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The evolution of our vision of werewolves.

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8-17-22

I was looking through my notes and I just came across the one about the picture of the renfaire troupe leader. A most recent instance of a similar thing was when we were redoing my room. It’s still in progress, but this was last Wednesday if I remember correctly. Yeah, that was my papa’s birthday and I was trying REALLY hard not to piss her off so papa could have a good birthday. Anyhow, she got pissed off at me bc she was saying [paraphrasing here bc it’s been a while but apparently] I never want to try any of her ideas when I’m so miserable with how I have my set up and yadi yadi yada. Long story short, she was saying I needed to change my room bc it upsets me so much. And I responded that it didn’t though. She kept insisting what I wanted didn’t work fit me and that I just needed to try how she wanted it. And I did say I was open to it, but just bc it didn’t work for her didn’t mean it didn’t work for me. I was trying to clarify that I wasn’t changing my room bc it didn’t work for me but bc I got new furniture and I had to move it to make it fit. She didn’t see it that was. I even asked for her input the weeks prior and even got a floor plan from her that she wanted me to do. But when I did her layouts, she ended up getting mad at me that it was stupid ideas and that I needed to stop being so stubborn and shit. Anyhow, she got frustrated with me not agreeing with her during the above mentioned attempt at clarification, and so she reportedly punched as best she could. Luckily I was on my bed reaching towards my fan to turn it on and she was on the floor by my feet. So she just punched my left calf repeatedly. She has really bad carpal tunnel though so it didn’t hurt hurt. It did sting bc she hit a nerve at one point but that was it. Oh, she was also calling me a “fucking asshole” and other curses while she did it. But this was just the most recent example of how I was told something, then when her idea/belief was proven to not be the best idea, she lashed out at me instead of being calm about it. Anyways.. that’s it.

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That would explain why i havent been on tumblr or ao3 in so long... I like not being so depressed and anxious anymore (which is saying something bc im always depressed and anxious. Just... less so now)

But i hate having lost my passion... like I still fucking love everything but my passions have simmered to more like a professor’s passion rather than a full on fangirl, which sucks bc now i cant write, I cant fully engage, and i can barely do meta. Fangirling was such a defining character trait for me that now I feel like I dont know who i am anymore....

some of you don’t need fandom you need prozac

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problemlerimin kendi kendine çözülmesini bekliyorum

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Thinking about the countless times art and music and cinema and literature have saved and comforted me during difficult times i really owe my happiness to everyone dedicated to their craft

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[text ID: a tweet by @rhododaktulos that reads, ““my child is completely fine” your child’s favourite trope is found family”]

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Quarantine feels like that episode of the twilight zone where the last man alive finally has all the time in the world to read but breaks his glasses but instead of glasses it's just my whole brain

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It’s a small world, Mozu

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Suddenly feline familiars make perfect sense

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Has your mother ever been so mad she told you “one day you’re going to kill me or im going to kill you”?

Or are you normal? 🙃🙃🙃

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How to make a scarf into a headband

"How to make a scarf into a headband

Eileen Chow

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In the warm summer weather, scarves are often forgotten but they’re actually the perfect summer accessory for lounging by the pool or running errands in the city. Not only is a headscarf a great way to add a pop of pattern and color to your summer outfit, it’s also a great way to keep hairstyles in place for a breezy day at the beach.

How to tie a headscarf for summerSupplies:

A scarf made of lightweight material. Both square and rectangular scarves will work.

Time needed: 5 minutes or less

Instructions:Step 1: Fold

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Fold your square scarf diagonally to make a triangle. Then continue folding the scarf over until you’ve created a long, thin band. If you’re using a rectangular scarf, you’ll also want to make a thin band, but by folding the scarf lengthwise until you have a long strip.

Step 2: Wrap

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Wrap the folded scarf around the back of your head, holding the ends out in front. Make sure you have it centered by checking that the ends come out to be the same length.

Step 3: Twist

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Bring the ends together so they cross at the top of your head. Give it a twist so the 2 ends latch together and then wrap around toward the back of your head.

Step 4: Tie and tuck

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Tie a single knot to secure and tuck the ends in. Voila! A perfectly tied headscarf and a fun, stylish look you can wear all summer long.

