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This is so cute ❤️ . . May the force be with you. . . •Tags• #rey #reyskywalker #starwars #starwarsmemes #kyloren #bensolo #jedi #anikinskywalker #darthvader #firstorder #tfa #tlj #tros #theriseofskywalker #disney #starwarsfan #reylo #finn #rose #poedameron #finnrose #finnpoe #starwarssaga #starwarsships #force #forceawakens #swfamily #starwarsday https://www.instagram.com/p/B77Y60ngHow/?igshid=n4oe46vg6tuj

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Truest of Truths. . . May the force be with you. . . •Tags• #rey #reyskywalker #starwars #starwarsmemes #kyloren #bensolo #jedi #anikinskywalker #darthvader #firstorder #tfa #tlj #tros #theriseofskywalker #disney #starwarsfan #reylo #finn #rose #poedameron #finnrose #finnpoe #starwarssaga #starwarsships #force #forceawakens #swfamily #starwarsday https://www.instagram.com/p/B7wt3migcyu/?igshid=1edx3446o95pa

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😂😂😂 . . May the force be with you. . . •Tags• #rey #reyskywalker #starwars #starwarsmemes #kyloren #bensolo #jedi #anikinskywalker #darthvader #firstorder #tfa #tlj #tros #theriseofskywalker #disney #starwarsfan #reylo #finn #rose #poedameron #finnrose #finnpoe #starwarssaga #starwarsships #force #forceawakens #swfamily #starwarsday https://www.instagram.com/p/B7tJ7Wrg4w8/?igshid=13iwrqg2bdmd3

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No comment, be whatever u want to b in life 💫 . . May the force be with you. . . •Tags• #rey #reyskywalker #starwars #starwarsmemes #kyloren #bensolo #jedi #anikinskywalker #darthvader #firstorder #tfa #tlj #tros #theriseofskywalker #disney #starwarsfan #reylo #finn #rose #poedameron #finnrose #finnpoe #starwarssaga #starwarsships #force #forceawakens #swfamily #starwarsday #porg https://www.instagram.com/p/B7rBXDXgt0k/?igshid=128cholkclpm9

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Hahaha can you see it? . . May the force be with you. . . •Tags• #rey #reyskywalker #starwars #starwarsmemes #kyloren #bensolo #jedi #anikinskywalker #darthvader #firstorder #tfa #tlj #tros #theriseofskywalker #disney #starwarsfan #reylo #finn #rose #poedameron #finnrose #finnpoe #starwarssaga #starwarsships #force #forceawakens #swfamily #starwarsday https://www.instagram.com/p/B7pPyuhAoo2/?igshid=1qupmalr7ue38

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This photo shouts adventure!! . . May the Force be with you. . . •Tags• #rey #reyskywalker #starwars #starwarsmemes #kyloren #bensolo #jedi #anikinskywalker #darthvader #firstorder #tfa #tlj #tros #theriseofskywalker #disney #starwarsfan #reylo #finn #rose #poedameron #finnrose #finnpoe #starwarssaga #starwarsships #force #forceawakens #swfamily #starwarsday #daisyridley https://www.instagram.com/p/B7hrpm8AY3Y/?igshid=q2iowz1v38t3

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Sometimes I forget ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ . . May the force be with you. . . •Tags• #rey #reyskywalker #starwars #starwarsmemes #kyloren #bensolo #jedi #anikinskywalker #darthvader #firstorder #tfa #tlj #tros #theriseofskywalker #disney #starwarsfan #reylo #finn #rose #poedameron #finnrose #finnpoe #starwarssaga #starwarsships #force #forceawakens #swfamily #starwarsday #timeline https://www.instagram.com/p/B7gVj1AAFzL/?igshid=1hk5wm4wr5v2e

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This is powerful . . May the force be with you. . . •Tags• #rey #reyskywalker #starwars #starwarsmemes #kyloren #bensolo #jedi #anikinskywalker #darthvader #firstorder #tfa #tlj #tros #theriseofskywalker #disney #starwarsfan #reylo #finn #rose #poedameron #finnrose #finnpoe #starwarssaga #starwarsships #force #forceawakens #swfamily #starwarsday #darkside https://www.instagram.com/p/B7fEp-MAf_W/?igshid=10xm3t3657nvg

