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Trying on make-up together~

Mike has always admired make-up from afar, he's begged Nancy to let him watch when she does it, practiced how to help his mom with it, and so on. Ted has never liked that about him, Mike never understood why and kept admiring it, until bullies had seen him staring at a girl in the hall putting on lipgloss.

Since then, he had kept to himself and admired silently. He felt so happy when he got to dress up El & do her make-up and hair, he always wanted to do it too, but he was happy to put the way he wanted to look onto the girl he had a crush on.

He'd admire El put on make-up after he taught her, El had caught on that he wasn't admiring because she was pretty. It was one of the reasons yeahc but the real reason was because he wanted to test it. He wanted to wear make-up and look pretty.

El signaled for him to sit down near bed, grabbed a blender and started putting foundation on him without warning. He jumped back, asked what she was doing, and she informed him she was doing his make-up because it was obvious he wanted to.

Mike smiled a bit and let her continue. El put him on make-up, dressed him up in a cute outfit and added some accessories on him.

When he looked in the mirror, he couldn't help but cry a bit. He hugged el tight, thanked her 50 times and kissed her cheeks because he didn't wanna get lipstick on her lips. He was happy, he was finally slowly becoming himself.

Thanks to the help of El and how supportive she is.

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Two years of hiding and lying, two years of having to put distance between him and the person he told everything to, his best friend, his first friend... two years spent pushing away someone because you're terrified of losing them forever if they get too close and see the truth about you

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Religious Trauma

TW ? for religion, religious trauma, homophobia, forcing religion + potential SH warning

Robin was never into religion practice or believing in any higher beings up in the sky or below the earth. She never thought it was worth her time, or that she needed to. Yeah, she respected other's religion, but she never wanted to be religious herself.

But, she came from a religious family. Her mother was christian, her father was atheist, this caused frequent arguments about religion and practices about it. Robin was often brought into these discussions by her mother, who tried forcing the idea of christianity and god on her. She'd avoid the conflict, sometimes she'd walk away or she'd leave the house before she got dragged into it.

Her mother was homophobic because of her religion, she thought it was sinful and always preached the bible & scriptures that represented "Homosexuality." Yeah sure, Robin believed in none of that, but it got in her head. She'd constantly overthink, "Am I a sinful creature?" "Am I wrong for looking at girls in certain ways?" "No, no... I'm not a homosexual."

She grew up always assuming homosexuality was normal, as sure it wasn't a discussed topic, but she never saw homophobia. That was until Robin's mother would talk about it once she turned 12, since Robin was supposedly reaching the ages of "finding herself."

Preaching scriptures, reminders that it's wrong to like women as a woman, telling her to never get in that crowd of people. So when Robin would look at women and smile a bit, she'd feel disgusted. She couldn't help it, she hated that she couldn't help it. She no longer felt normal about looking at girls that way, and it hurt her. She wanted to feel normal, not like a freak.

She would come home from school, drop her bags by the door, and run up to her room. She'd jump on her bed and curl up, crying in her knees as her arms wrapped around them. She'd swing back & forth, feeling like she wasn't... normal. Like she was a sinner, a freak, a weird creature, a disgusting pervert, and so much more. She'd get on her knees and pray to anything that could've been up there.

But she didn't believe in anything? She was never religious? She never practiced religion, she never prayed, she never believed in any beings up or below, so why? Why is she praying, begging for forgiveness from something that doesn't exist?

Because of her mother. Her mother convinced her homosexuality was wrong, that it was a sin to love someone. She let her get in her head and it messed with her.

She would degrade herself when she'd look at a girl, pray every night for forgiveness or change in herself. She hurt herself for sinning, to help god harm her for homosexuality. She cried for weeks, months even. She felt weird, she hated herself a lot.

Even still today, she doesn't fully accept herself. Parts of her still scream "Sinner!" "Freak!" "Queer!" and degradation for being a lesbian, but she tries to repress it. She tries to love herself, to accept herself, to encourage kids it's okay, even if somebody says it's not.

She distanced from christianity, fearful of christians. she never befriended christians because she assumed they'd try to "convert" her to christianity & heterosexuality, just like her mother did.

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should i continue?

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Religious Trauma

TW ? for religion, religious trauma, homophobia, forcing religion + potential SH warning

Robin was never into religion practice or believing in any higher beings up in the sky or below the earth. She never thought it was worth her time, or that she needed to. Yeah, she respected other's religion, but she never wanted to be religious herself.

But, she came from a religious family. Her mother was christian, her father was atheist, this caused frequent arguments about religion and practices about it. Robin was often brought into these discussions by her mother, who tried forcing the idea of christianity and god on her. She'd avoid the conflict, sometimes she'd walk away or she'd leave the house before she got dragged into it.

Her mother was homophobic because of her religion, she thought it was sinful and always preached the bible & scriptures that represented "Homosexuality." Yeah sure, Robin believed in none of that, but it got in her head. She'd constantly overthink, "Am I a sinful creature?" "Am I wrong for looking at girls in certain ways?" "No, no... I'm not a homosexual."

She grew up always assuming homosexuality was normal, as sure it wasn't a discussed topic, but she never saw homophobia. That was until Robin's mother would talk about it once she turned 12, since Robin was supposedly reaching the ages of "finding herself."

Preaching scriptures, reminders that it's wrong to like women as a woman, telling her to never get in that crowd of people. So when Robin would look at women and smile a bit, she'd feel disgusted. She couldn't help it, she hated that she couldn't help it. She no longer felt normal about looking at girls that way, and it hurt her. She wanted to feel normal, not like a freak.

She would come home from school, drop her bags by the door, and run up to her room. She'd jump on her bed and curl up, crying in her knees as her arms wrapped around them. She'd swing back & forth, feeling like she wasn't... normal. Like she was a sinner, a freak, a weird creature, a disgusting pervert, and so much more. She'd get on her knees and pray to anything that could've been up there.

But she didn't believe in anything? She was never religious? She never practiced religion, she never prayed, she never believed in any beings up or below, so why? Why is she praying, begging for forgiveness from something that doesn't exist?

Because of her mother. Her mother convinced her homosexuality was wrong, that it was a sin to love someone. She let her get in her head and it messed with her.

She would degrade herself when she'd look at a girl, pray every night for forgiveness or change in herself. She hurt herself for sinning, to help god harm her for homosexuality. She cried for weeks, months even. She felt weird, she hated herself a lot.

Even still today, she doesn't fully accept herself. Parts of her still scream "Sinner!" "Freak!" "Queer!" and degradation for being a lesbian, but she tries to repress it. She tries to love herself, to accept herself, to encourage kids it's okay, even if somebody says it's not.

She distanced from christianity, fearful of christians. she never befriended christians because she assumed they'd try to "convert" her to christianity & heterosexuality, just like her mother did.

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should i continue?

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Happy black history month to the siblings ever

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they are besties idc

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Ronance !

Nancy loses something of hers and ends up tearing the house down looking for it, practically begging god to just give it back to her already and let her find it (even though she's not even religious). Robin sees her throwing pillows around and asks her what the hell she's doing, in which Nancy's response is "I'M LOOKING FOR SOMETHING !!".

Robin asks her what she's looking for exactly and Nancy just ignores her, desperate ripping off the couch cushions yet again to try and find it. Robin goes around, trying to help Nancy look for it and finds it almost immediately.

"Is this what you were looking for ... ?" Robin asks, dangling the thing in front of Nancy's face. Nancy sighs in relief, takes the thing out of Rob's hands and hugs her tightly while thanking her several times.