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if anyone's still following me here, i am putting bellamy on my multi @folksonged bc tumblr is just not as big a part of my life as it once was, and less blogs is Better for me rn. pls follow us over there where i hope to be slightly more active

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if anyone's still following me here, i am putting bellamy on my multi @folksonged bc tumblr is just not as big a part of my life as it once was, and less blogs is Better for me rn. pls follow us over there where i hope to be slightly more active

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i think i'm taking a short tumblr break. 🙂 i haven't really been feeling like getting on. i've been reading and gaming a lot. but i'll still be around for discord threads, selectively (mostly, if we already have them, i'll reply to them slowly) ❤️

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not gone! just haven't had time for tumblr

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thinking about s4 when raven (?) says something like "when you're starving in there" and bellamy says "i won't be starving because i won't be inside"

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where is marjorie? / blog roll bc it's been a while

** if you're into writing on discord, i LOVE doing that and i do faster replies on there by a Lot so please write with me on there

@sorehsu / obi-wan kenobi / primary blog

@saintshope / bail organa / primary blog, slightly lower activity

@folksonged / multimuse / low activity

@respnsibility / bellamy blake / lowest activity

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thinking abt bellamy blake

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feel free to change any pronouns, etc. || may contain some nsfw!  

LAVENDER HAZE

meet me at midnight

oh, you don’t ever say too much

i’ve been under scrutiny

all this shit is new to me

i’m damned if i do give a damn what people say

all they keep asking me is if i’m gonna be your bride

the only kinda girl they see is a one-night or a wife

they’re bringing up my history, but you weren’t even listening

get it off your chest

i just wanna stay

MAROON

how’d we end up on the floor anyway?

how the hell did we lose sight of us again?

ain’t that the way shit always ends

i feel you, no matter what

and i wake with your memory over me

that’s a real fuckin’ legacy to leave

ANTI-HERO

i have this thing where I get older, but just never wiser

midnights become my afternoons

i should not be left to my own devices

one day I’ll watch as you’re leaving ‘cause you got tired of my scheming for the last time

i’m the problem, it’s me

i’ll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror

it must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero

sometimes i feel like everybody is a sexy baby and i’m a monster on the hill

did you hear my covert narcissism i disguise as altruism like some kind of congressman?

i have this dream my daughter-in-law kills me for the money

she’s laughing up at us from hell!

SNOW ON THE BEACH

life is emotionally abusive

time can’t stop me quite like you did

i’m unglued, thanks to you

you wanting me tonight feels impossible

it’s fine to fake it till you make it

can this be a real thing, can it?

YOU’RE ON YOUR OWN, KID

i play it cool with the best of them

it’s okay, we’re the best of friends

i touch my phone as if it’s your face

there’s just one who could make me stay all my days

i waited ages to see you there

you’re on your own, kid; you always have been

i picked the petals, he loves me not

i called a taxi to take me there

everything you lose is a step you take

you’ve got no reason to be afraid

MIDNIGHT RAIN

i wanted that pain

all of me changed

i broke his heart ‘cause he was nice

i guess sometimes we all get just what we wanted

he never thinks of me

i guess sometimes we all get some kind of haunted

i never think of him except on midnights like this

QUESTION…?

i swear that it was something

i don’t remember who i was before you

i just may like some explanations

can i ask you a question?

did you ever have someone kiss you in a crowded room

every single one of your friends was making fun of you

then what did you do?

did you leave her house in the middle of the night?

did you wish you’d put up more of a fight

do you wish you could still touch her?

it’s just a question

i just may like to have a conversation

what’s that that i heard, that you’re still with her?

that’s nice, i’m sure that’s what’s suitable

VIGILANTE SHIT

draw the cat eye sharp enough to kill a man

you did some bad things, but i’m the worst of them

sometimes i wonder which one will be your last lie

they say looks can kill and i might try

lately i’ve been dressing for revenge

i don’t start shit, but i can tell you how it ends

don’t get sad, get even

i’m on my vigilante shit again

BEJEWELED

i think I’ve been a little too kind

putting someone first only works when you’re in their top five

i’m going out tonight

do you have a man?

familiarity breeds contempt

don’t put me in the basement when i want the penthouse of your heart

i polish up real nice

i think i’ve been too good of a girl

did all the extra credit then got graded on a curve

i think it’s time to teach some lessons

LABYRINTH

‘it only hurts this much right now,’ was what i was thinking the whole time

i’ll be getting over you my whole life

uh oh, i’m falling in love

you would break your back to make me break a smile

you know how much i hate that everybody just expects me to bounce back just like that

KARMA

you’re talking shit for the hell of it

you wouldn’t know what i mean

me and karma vibe like that

don’t you know that cash ain’t the only price?

ask me what i learned from all those years

ask me what i earned from all those tears

ask me why so many fade but i’m still here

SWEET NOTHING

they said the end is coming

everyone’s up to something

i find myself running home to your sweet nothings

all that you ever wanted from me was sweet nothing

on the way home i wrote a poem

you should be doing more

to you i can admit hat i’m just too soft for all of it

MASTERMIND

you and i ended up in the same room at the same time

what if i told you none of it was accidental

i laid the groundwork and then just like clockwork the dominoes cascaded in a line

what if i told you i’m a mastermind?

