rosf1eld

[rosf1eld]

Forevermore

kazuhira miller x reader

summary: Kazuhira Miller, your lover, comforts you on your period..

fluff

a/n: started my period today so ofc i’m writing something to make me feel better … anyway eid mubarak !!

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A weary, stressed sigh escaped his lips as he tapped his pen anxiously to his desk. It was almost 4:00 pm and still no sign of you around Motherbase. The sounds of the soldier’s shoes hitting the ground mixed with the sound of waves crashing filled the office. The blonde had been anxiously awaiting you to exit your quarters; he knew you weren’t feeling well, which is why you took the day off from missions, but it wasn’t like you to stay in for so long, even if you were sick.

This only heightened his worry; all he could think about was if you needed help, you were the only thing on his mind. He acknowledged you were probably- no, most definitely in a bad mood, being as you weren’t feeling well and were cooped up in your room all day. He could only think of one thing to try and help you, something he was good at. So Kazuhira, being the man he is, got up and did what he did best, for you, the woman of his dreams, the one he could never let go of.

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You groaned. You were curled up in bed with an arm holding your stomach, hoping for the pain to subside. Today was SHIT, at least for you.

Waking up as you usually did next to Kazuhira, a smile on your lips as you peppered kisses all over him, which caused him to stir. The morning was beautiful. Doing Kaz’s tie, buttoning up his shirt, and putting on his cute aviators. Oh, you so loved dressing him in the mornings. You knew he would never admit to needing help, but you helped anyway. You were showering him with kisses as you both got ready for the day.

As soon as Kazuhira was dressed and off to his office, yet another day of guiding Snake and you through your missions. Well, that’s what you assumed, but as you finished getting ready, a sharp pang went through your lower abdomen, causing you to hunch over and hold your stomach in pain. Lo and behold, the moment you go to the bathroom, it’s a bloody mess. Your period started, and now the day was automatically ruined.

You had shot Kazuhira a few simple words through comms, saying you wouldn’t be able to make the missions today. He heard in your voice the evident discomfort. He asked if he should return, but you quickly replied with a no before disconnecting from comms.

Now it was around 4:30 pm. You were curled up in bed, arms pressed tightly against your abdomen as your eyes were shut, hoping for the cramps to come to an end. The cramps were genuinely overwhelming, you felt like crap and that’s when you heard a knock, to which you groaned. You wanted to be left alone, not in any mood to speak or interact with anyone.

“What?” you grumbled.

“Sorry…y/n it’s me.” The familiar voice spoke, of course you recognized it immediately. It was the voice that soothed you, the only voice that soothed you.

You groaned sitting up in bed, shifting to plant your feet on the floor to go towards the door, but suddenly you became aware of your state. You didn’t want him to see you like this, all curled up in pain, weak. You felt pathetic and probably looked it, too, with your messy hair and tired appearance.

“shit.” You cursed under your breath.

“I can come another time. I didn’t mean to bother you,” he spoke again, almost a sheepish tone.

You didn’t want him to see you in this state, but you were tired and in pain, and all you wanted was him.

“No!” you suddenly called out, “I’m.. I'm coming, kaz.” Your tone became softer as you stood up, making your way to the door of your shared quarters with slow steps, finally opening it.

His eyes met yours, though aviators covered them; you could tell he was worried. The slight change in his body language confirmed it, the way he slightly tensed up when noticing your weariness.

“Kazuhira …” you breathed, you were exhausted. Your weariness was not lost on him. Even if these days he had a harder time showing a soft, vulnerable side, he’d still try for you.

Suddenly, he held up a box, a tiny one like one you’d hold food in. “I know you’re not feeling well…I made you something.” He spoke, his tone becoming softer, as an attempt at comfort. You sighed, your lips curling into a small smile. Anything he did cheered you up, actually, he didn’t even have to do anything, and you’d still feel alright.

The tired smile was plastered on your lips as your gaze stayed on him. The way he looked holding up the box, his almost sheepish expression as if he was attempting to keep his tough look but caving in your presence, it was all too cute, your heart felt like it could burst.

You opened the door wider, indicating you wanted him to come in. “Stay with me for a while?” Your question caught him a bit off guard; he was frozen for a moment but quickly recovered, nodding and leaning on his walker as he made his way into your shared room. He held the box in his one hand and stopped in the middle of the room, his eyes still on you.

Even after all this time of being lovers, he still got flustered around you; the effect you had on him could never die. You shut and locked the door, facing towards him and motioning to the box. “So you made something?” you asked, though you could tell what it was; the smell and box told you enough. He nodded and held it out to you, “Didn’t know if you ate yet…since you’ve been in here all day.” He expressed, his voice not demeaning but worried.