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I have had really bad allergies aaaaaaaaall of my life as well as constant stomach problems. You mean to tell me those 2 things arent distinct issues that actually have something to do with one another? You mean that when i went vegan and changed my diet (especially with regards to dairy... i freaking love cheese and ice cream but my god does it hurt me so..), that it was possibly histamines that have been causing me my issues and not just the fact that i stopped eating meat?

Also im autistic so like... woah..

And to OP’s main point, agreed!!! Here’s to hoping things change soon and there’s more representation and information soon enough 💕💕👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽

Sometimes I think about how media does us a disservice by only showing a very narrow concept of illness and disability.

Like, Tumblr has laughed at people who thought 'the potato sweats' was something everyone goes through, but that's because that's not normal for you. The only kind of allergies that ever get talked about in movies and TV shows are the severe, immediately life-threatening kind, where your throat closes up and you'll be dead in ten minutes if you don't get an Epi-pen to the thigh. So why would you assume that getting sweaty is an allergic response?

I've talked about the fact that I have a histamine issue before. It's likely MCAS. It's functionally like being mildly to moderately allergic to basically the whole world. I've had low key symptoms at least since early high school (year 7/age 12) onwards. And for years, I just thought I got a lot of colds. Just basically constantly. It couldn't be hayfever, I thought; my family get hayfever, and it happens in spring. Mine was year round.

I was in my mid-twenties when I was diagnosed as having 'non-season-specific hayfever'. I didn't work out histamine intolerance for myself until a couple of years ago (a decade or so later), when a member of disability Twitter talked about having MCAS, and how it was likely connected to their fibromyalgia, and how it was probably correlated with fibro for most people, if not causative of it. And they talked about some of the symptoms, and I thought, huh. I tried a bioflavonoid called quercetin in supplement form (one of the treatments they mentioned), and was able to breathe through my nose without difficulty for the first time in literal years. And I'd been taking two different antihistamines daily for several years at this point.

My sister has started looking into MCAS a little herself, and I put together some resources and links of places to find more information. I would up reading the SIGHI (Swiss Interest Group Histamine Intolerance) symptoms list, and here's some of the random shit this 'pseudoallergic' condition can cause:

bacterial bladder infection symptoms without the bladder infection

headaches and migraines

fatigue

temporary loss of the sense of smell

heartburn

acid reflux

Before I changed my diet and reduced the amount of histamine-rich foods, I'd started having acid reflux out of nowhere, on a fairly healthy vegan diet – wasn't eating daily burgers and fries, or anything like that. It was happening near daily for awhile. Post diet change, I've had it maybe three times over the course of a year (likely when I've eaten higher histamine foods, tbh), and nowhere near as badly as I did before.

Histamine intolerance is still fairly new as a diagnosis, so it's not surprising that 0 doctors suggested it. But my point here was that allergies can look like a bunch of different things. One friend's mum didn't realise she was a cœliac until she travelled to Japan and didn't eat bread for basically the first time in her life. She was in her late 60s. One thing her cœliac disease caused was a serious nutritional deficit (I think it was potassium?) She passed out and wound up being hospitalised for it. This is common in allergic diseases, because when your gut's inflamed, it can't absorb nutrients properly.

There are so many examples of public misconceptions of illness and disability, but another one that hit home for me was epilepsy. The only kind of seizure that ever appears in popular media is Grand Mal – the kind with convulsions. So when my boss had an absence seizure in her office, with me the only other person in the building, I did my best, but I had no idea what was going on. My boss was sitting in her office, basically non-reactive for several minutes, and then she was confused and vague for maybe a half hour after that. She'd never told me she had epilepsy; at that point, she said later, she hadn't had a seizure for eight years. Back then, I didn't know there were any other kinds of seizures at all. (My boss was fine, btw.)

And this isn't getting into our usual gripes with the lack of disability rep behind the camera leading to a narrow and inaccurate idea of neurodiversity (especially autism) and disability, leading to things like wheelchair users being hassled because the general public believes – thanks to pop culture – that the only kind of wheelchair user that exists are paraplegics and quadriplegics, and that part-time wheelchair users are clearly 'faking'.

The thing is that yeah, you can always do your own research, but first you have to recognise that something isn't normal. For better and for ill, the media we consume helps set our baseline of normal.

It might be nice if they portrayed a broader concept of normal than they currently do.