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It has been 5.5 years, and I want to list a few things that have happened:

I started going to therapy

My dirtbag ex and I broke up

I started keeping a gratitude journal and writing notes to people I loved

I moved into a house with actual windows, closer to the mountains and with friends who cared about me

I got a promotion at work

I got out of debt and started saving money in a meaningful, intentional way

I backpacked for a week through the jungle in South America

I visited Paris

I camped in a bioreserve in Mexico

I fell back in love with photography

I started visiting museums at least once per month and allowed myself to explore different interests

I got to a point where I was hiking multiple times each week

I quit my job to take a contract in Antarctica

I lived in Antarctica for a full year

I fell in love with a person who adventures the same way I do

I road tripped around New Zealand and visited Fiji

I made peace with my mom and got some needed closure

I thought I had lost hope, but hope was always there. My community helped me act on it!

I’m losing hope, just kind of generally

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The biggest plot twist of my life was that I used to be a Hermione, and now I’m a Ginny. And honestly, I’m not upset.

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you’re all out here vilifying frankenstein’s monster as if you too haven’t longed for love and acceptance and finding that denied to you sworn revenge on your creator . like come on . time to grow up

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I went to Colorado alone and just sort of hiked around for a while. Normally I love solo adventures like that. I revel in the solitude. But this time felt very different. I sat on top of a mountain and looked down into the cloud-filled valley, and thought, “Shit, I’m going to drown in cloud soup.” And I realized that no one cared if I drowned, because no one gives a shit about where I am. And it’s not like I can just “find someone,” because I’m the kind of person who very weirdly thinks, “Shit, I’m going to drown in cloud soup.” There might never be anyone to love my bizarre flavor. I’m alone, and I’m lonely.

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back at it again with the mega-depression and crying every day, cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool  cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool  cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool  cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool  cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool  cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool  cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool  cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool  cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool  cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool  cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool cool

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He’s like cocaine to my addict soul.

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im a goth girl on the inside. on the outside? a father figure

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I hate giving ppl my phone number cuz then they’ll be calling and texting me like … this is my safe space … show some respect

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“One of my favourite Steve Jobs stories was the time the engineers working on the iPod brought their finished prototype to him in his office. He said it was too big, they needed to make it smaller. They said it was as small as they could make it, it couldn’t be made any smaller. So he took the prototype over to his aquarium and dropped it in. The iPod sank to the bottom, and as it did, tiny little bubbles came out. ‘See those bubbles,’ he asked. ‘They’re air inside the iPod. Make it smaller.’

“Another story about Steve Jobs was when they brought the prototype for the iPad 2 to his office. The engineers told him it was faster than the first iPad. He took it over to his aquarium and dropped it in. ‘Look how slowly it sank,’ he told them. ‘Make it faster.’

“One time a newly hired intern had been sent out to get Steve a sandwich. When she brought it to him, he looked at it. ‘I thought I ordered the beef on rye,’ he asked. She told him it was indeed beef on rye. He took it over to his fish tank and dropped it in. ‘Does that look like beef on rye?’

“He was always dropping things in that fish tank. We couldn’t stop him. We told him he had to stop, he wouldn’t listen. It was full of stuff that shouldn’t be in an aquarium.

“The fish had all died years ago. One had been crushed under an early generation iMac. The others were all poisoned. He didn’t care.

“It got to the point where there was no room for anything in the fish tank. When we emptied it after he died, we found a body in there. We never found out who it was.”

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*sees anyone interacting with anyone other than me* wow I guess you just forgot all about me. I guess it was all just lies and I read too much into it but I actually thought you liked me? what a fool I am

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