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Another nice wallpaper! I love the Reylo fighting scenes ❤️💙 . . May the force be with you. . . •Tags• #rey #reyskywalker #starwars #starwarsmemes #kyloren #bensolo #jedi #anikinskywalker #darthvader #firstorder #tfa #tlj #tros #theriseofskywalker #disney #starwarsfan #reylo #finn #rose #poedameron #finnrose #finnpoe #starwarssaga #starwarsships #force #forceawakens #swfamily #starwarsday https://www.instagram.com/p/B7bNWXyHfst/?igshid=5o4hzkwmohw7

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Ahhhh who else wants these?? . . Let the force be with you. . . •tags• #rey #reyskywalker #starwars #starwarsmemes #kyloren #bensolo #jedi #anikinskywalker #darthvader #firstorder #tfa #tlj #tros #theriseofskywalker #disney #starwarsfan #reylo #finn #rose #poedameron #finnrose #finnpoe #starwarssaga #starwarsships #force #forceawakens #swfamily #starwarsday https://www.instagram.com/p/B7ZmBRbHCab/?igshid=19ekzx7jppe3f

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Adam breaking on SNL is the material that will sustain me for a lifetime, and that last tiny laugh 🥺

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A monologue I wrote a while ago that probably never going to published as part of anything

At some point in the future you will meet whatever deity saw fit to let you exist in this universe. When that time comes, you will have to justify your existence. You will be judged not by the content of your heart, but by your actions, both against others, and yourself.

How do you justify your actions to yourself?

The time you “accidentally” pushed down your grade school rival. The lies you told your parents. The lies you told your friends. The lies you told yourself.

When did you first look in the mirror, and realize you don’t recognize the person staring back at you? At what point did you realize that you don’t know your own body? That what everyone else thinks of you defines your self worth.

When did you stop dreaming of the future? Actually, when did you stop believing you had a future? When did you realize the world you were being given was broken? That you were being handed a trash can fire and told it was gold. When did you realize that your future has been stolen by the very same people who told you you had one. Or, perhaps you haven’t.

When did you let go of your dreams to change the world? Where did you stop fighting to fix the broken world you had been handed? At what point did you start to believe that the bandaid you placed on a bullet hole was enough?

How did you justify your hatred of those who are different that you? Or did you convince yourself that their difference was enough of a reason. That your hatred was their fault. That it’s not your fault that you hate them. That it is never your fault.

Or perhaps you convinced yourself that it wasn’t hatred. Perhaps you convinced yourself that the world wasn’t your to fix; that your dreams weren’t worth it; that the eyes of everyone else where better judges than your own. Perhaps you convinced yourself you weren’t lying, you were just confused at the time. And you continue to lie to yourself.

One day you will meet the deity that saw fit to let you exist in this universe. When that day comes you will have to look them in the eyes and justify your actions. The question isn’t whether you will have to, but whether your justification will be enough; whether they will accept your explanation. One day you will have to plead you case to a uncaring judge. What will you do then?

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Reylos after The Rise of Skywalker:

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And that's how I fixed the end

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I'm sorry you guys.

Blame Helena by My Chemical Romance

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-”Alright! Perfect! That's a wrap. You all did absolutely wonderful and I enjoyed working with you for this drama.” The director announced.

-"But, as you know we still have many things to prepare for it before this gets broadcasted. As of now we have three months for our editing team to put everything together. For our main actors and actresses you will have a short break before interviews start rolling in. Have a wonderful week everyone! You are dismissed!"

-She claps and everyone starts gathering your things to clean up the set.

-"Ah, Taehyung, y/n, may I speak with you?" The director pulled us to the side.

-"We have three months until broadcast, so we asked if you not signed contracts for any other company until the three months are up."

-"Okay, that's fine. I was planning on taking a break anyways. This season was tough." Y/n says slumping her shoulders.

-"Yeah, I think I'll take a small brakes for the time being, it's only three months." I shrugged glancing at y/n.

-"Okay good, then I'll see you then, call me if you need anything!"

-"Okay." We said simultaneously.

-The director wandered off to help everyone else, leaving me y/n behind.

-"So, when are you leaving?" I asked her, I have something important to ask her today.

-She smiles, "Not for about an hour. I'm going to miss it here." There are some good memories in these walls.

-"Me too, this was my second set, so it does mean a lot to me." She nodded looking around with distance in her eyes.

-"Well I'm going to pack up. Talk to you later. Be safe on your break." She smiled her beautiful smile that can brighten even the sun.

