzed black. Who still gave me the stink eye in a hospital setting.
I do not miss the hospital
I do not miss jail
I do not miss being your door mat
I do not miss this place I’ve been stuck in
My hope above all is to be able to relax enough to never go through that again. Stay on pharmaceuticals and obey.
Punch the bully for me? Scream at her face…
The worst part is they all fucking love you. I was your only target. Just to put me down a notch… damn envy is wicked
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rachiies-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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I just played a game of chess with someone and they cheated. What’s the fun in that. Making me feel like a piece of shit for instant gratification. What a loser. Ugly clothes. Ugly face. Shitty poops. I just can’t imagine ever being with these people. A guy with no teeth asked me for sex. Ugh, then I’m dealing with a bratty woman who I have lots of things to and she still has a fucking attitude with me. What has my life come to…
I had sex with a guy while we did ketamine. He isn’t romantic and waited for me to be ready… not considerate. What the fuck.
The only thing I look forward to is my prayer group and even then I’m like five different religions. Also, I like hentai and drugs.
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE
I have two gay friends that share smokes with me šŸ’
I got the stuff to dread my hair yesterday!
I got new makeup!
I’m doing very well in scripture study and in my prayer group.
I get to go out to eat today and send a package to a friend.
I have lots of food and snacks
I get to chant, do yoga and go to an NA meeting today with my gay friend!
So life isn’t all that bad… I just wish I could cry, but I’m on too many medications.
It beats how trippy my life is when I’m not on my medicine…
Just why cheat on a fucking game ughhh. And that bitchy girl who thinks she’s on top of the whole world… because I smoke? Because I did coke and ketamine? Little bitch just MOVED or I will hit you.
Maybe he was just very strategic… but he did get to study.
Isn’t that cheating though? Taking a picture of the game so we can ā€œfinish it later.ā€
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Trying to prevent anger. Thanks tumblr for listening.
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rachiies-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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dirty thoughts šŸ’­
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rachiies-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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I lost a friend today… I’ve lost a lot of friends in my life. I have schizophrenia
Im crazy and I’ve done a lot of things that burned my bridges with a lot of people… so that’s my sad day.
#sadday #mental
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rachiies-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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I took Suboxone for the first time today. I don’t have anyone to talk to, but tumblr is a safe place to tell my dirty little secret. I’m in a treatment center for homeless/crazy people. The people here are like my family! I’ve been getting closer with family too. I’m hiiiiigh and I just wanted to say that I appreciate you just for being on tumblr in the first place. I really think everyone who uses this app is baller! Pray that I don’t get caught for me pwease!!! Good vibes good vibes just holllly shit I feel amazing. Check out my blog! All the beautiful posts are from my deepest, most sincere heart. I couldn’t have made it through without the internet and all the love! šŸ’—
#high #lovelife #bemyfriend #happy
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rachiies-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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Made candy for my daughter ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„ #candy #littleravegirlexpectations #prettyravegirl #plur
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rachiies-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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Had my first cig in 8 months!
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rachiies-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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I get to leave this hospital that’s been here since the 70’s. I get to smoke a cigarette! I get to keep my phone! I get to get closer to family, be outside. I went to jail June 5th and I’m finally gonna get to spend time outside! Soon I can work again and make an income. ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„ good things are happenin’
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rachiies-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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Yup
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rachiies-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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I painted my AA book ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„
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rachiies-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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I haven’t written a poem in a while,
I haven’t read a book.
I haven’t been the best person I know I can be.
Right now I don’t deserve your love romantic man… but I’ll earn it. I’ll try to earn it even with a cigarette in my hand.
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rachiies-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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Anything you’d like or recommend for my TikTok channel dreams.
#alcohol #lovely #vibes
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rachiies-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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He messaged back 🪷
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rachiies-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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Ducky was my nickname…
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rachiies-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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Psalm 46:1
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rachiies-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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So I’m not eating for a week.
Because I’m fat.
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