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People seriously underestimate the long term effects of constant loneliness

"why are you so weird?" Idk, maybe because being completely isolated while growing up has destroyed my brain and now I'm nothing more than a human-mimicking creature that bases all of my actions on what I think is normal human behavior rather than just doing things naturally

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Also i dont think people realise erasure is oppression

Not letting trans men be represented in media and seen living as trans men stops younger trans boys from knowing people like them exists and that its ok and normal and there's a community of people out there for them. It stops young trans boys from being able to realise binding and tape exists and that one day they can medically transition. It stops them from knowing theres language and words to discuss who they are and what they experience. It stops trans man from living out loud and pushes us out of sight so it's mush easier to attack us and oppress us.

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I AM NOT INTERESTED IN LIVING A LIFE WHERE I COWER AWAY FROM BEAUTY OR GOODNESS BECAUSE OF THE POTENTIAL TO BE HURT. I AM BARRELING TOWARD IT. LIFE IS GOING TO CRACK ME OPEN LIKE A PIÑATA AND I AM GOING TO LET IT.

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this terrible thing we’re witnessing now is not unique you know it happened before or something much like it

Sophocles, trans. Anne Carson, Antigonick

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via

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suzanne collins: *kills a character in her killing kids book series*

me:

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how’s that house that raised you?

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obsessed with this. grandprev. much better than prev prev prev or whatever honestly I like it

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Adam Parrish being the best student in the best prep school. Adam Parrish working three jobs to afford that prep school. Adam Parrish enduring years of domestic abuse without complaint. Adam Parrish suing his abusive father to save his best friend. Adam Parrish going to the court hearing without a single witness and fully expecting to lose. Adam Parrish working his ass off to get out of his small town and poor pedigree. Adam Parrish trying to be gentle when angry because he didn't want to be his father. Adam Parrish formulating a murder plan to get rid of big bad villain. Adam Parrish planning to use his one favour to save Gansey.

Adam Parrish doing all that thinking he is worthless and coward.

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🍃🌱🌼💐

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just a pinch of pynch eheh

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I AM NOT INTERESTED IN LIVING A LIFE WHERE I COWER AWAY FROM BEAUTY OR GOODNESS BECAUSE OF THE POTENTIAL TO BE HURT. I AM BARRELING TOWARD IT. LIFE IS GOING TO CRACK ME OPEN LIKE A PIÑATA AND I AM GOING TO LET IT.

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Nah it's too late for that sorry. Now if you excuse me if gonna continue reliving every single one of my mistakes in excruciating detail and hold myself to impossible standards that I'd never impose on literally anybody else.

u really do have to forgive yourself

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Pictured: two tall gays ignore tiny girl as she struggles to carry many books