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They should invent a method of asking for reassurance that nobody secretly hates you that doesn't make people secretly hate you.

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i know that life isn't a race and that everyone does things on their own schedule and that i shouldn't compare myself to other people who haven't lived the same life that i have and overcome the same obstacles i have. BUT

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literally so annoying to be going Through It in a deeply unserious way where like no one needs to be worried about me i’m gonna survive and things are gonna get better like they always do but right now at this very moment it feels like my soul has unmoored and started dissolving in my stomach and its killing me slowly and painfully but also i’m Fine

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i have never successfully articulated anything ever but i got very close, once

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I dont like uncertainty i need to know everything now

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by sky_makayu2024

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Kurt Vonnegut really went off with "So it goes." Truly the most devastating 3 word composition in the english language

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it’s crazy how i will be having the worst time of my life and i will still be on here . Reblogging posts

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would you still like me even if i experienced emotions

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when you come, i am always leaving. isn't that appropriate. you keep asking me - will you stay? where are you going?

i am going home. i am going to find the mountain of my future and scale it. i am going to draw in the dirt and plant something that finally outlives my father. i am going to live.

you are always going in the other direction. your hair, like always, like when i met you - beautiful in the wind. your hands around the sickle of my heart. you know that achilles sings the same song. aching the tune of you cannot survive apart.

i want you to come with. i want to fold you in my pocket and beg your forgiveness. i want to repeat every morning i woke up in your bed. i want to stare into the mirror of darkness and pluck out all the places you fit. my mother suggests i leave you a message. give you a gift. sit with you in the basement and listen to the gorgons sing.

i am giving you space. you will come through when it is right for you. it's the least that i owe you, after all of this.

in the meantime, i'm looking for you in the edge of the garden. i'm looking for you every time i come home. i'm looking for you at the end of my story. i'm looking for you.

i think that you know.

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chrome postcards of the three sisters in central oregon ca. 1950s-60s

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oooohhhh ok. the more you deny yourself the more you lose yourself

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