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Ok so I don't really know what this is, it spilled out of me and had to go somewhere. It's like a weird, SPNPG thing about anger and whatever else, I don't know

Anyway, this needed to go somewhere and I hate using Wattpad now, so...

It's not really good to see parts of yourself in the kids you look out for, you know? You're their guardian something (angel, demon, hybrid in Louis' case because he's special) and you see them be angry the same way you were, how they don't like being angry but feel it nearly all the fucking time.

Two of them don't have the best relationship with their fathers, what with one being dead and the other being a general shitbag who would be better off dead and continues to unfortunately stick around despite multiple efforts from multiple people to terminate his life.

But it scares you because when you were angry, it would lead to violence and that led to an early grave. You know that if they end up going down that same road, any one of them, it would kill you all over again. It's bad enough you still feel guilty over your own death, I can't imagine when it'll be one of theirs, especially if it's before their time.

You can't control death, much like how you couldn't control yourself, your brain and your mouth when they decided to be angry, snap back at the people shouting at you for no goddamn reason. If you yell back, that's wrong and you're a terrible person, but why is it okay for them to yell at you in the first place?

You didn't do anything wrong but you are lumped in with the other so-called bad guys when they're mad, or you're the bad guy for rightfully getting the hell away from people like that because now you're ruining someone else's life. And they say it's okay and they don't mean it but if they didn't mean it, why say it in the first place?

The worst part is that it just. Keeps. Repeating. They have a bad day, take it out on you and you have to take it, feel your fucking anger and swallow it down, find a way to let it out that doesn't involve talking to someone, dragging people into your issues, remember last time when they laughed at you? How angry you were then, how much you wanted to break things or maybe even hurt someone?

And you wouldn't do either, you know that, but don't you feel horrible anyway? Don't you feel selfish and evil, like the very people who tormented you for your entire life? The very people you do not want to be like at all and yet are very much alike? It hurts, doesn't it, watching them go through the same thing and being unable to stop it?

That anger will stay with you forever, I'm afraid. It will burn in your heart and always rear its ugly head whenever you have a bad enough day, but you can live with it even if you cannot technically live anymore, and they will live with it too.

And it will not kill them, they won't let it and neither will you.

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Tw for suicidal themes (a smidge tho, like heavy but not)

Sometimes I write stuff and don't even realise what exactly I've written until someone reacts to it. Like I'm doing a Gravity Falls thing rn and (ok with and w/o context it's bad anyway) Dipper basically told Mabel to throw herself off the water tower at the end of the latest chapter and someone who's been following the story talked about it in the comments and I was like 'omg did I actually write that' like it wasn't posted like twenty minutes before

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I got hyperfixated on SpongeBob but it's escalated to fanfic status and writing an AU inspired by comics that have technically been deleted but I'm doing it anyway

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NP SMP

Kylie and Craig’s friendship isn’t one people expected to last.

They thought Craig took Kylie in because he felt like he should keep her safe, they probably expected him to no longer really care about her once she finally “sucked it up and came back” as they put it, which he proved wrong.

They also thought that Kylie would take all the attention she would get and then leave, which she proved wrong.

Through the course of six years, Kylie and Craig’s friendship only gets stronger.

The two consider each other siblings, platonic soulmates even, nothing less.

When you add in Craig’s old friend Clyde and the duo becomes a trio, it just becomes even better.

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Character playlists are so fun once you actually figure out what songs match your character good lord

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Expanding on this:

South Park’s citizens have only aged 2 years in 26 years, everything else around them changes but they stay the exact same age except for those 2 years, until the day the North Park Girls arrived.

Four seemingly random ten year old girls who would be the ones to solve this age issue and have everyone age as they should.

Since the girls don’t have much drama in their friend group (until their teenage years, specifically 17) it helps to balance out the main four boys and their usual every day drama, so people in town finally get out of this weird loop of never aging.

The big dramas the girls face at 17 briefly halt things, but once everything is resolved it just feels like it had been a very long year.

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It’s always an issue when I want to write more Henrietta x Kyle stuff but then I’m like ‘I changed her character WAY too much in this smh’ but at the same time, there wasn’t ANYTHING on these two until I came along, at least not on AO3 from what I saw

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I like writing short stories for SPNPG but I do it like episodes of South Park where some crazy, friendship ruining thing could happen but at the end of the day everything’s fine.