-"You too, I mean it, be safe." I confirmed as she walks away to her dressing room.

-I stand there for a minute calculating I should have just enough time.

I had to my room and gather my stuff up that I moved last night.

-After about 20 minutes I grabbed the only thing left in the room, a bouquet of breathtaking fresh red roses.

-They're so perfect she won't be able to refuse! I went through five floral shops just to find the best flowers, and here they are.

-I walked out of my dressing room for the last time. These times are sad, saying goodbye to everyone you've worked with for over a year.

-But they are also happy times, to look forward to new adventures in the future on other sets.

-I'm near y/n's room, but I hear a voice, male for sure. It sounds familiar.

-I peek inside, of course! It's Yeo Jingoo. He is the other main male role besides I.

-So, of course it would make sense for them to be talking, right?

-I stand outside, what should I do? Wait?

-I look inside again and notice a lily in her hand, a few minutes go by as they talk and laugh. Her smile is brighter than ever.

-She hands the lily to Jingoo. He scoops her up in a big hug.

-I stand there horrified I feel my heart shatter at that very moment.

-My bouquet of roses falls to the floor as I rush out of the set, my eyes swelling with tears.

-I'm just overthinking that's all. They are just friends I hug my friends and co-workers all the time. We're all a close family.

-I said outside on a bench collecting my thoughts. I can't just leave without saying anything, I regret it forever

-I stand up deciding I have to do it, I have to tell y/n.

-Marching back inside with a newfound confidence I think to myself, good or bad, I'm telling her.

-She is standing just outside her room looking over scripts. As I walk up to her she smiles distracting my overthinking mind.

-"Hey, what's up Tae?"

-I look straight into her eyes, "I have something to tell you."

-Her smile turn to a serious expression, "I'm listening?"

-"I-I've been working with you for a while now." Memories race through my head of all the times we had on set, and even off set. We've gone out to lunch and dinner countless times, we've laughed at each other stage mistakes. So many things…

-"I don't regret any of the time I spent with you. I had so much fun, I've come to realize that I was truly happy, and you seemed the same."

-She nods slowly seeming to know where I am going with this, "I just wanted you to know I'm here for you," I pause for a few moments summing up my courage, "I like you, y/n, I like you a lot, to the point where I am so happy just seeing you.

-She clenches her jaw at my words, her eyes are difficult to read.

-"Listen Taehyung, I like you, but don't get me wrong. you're a cool and seriously funny guy, but I don't think I can return your feelings you have for me." she looks away.

-"I understand," I lower my head to stare at the floor in complete anguish.

-"Uh well… I'm sorry, but I have to go…" she shoots me for smile. As I look back up at her.

-She waves awkwardly and sprint's off to another group of actors and actresses. I stand there in silence, I got what I wanted didn't I? Closure.

-I stumbled out to my dark car that stood out in the parking garage of the huge filming studio.

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-I kicked the leaves as I walked up to my door and unlocked it with a free hand. I dropped off the contracts that I can't even sign, on my desk.

-I stare at them for a minute with my mind retracing my steps. So that's how it feels to be rejected by someone you secretly loved so much.

-She doesn't realize I would do anything on this Earth for her.

-A tear streaks on my face,"Why, y/n?" I croaked, "Why…" I fell to my knees as tears gush from my eyes like a serene waterfall during a flood.

-I cry until I can't anymore and everything hurts. I drift off in the end exhausted sleep with swollen eyes.

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-I sit by the cafe window watching the snowfall in Christmas lights twinkle as the local news plays softly in the background.

-I scroll through my phone with nothing particular my mind.

-I finally signed a new contract for a Christmas drama being the lead male role. Something to look forward to, starting it at least.

-The TV flicked to the latest celebrity news, the reporter smiled, "Y/n just announced that she will be taking a short break for the holidays before starting back up again on a new schedule and drama that is yet to be released.

-She also announced that she and the popular actor Yeo Jingoo are in a relationship. That's so sweet considering they were both in…" My mind trails off.

-Of course they were dating. The signs were all there, I was just in denial. Our poor hearts. Aren't the pitiful, haha.

-I gently smile while starting my coffee, she seems happy, her smile is as bright as the snow.

-As long as she's happy, I am at peace, because that's all I ever wanted for y/n, to live her best life and smile with her heart.