You took it from him. Your fingers gently grazed his calloused ones as you did. You opened the box to see one of his famous burgers, your smile widened slightly, a warm smile. “Thank you, Kaz, you’re so sweet..” your affectionate voice spoke as you moved to sit on the bed, motioning for him to come sit next to you. The blonde’s cheeks tinted with pink the moment you called him sweet, he looked down to hide it as he went over to the bed. Setting his walker to lean against the wall, he sat on your shared bed next to you, and when he did, you leaned your head on his shoulder, shutting your eyes and sighing.

“Y/n, are you feeling alright?” his worrisome tone questioned you. “…It’s just my period; it hurts,” you complained, shifting closer to him, “but I do feel better with you here.” Your lips curled into a small smile when you spoke, glancing up at him before resting your head back on his shoulder. He leaned closer to you, his good arm wrapping around you and pulling you closer.

There was a moment of comfortable silence; you almost forgot about your cramps before the ache of your stomach reminded you. A low groan left you and the man moved his arm sliding it between the two of you so he could grab the burger box, opening it and holding it in his hand.

“Here, open up,” he instructed, as he lifted the burger to your lips. Surprised but pleased you opened your mouth, letting him feed you.

You took a bite, savoring it in your mouth as you chewed. He always was such an amazing cook, but this time it was especially tasty. The moment was so sweet, he fed you a burger he carefully cooked for you, one he hoped would make you feel better. Knowing how much care he had for you, your heart fluttered. How perfect could this man be??

He fed you until the burger finished, occasionally wiping your lips or chin with his thumb. He reached over to place the empty box on your bedside table, handing you a glass of water to wash the food down. The cool water soothed your throat and the heat you felt from your period. You handed the water back to him so he could put it back, which he did. He always listened to you; for someone so tough and commanding, he was utterly devoted to you.

Your cramps still hurt like hell, and oh, he could see the discomfort in your expression. “Did you need anything? I could call someone to get-” you cut him off, “you kaz… just you please.” Of course, he went silent. He had expected you to ask for some pain medication, but you asked for … him?

The previous light tint on his cheeks had darkened. God, you were so cute to him, the way you only wanted him made his heart skip a beat. He would give you anything you wanted, knowing you only wanted him made his mind and heart go wild, he truly loved you more than anything.

He pulled off his aviators and placed them to the side, moving down so he was lying on the bed. His arm wrapped around you once again, pulling you closer, practically on him. You wrapped your arms around him and tangled your legs with his, fully cuddling him. You were positioned as if you were using him as a big teddy bear.

He placed soft kisses on your temple, his hand leaving warm, soothing caresses on your back. You could swear his presence alone helped the pain go away, but this? These soft, affectionate touches and kisses soothed you more than anything. They soothed your body but also your soul. You felt at peace, this man was your peace.

He had always assumed he was such an angry broken man, as if his name meaning peace didn’t fit him, but you wholeheartedly believed the exact opposite.

“Thank you, Kaz.” You mumbled, burying your face into his chest. A small smile formed on his lips as he peppered you with kisses, “I’m with you always.” his soft tone affirmed between kisses. “I love you handsome,” you mumbled against his chest, a kiss of your own to his chest.

His lips curled into a wider smile, “I love you too Y/n.” He continued his assault of kisses on you, his eyes never leaving you, gazing upon you as if you were the most beautiful and precious being to ever grace the earth. This side of him only you saw, the vulnerable and affectionate side he kept oh so hidden.

Soft breaths, a warm comfortable embrace, affectionate touches, his lips planting kisses all over you, the love you two shared was always unmatched. The flame burning forevermore brightly, as the comfortable silence engulfed the two of you.

The world around you faded. To him you were all that mattered and to you he was all that mattered. Who knew two broken souls could intertwine as one, becoming whole, despite the flaws. A never ending love.

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[rosf1eld]

Hey, I read that Miller fic you wrote and I have to say, you did an amazing job writing him! I'm normally not much of an x reader person, and I'm really picky with Miller fanfics in general, but I loved your fic. Keep it up! :)

omg thank you anon😭😭 !!

i was like so deeply afraid of mischaracterizing him so this is a big relief to hear :))

[rosf1eld]

Can I Stay The Night?