Like I’m not gonna publish any of these (yet) but I did one with a pretty bad car accident (not really an accident but whatever) and like, a lot of friendships and lives got ruined.

Immediately after that I wrote a much more lighthearted story lmao

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SPNPG Explained

SPNPG stands for South Park North Park Girls.

It’s a South Park AU with eight OCs of mine (some dead, some living, some with the Cthulu curse) all being involved with this quiet little mountain town.

My previous stories posted here for archive purposes (The Core Four) contain the first four OCs created before I got into South Park: Brooke (originally called River but then I took that name for myself), Paris, Briar and Phoenix.

These four are all dead, two of them (Brooke and Paris) are angels in Heaven while the other two (Briar and Phoenix) are demons in Hell.

The four are all assigned to look out for a certain child and all end up with one of the main four South Park boys (Brooke has Kyle, Paris has Stan, Briar has Cartman and Phoenix has Kenny).

When the NPGs come to town (Kylie, Stacy, Erica and Kendra) the angels and demons are tasked to look out for another child, since these four girls are somewhat related to each of the guys (Kylie: Kyle’s twin sister, Stacy: Stan’s cousin, Erica: Eric’s twin sister, Kendra: Kenny’s cousin).

The girls will be around for a while, and that’s when chaos really starts to be stirred up.

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So the reason I aged the girls up for the AU is mostly because I was doing this whole angsty teen thing and also because I couldn’t see a ten year old cannibal (hi, Erica) even in South Park lol

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Writing Advice: it doesn’t matter if an idea has been done before. It’s never been done by you. So long as you do it well, and in your own way, it’s a wonderful contribution.

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I'll keep you so safe. I'll never let you go. I wanted you so long, missed you forever. You're mine now and you don't have to be afraid or hurt ever again.

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i hope you know that the day you leave me is the day i leave this world

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The Core Four: Afterlife Edition - Chapter 30 (FINAL): Goodbye

It was time to go. Not for long, never for long, just for a while.

River and Paris flew back up on the light to Heaven.

Briar and Phoenix jumped right back down the hole to Hell.

No one had seemed to notice two angels and two demons sneaking off and hanging out for a very long period of time.

It wouldn’t be the last visit, they would make sure of it.

How can it be possible to not be able to live without someone when you aren’t even alive anymore?

The four of them: miserable in life, finally living it in death, unable to be without at least 1 other with them at all times.

They were weird, their group dynamic was weird, but they loved it that way.

It started with River and Paris.

Then Briar and Phoenix.

It ends with four (4).

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The Core Four: Afterlife Edition - Chapter 29: Changes

“Has death changed for better or worse after we all reunited?” River asked.

“Better,” Briar and Phoenix instantly replied.

“Both. I’m stuck with a demon in a good and horrible way now,” Paris said.

Phoenix laughed. “Aw, I’m so hurt by that! You know I’m one of your only friends, you can’t afford to lose me. Since you and Bri are now dating, you are officially down a friend and up a partner in the romantic sense.”

“I think I could afford to lose Briar as a friend,” River piped up. “They’re just hugely annoying and the biggest flirt here.”

“I take those as compliments, so thank you very much my dear friend!” Briar grinned.

River and Paris both rolled their eyes but were smiling.

“Maybe it’s a good thing Briar and I never made it to Heaven, we’d be horrible angels distracting our partners all the time,” Phoenix grinned.

“Forbidden romances and angels dating demons? Sounds just as crazy as us,” River quipped.

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The Core Four: Afterlife Edition - Chapter 28: The Meaning Of Life

“What is the meaning of life?” River asked.

“To be the children of whoever wanted you,” Paris replied instantly.

“And if they didn’t, to be mistakes on this earth,” Briar chimed in.

“Otherwise you just exist for however long you have to until you make the decision to die or it’s decided for you,” Phoenix finished.

River clapped their hands, sarcastically slow. “Horribly done, everyone.”

Briar and Phoenix both took a bow, wearing shit-eating grins.

Paris rolled their eyes at the demon’s antics, but was smiling too big to even look a little bit annoyed.

“Awe, you’re all the greatest people I’m ever gonna need in the afterlife,” Briar commented.

“I gotta agree, death is way more fun with the three of you,” Phoenix shrugged.

“Briar, you’re annoying. But I guess in a good way,” River sighed.

“Phoenix, you will always be annoying to me,” Paris deadpanned, causing Briar to break out in fits of laughter.