if you fail to plan, you plan to fail

no one wanted to play with me as a little kid

this is the first time i’ve felt the need to confess

i’m only cryptic and machiavellian ‘cause i care

yeah, all you did was smile

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gentleness action prompts edit/interpret sender/receiver roles as you see fit

breathe - muse a holds muse b closely to help them wind down after a stressful day/event

stop - muse a holds muse b back from walking back out into the fray

melt - muse a holds muse b’s face gently, drawing circles into their cheeks with their thumbs

acceptance - muse a kisses muse b’s forehead and lingers

redemption - muse a holds muse b’s face together and rests their forehead against them

home - muse a pulls muse b closer until muse b’s face rests in the crook of muse a’s neck

finale - muse a wraps themself around muse b to keep them from harm

classics - muse a tends to muse b’s wounds with more care than necessary

honesty - muse a wipes muse b’s tears away from under their eyes

recovery - muse a rubs muse b’s back repeatedly to help work tension out their body

anxiety - muse a intertwines their fingers with muse b’s to ground themself

repose - muse a languidly slips into muse b’s arms while muse b is lying somewhere

subtlety - muse a gently brushes their hand over folds and wrinkles on muse b’s clothing

intimacy - muse a braids/brushes/works knots out of muse b’s hair

domesticity - muse a rests chin on muse b’s shoulder to read/see what they’re holding

second-nature - muse a runs their hand through muse b’s hair who’s leaning into them from behind

casual - muse a slinks their arms around muse b’s to sit closer

wounded - muse a sways muse b and themself back and forth as a soothing mechanism

care-taking - muse a rubs muse b’s arms repeatedly to get some warm into them

excuses - muse a brushes their thumb lightly against muse b’s rub some dirt/dust/etc away

courting - muse a rests one hand on muse b’s back and holds out the other for muse b to hold to help them climb up/down something

simplicity - muse a playfully runs their finger along the bridge of muse b’s nose in one swift motion

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Edna St. Vincent Millay, from “Journey”, Collected Poems

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i would like to apologize for the lack of activity and replies!! sorry guys. my mouth has been killing me all week w the infection, i got the tooth extracted today, now i have a fever and just generally don't feel well sjdjsjdjdj so im probably going to watch something with obi-wan in it and be quiet on all fronts. hope to be back this weekend

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bellamy blake in every episode → 1x01 - Pilot

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" like any of this has been easy. " a touch of ire works its way into his tone ; maybe it's better than the prior bleakness , though that's still layered beneath. he doesn't know if he believes her ; since they'd touched the ground , there had been nothing but another enemy , another war , another crisis. but still he catches himself asking , " what's that other side look like to you? "

❝  i  didn't  peg  you  for  someone  who  gave  up  easily,  ❞  she  spoke  with  a  singular  eyebrow  raise.  ❝  the  point  is  TO  HAVE  HOPE.  hope  that  eventually  all  of  this  fighting  will  mean  something.  ❞  it  was  the  only  thing  that  kept  raven  going  -  the  possibility  of  making  it  to  the  other  side.  without  hope  what  would  they  be?  ❝  there's  another  side  to  this,  blake.  if  we  all  lose  hope,  THAT  WILL  BE  our  downfall.  not  wars.  us.  ❞

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" but i would! " it's too close to a shout , and it's probably the first time he's ever raised his voice to fox. usually , he wouldn't ; she reminds him so much of a younger octavia , before the disastrous dance and before everything had gotten so goddamn complicated. he steps closer , voice dropping slightly , because people will listen , but it isn't low enough. he's past that. " i'd blame me. alright? i don't want to be the one that decides any more of my friends have to die. "

“ You know what? Yeah. I would. ” She snaps back. It’s rare she snaps at Bellamy, and she only does it now because it’s just her and him. She’d never openly defy him in front of others. It’s important to her that the delinquents give at least the impression of a united front. Infighting and disagreements aside- they have other enemies and other challenges trying to break them apart and pick them off one by one. Its important to her to look strong to those others. 

“ And you know why? Because even if I died, I’d die doing some plan that you thought was best for our survival. We’re not all gonna survive this Bell; I’m not stupid, I know that. But from where I’m standing, you’re the only one that cares about trying to help us survive. Us like the delinquents, not the whole of the Ark. No one else cares about us and if I die doing something that allows my friends and my family to keep going, I’m not going to blame you for that. ” She takes a breath, tying to calm herself down from her vehement points. “ The only thing I’d ever blame you for is if you stop trying. If I die because you woke up one day and said ‘screw it, they’re on their own I don’t care anymore’ and I died- yeah, okay, then I’d probably hate you a little. ”

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“… you want a heart in this life, you pay for it.”

— Sylvia Plath, from “The Fifteen-Dollar Eagle,” Johnny Panic and the Bible of Dreams: and other prose writings

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(officially) please let me know when you reply or do a meme for me <3 i WAS getting notifs to my knowledge but i did see at least one reply on the dash for me that is nowhere at all in my notifs. so i'm officially not getting them!

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In the end sacrifice means nothing