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hi I wanted to ask you if you have good wolfstar recs

hello! yes, i have recs. i’m assuming that you know my recs will all be fics that do a certain thinky atmospheric queer thing or are otherwise very porny and the fics that do both those things at the same time are my favorite. my other disclaimer is that i haven’t kept up on r/s fics in a long while so you might have already read these stories. the good news is all these stories are worth a reread or three.

boyish road trip with an extra helping of adolescent sexuality exploration: hard to find by accioromulus

a quiet christmas classic: a bright particular star by torch

porny collar fic: the latest fashion, old boy by helwolves

i can't remember what happened but i know it wrecked me: the levity series by rageprufrock

everything by vee, but especially the active reader and domestic creatures. there was a time in my life i just reread vee's fics over and over

the most marauderiest marauder fic: you can't have it all (but there is this) by escribo

this legends only kink meme run by ceredwen, including but not limited to big purple fake cock by an anon we are all in debted to

sexy and soft fic about writing fanfic sex: stay soft but dont be gentle by reachthetree

adorable teenage hair prank turned involuntary confession of feelings: not afraid of anything (even time) by flora_tyronelle

is it ok to rub one off to the sound of your best friend getting fucked? and other musings by one sirius black: the other side of the wall (or laundry day is every day) by bluberd

mustntgetmy, i especially like this bright familiar sun and a series of sketches done in black ink

ruinsplume: read time's fool first, then watch me go blind (collab with lefthandofglory) and then birthday boy

the werewolf harvest moon fic you've always needed: harvest by enjambament (read everything by them too)

gorgeous and atmospheric lazy sweet summertime fic: dog days of summer by maybe the moon

montparnasse, obviously. save for a time when you can wander aimlessly around your kitchen for two days rubbing at your ribs and wondering what just happened to you

earlybloomingparentheses: my very talented beloved, similar advice as above, plan to go on a long drive afterward to cry and grieve for the impossible and that damn toothbrush that was in one passing line that you'll never forget.

also check out @wolfstarwarehouse if you havent already, they do this more thoroughly and regularly than i ever could.

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I had so much fun, thank you for dragging me out of the house ^^"

Went to the beach with my besties!!

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wolfstar #52!!!!

Some pure boys dancing for you :)

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Cripple punk spoonie werewolf pride.👌 As I get older I find more and more that it doesn't matter how much I hide, and I can pretend I'm fine all I want, but I ain't fooling no one and I'm simply aiding and abetting my own misery. I'm not a kid anymore, years of transformations have taken their toll on my body, my joints ache with the slow movement of celestial bodies. I think many wizards have a hard time conceptualizing chronic pain conditions bc magic fixes many ailments, and I find myself gravitating towards muggle disability communities, as much as the werewolf or other magical creatures' liberation movements..

Finding pride in pain of any kind is a special type of psychological rebellion, and I don't know if I'm there yet or if I even belong in these communities.

I've been hiding in shame, and out of fear, for so long. It's fair. As a child I wouldn't have been able to protect myself against those who would take matters into their own hands. But I'm a decent duelist, and I have friends who have my back. And if I'm not going to be open about my own condition, how do I ever expect to challenge and change the anti-werewolf sentiment of the wizarding community?🐾

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Wait really? Lol

You do realize I have literal bags under my eyes right??? XD

Took a pretentious selfie in front of an old gate... 😂

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10 days left.

Sometimes I don't know if the anxiety or the pain is worse.

Rn I'm okay on the pain and fatigue scale, but my anxiety is through the roof. Lately I've been having nightmares of waking up to the smell of blood that isn't my own. But it's not even.... I wish all of my anxiety was selfless...but part of it is just. Anticipation of pain, pure and primal, I don't wanna. I just don't wanna.

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Every. Single. Fullmoon. 😂

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Hey just wanted to let u know you're pretty awesome standing up for people like us.. What do you think of the social model of disability? Does it apply to lycantrophy? I'm not sure what to make of these muggle concepts..

Hi there anon!! Thank you for the support, it means the world to me to know there are people out there who actually benefit from my ramblings. 

I like the social model of disability in general, because it accurately does not blame the disabled person for their disability. I think as a werewolf I have a complicated relattionship to my condition... I mean... I wanna be cured. I do. But at the same time I wouldn’t be me without the experiences that have shaped me into who I am today.. good and bad.. But if someone told me that from tomorrow onwards, I would no longer have to fear the moon... hell yea, I’d take that cure in a heartbeat. 

But since no such thing exists, it becomes a matter of managing a disability. And this is where the societal nature of disability really comes into play. There’s simply not enough research and money being put into finding ways to manage, live with and alleviate the symptoms of lycantrophy. People would rather kill us on sight at worst, or ostrasize us at best. During the full moon anyone but the super rich with connections to get their hands on wolfsbane potion, are relegated to tearing ourselves to pieces in fortified sheds or padded cells in giant institutions. There is little to no research into the nature of wolf-sustained (self)injury and why it’s such a hassle to heal or why the scar tissue can’t be dealt with. And with no one caring much about the actual lifethreatening injuries, it should come as no surprise that there’s no money in researching ways to alleviate the magical fatigue, sensitivity, irritability, vertigo, joint pain etc that usually accompanies the waning and waxing of the moon.

I swear to god if ONE more wizard with no clue about anything, suggests that these symtoms are psychosomatic bc they don’t respond to the usual remedies, I am going to go feral

(Haha. Get it. Feral. Since I’m a werewolf)

Not that psychosomatic pain isn’t real  pain btw, just that this is NOT that, it’s clearly tied to the mooncycle for chrissake..

Sorry I think I went off on a tangent?? 

Uhh just. ye. thank you for the encouraging ask, anon!!

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Took a pretentious selfie in front of an old gate... 😂

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I don't know what I want or what I need.

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Hi!!

Name's Remus, I'm 19 years old, queer, a wizard and a werewolf.

I post about my life, werewolf issues and politics, post pictures of me and my friends, answer questions and more!

Looking for similar blogs to follow, so please reblog if you are interested in the intersection of disability/lycantrophy/MI and queer identity, in particular in wizarding communities. I'm rather interested in the discussion of magical "cures" of muggle disabilities and the implications of that etc

If you are a muggleborn exclusionist and/or anti-werewolf-rights, a Nazi, terf or similar, I WILL fight you 🔪

[OOC COMMENT: This is a modern no-voldemort college AU based on the marauders characters, featuring transguy!James @james-youprobablyknowme-potter/Lily (doesn’t have her own blog yet), aromantic!NB!reformed!Snape @severa-feck-off-snape and eventual Sirius @sirius-id-tap-that-black/Remus. This blog is run by a queer disabled person and I find it interesting to explore that in a magical setting. I am an adult. You’re very welcome to interact!]

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Me at full moon:

Me: oh... Right 😓

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If you're so sorry about being a werewolf... How come you don't heal your scars I mean you're practically advertising it at this point

Y'all are aware wounds inflicted by a werewolf leave permanent scars that can't be healed right? So uhh since we're apparently so obsessed with scars, here's a lil picture to carry you over

Next time consider opening a book instead of your mouth

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So uhh are you and Sirius fucking? Asking for a friend 👀

Where is this coming from?

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I don't know if I can keep doing this..