Kazuhira Miller x reader

fluff/angst/smut

summary:

Kazuhira miller has a nightmare and seeks your comfort ...

a/n:

this came to me in a dream ... literally. like i woke up at 2 am and started jotting this down in bullet points... tweets on my priv went crazy. me when im a lesbian writing for men i deem women in my head.

also not proofread properly because i got lazy.

last thing, I haven't played all the games so forgive me for any mistakes…

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The cool wind hit your freshly dried skin, giving you goosebumps as you stepped outside your bathroom. Water droplets fell from your hair, dripping down your skin to the floor. You had just wrapped a towel around your body after getting out of the shower.

You sighed softly as you recalled the memories of earlier today, the smell of blood and sound of gunshots plastered in your mind. One of Diamond Dogs' best soldiers, the title sounded nice yet the missions were anything but.

You were exhausted. Just washing the blood and grime off your body and hair, you now move to sit on your bed. It wasn’t exactly large, but it was good enough for you. The towel is secure around you as your sheets could be felt below you. You felt the want to relax for a while before getting up and rummaging through your closet for clothes to rest in.

The mission had exhausted you. Your arms burned from the exhaustion when you had massaged shampoo into your hair earlier. Reaching over you picked up your water bottle, drinking almost half of it. Letting out a sigh, you let yourself lay back, wet hair falling onto the blanket.

The moment you let your eyes shut, not to sleep but to finally calm yourself, a knock could be heard at your door. An irritated sigh left you and you opened your eyes. Eyes shooting to the door, who the actual FUCK is here this late… You thought. Your feet touched the floor when you reluctantly stood up, but you didn’t walk towards the door yet.

“Who is it?” You called out, annoyance clear in your tone.

It seemed the voice recognized the annoyance since the next words felt apologetic, “Y/n, it’s me.” The familiar voice spoke through the door. You suddenly perked up, starting towards the door without hesitation. Unlocking it quickly, you turned the knob opening the door, not fully, just enough for him to see your face and half your body.

You’re met with his unkempt look. A few strands of his blonde hair had fallen to his front, a green half-sleeved shirt, and slightly glossy skin. His eyes were covered by the aviators he always wore. He must’ve just abruptly woken up, a nightmare maybe…? Your eyes stricken with concern at the sight, now noticing he was fully leaning on his side to the doorway…without his walker?

When you opened your mouth to speak, address your concern, he beat you to it. “Sorry-…” he started, his aviators stared down at you, his eyes unseen yet you could tell they were pleading to you. “Can I stay the night?” The request caught you off-guard, but it was more so the almost pleading tone of his that surprised you. Still, you opened the door wider for him, allowing him entry in a heartbeat. With slight hesitation but relief he walks in, limping as he holds onto the wall for support.

The walker was absent, of course, you had noticed this when he was leaning against your door frame. You rushed to his side, supporting his weight as you wrapped an arm around him, guiding him to the bed and sitting him down. You now stood in front of him as he gazed up at you, he couldn’t help but rake his eyes over your figure, almost shamelessly drinking in your body as you stood wrapped in nothing but a towel.

“Kaz…” you started softly, your voice concerned. “What Happened? Are you Alright?” Your gaze on him is full of worry for him as you await a response. His eyes locked with yours once again, even though hidden behind the glasses you could tell. His brows were furrowed slightly, but not in an angry expression, more pained, sad even.

“It’s the same thing…every. Single. night.” He answered, a quiver in his voice, this only heightened your concern. His head lowered slightly, you could tell he was looking down. You were about to ask him to evaluate, but he continued after a little pause. “I see them all the time…I feel it every night, every moment. I can feel it in my leg, my arm, even my fingers-“ He stopped himself for a moment before continuing, “I can feel all I've lost… and it won’t stop hurting. It’s like they’re all still there…” He paused again, but this time it was so he could look up at you. “Y/n…but you’re still here, aren’t you?” Even if you couldn’t exactly see his eyes, you could tell they were hoping, begging for you to reassure him.

You were his home, his comfort, could you not see that? He wasn’t the type to admit it…but you truly were the only one he felt okay with. The one he was deathly afraid of losing. When he was with you it was as if his worries never existed, his losses forgotten. The only thing remaining was what he had, you.

A small, reassuring smile crept onto your face as your hand came up to cup his cheek. “I’m here, always. No matter what happens…” your comforting tone had practically done the job of making him tranquil again, it was the hand you held to his cheek that sent a chill down his spine. You made him feel whole, those simple words from you, the touch you graced him with, it all made him instantly serene.

He hovered his hand over yours before carefully placing it on your hand. He leaned into your touch, muttering a ‘thank you’ under his breath. You felt his breath on your hand and just as you were about to speak again, hopefully to offer him some more comfort, he placed a small, chaste kiss on your palm. Clearly not expecting that, your words seemed to have been lost upon you.

