rosepoints

[rosepoints]

crazy how people just run for sport

[rosepoints]

ouro preto, minas gerais, brasil: women during traditional semana santa (holy week) festivities on april 5, 2015. photography by mario tama.

[rosepoints]

your humorous post has delighted me. i will now absorb it into my dark crystal

[rosepoints]

patient: (throws water cup at me)

me: hm... what if... what if i throw it back...

[rosepoints]

this is what it means to be human

Everything, Mary Oliver

The Breathing, Denise Levertov

A Prayer by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

The Laughing Heart by Charles Bukowski

Like a Small Café, That’s Love by Mahmoud Darwish (translated by Mohammad Shaheen)

Having a Coke with You by Frank O’Hara

Eating Together by Li-Young Lee

The Orange by Wendy Cope

The Quiet Machine, Ada Limón

To Go Mad, Paruyr Sevak

Our Beautiful Life When It’s Filled with Shrieks by Christopher Citro

Hammond B3 Organ Cistern, Gabrielle Calvocoressi

Peace XVIII, Khalil Gibran

Your Unripe Love, Paruyr Sevak (from “Anthology of Armenian poetry")

Here and Now by Peter Balakian

Ich finde dich (I find you) by Rainer Maria Rilke

The Thing Is by Ellen Bass

One Art by Elizabeth Bishop

Miss you. Would like to take a walk with you. by Gabrielle Calvocoressi

I Want to Write Something So Simply by Mary Oliver

What's Not to Love by Brendan Constantine

Where does such tenderness come from? by Marina Tsvetaeva

You Are Tired (I Think) by E. E. Cummings

Living With the News by W.S.Merwin

What the Living Do by Marie Howe

[rosepoints]

'dying swan - natalia marakova' in max waldman on dance: photographs (1988)

[rosepoints]

anyways now that i've done my obligatory love and light for the day, i just want to say that school is making me tear my motherfucking hair out

[rosepoints]

april favorites

tulips: i bought a bouquet of white tulips as a personal treat for passing my cardiovascular final, and as the days passed, i watched the white burst into pink as they unfurled from their tight buds. i've never been able to recreate that same joy, even with other tulips. i think about them often.

grapefruit miso glazed salmon: 60 g miso, 30 g honey, the zest and juice of 1 grapefruit, minced garlic and ginger, a grind of salt and pepper. let it macerate with the salmon overnight and then grill in an air fryer at 400 F for 10-15 minutes. i've tried baking a larger batch in the oven, but i find that my oven just doesn't get as hot to broil the top of the salmon in a truly satisfying way.

glossier you fleur: the burst of apricot that melts into osmanthus, a lingering trace of salt, the subtle sweetness of the ambroxan, all settling into your skin. a hazy yet beautiful memory of scent.

calling friends to ask them about their day: listening to my friends talk is truly such a treasure. i don't even talk about the relationship; i just listen to them chatter away about their lives, and the mundane details have been utterly healing to me. i had some brutal clinic days in april, and the details of someone else's meal, the music they've been listening to, the work meetings they've had, that's been keeping me going.

letting go: i'm the type of person to cling onto everything viciously. my therapist calls it anxious attachment. i got dumped in april and when it ended, i didn't ask why, i didn't ask them to stay, i just said, "thank you for letting me know" and opened the door for them to leave. i don't let myself talk about them for more than 5 minutes at a time. i just let go. it's been an oddly relieving change of pace.

"give up baby go" by peach pit: this was from a playlist that a friend made, and it struck me. one of the lyrics i liked the most was "waking up monday only to realize that your saturday self ain't one you like, but i get by, don't you know?"

[rosepoints]

chainmail clown collar by DollyCliqueShop

[rosepoints]

[rosepoints]

Bruno Barbey. Thailand. Bangkok. Marketing along Sukhumvit Road, selling orchids. 1994.

[rosepoints]

please don’t spend your life convincing yourself that love or joy is reserved for the idealized version of you that only exists in the future

[rosepoints]

kinda want him gagging on it (his own blood)

[rosepoints]

btw i figured it all out and life is about laughing with your friends & listening to your fave songs. you’re welcome

[rosepoints]

[rosepoints]

Seo, how do u get over the extreme guilt of procrastination and sending in assignments late aside from apologizing to your prof and trying to be a better student?

perhaps this is a controversial take, but after hitting rock bottom and consistently crashing out every week in medical school, i've realized that you cannot shame yourself into becoming a better student. you need to meet yourself where you are. be compassionate with yourself and figure out what you need. identify where it is that you're losing track of things. shame festers. your self-guilt will hinder you. rebuild your trust in yourself, forgive yourself for the mistakes you made today, and keep moving forward.

[rosepoints]

tenderness