When you made no effort to move away from his touch, he took it as an opportunity to proceed, pressing soft kisses down your wrist. His hand gently moved down your arm as he planted kisses all over it, pulling you closer and closer. The security of your towel was wavering, but you didn’t care. Actually, you were enjoying this a little too much, your cheeks reddened and you had slow hesitant breaths every time he placed his lips on you. Unable to speak, you only moved closer, allowing yourself to be pulled by him. Soon enough his arm reached to wrap around you, almost making you fall on him. You used him as support, hands resting on his shoulders. You swear you felt the towel loosen, but you were too distracted by him to care.

You were between his legs, hands on his shoulders, his arm around you. His eyes were on you yet covered by his aviators, so you took this chance to remove them. Your hand coming up to his face to grab his glasses, gently pulling them off and setting them to your bedside table. Your breath hitched seeing his white eyes fixed on you, his expression something you’d never seen before, like pathetic… in a good way…?

His lips curved slightly into a small smirk, your heart skipped a beat seeing the sight of him like this. All you wanted to do was give him what he deserved, give him everything, seeing him look up at you like you were the most beautiful, precious thing he’d ever seen… it did something to you. The moment was silent, yet your eyes spoke the most as they stared so lovingly into his. You could swear he was about to say something, but before he could your lips crashed onto his, he let out a little surprised noise but very quickly reciprocated the kiss. Your hands moved to the sides of his neck as he deepened the kiss, the way his arm tugged you closer, you just knew your towel would slip off.

You slowly pulled your lips away from his, breaking the contact, you could still feel the lingering kiss when you did. “Kaz…” Your voice uttered his nickname ever so lovingly, a hint of desire could be heard just in that simple “kaz”. It made a chill go down his spine, the nickname he’s heard a million times sounding as if he was hearing it for the first time, like it was different coming from you. He nodded, “Y/n…” answering with your name, his voice slightly breathless from the kissing. A soft smile was on your lips and you moved your hands to his chest, gently pushing as if to give him the signal to back up on the bed.

His smirk widened slightly and he slowly but surely managed to back up onto the bed after he kicked off the shoes he was wearing. He shifted so he was against your headboard, not lying down fully just yet. He didn’t take his eyes off you, he couldn’t. He wanted to pull you on top of him and tear off your towel, but he held back since you seemed to have read his mind already. It was painful how slow you moved, your fingers grabbing the piece of the towel that held it all up. He could feel his pants get even more restricting as he watched you practically strip-tease him, a hint of a smirk on your lips as you did.

He groaned, “Come here.” He almost sounded like he was commanding you, but it was so cute that you couldn’t help inch closer. Crawling onto the bed, now in front of him. “What? Can’t handle a bit of teasing?” You teased, slightly surprised with yourself when the words left you. Hearing your remark, his smirk grew wider, and of course he pulled you by your arm, it was fast, you landed onto his chest. This movement completely undid your towel, he didn’t waste time, letting go of you to yank your towel off and throw it off to the floor, causing your breath to hitch. Your face was completely red. “Oh you don’t even know teasing…” The blonde mocked you, but with no real rudeness behind it.

His lips quickly found yours yet again, locking them in a more intimate kiss. Your hands supported you, holding you up by resting on his chest. His hand hovered over your hip before moving up to your chest, gently cupped one of your breasts. You let out a pleased moan into the kiss as he squeezed and teased your nipple with his fingers, causing you to let out a slightly surprised noise into the kiss. His tongue grazed your lip seeking entrance in your mouth, you allowed him entrance without second thought. Your tongues danced with each other, he practically devoured you with the way his tongue fought for dominance over yours, quickly winning.

You managed to straddle him as you kissed him rather passionately, both your tongues intertwined as soft sweet moans escaped you, going straight to his already hard crotch. He parted with your lips allowing both of you to catch your breath, but before you could react, his lips latched onto your breast, the other one still being fondled with his hand. You bit your lips as he did, suppressing the gasp that threatened to escape. When he noticed you trying to hold back noises he squeezed your tit slightly hard, but careful, which caused you to gasp.

Each noise you made was so sweet to him, oh he so wanted to make you scream. You couldn’t stop yourself from grinding on his clothed crotch, desperate for any type of friction, contact you could find. He nipped at your tit when you did so, causing you to get goosebumps. Your hands fumbled with his belt, you were probably soaked with how turned on you were right now. Your desperation was not lost on him since not soon after he lifted his mouth from your chest and helped you remove his belt. Before you could pry off his pants, you reached to pull off his shirt, which he assisted you with, he was just as desperate as you. His gaze was hungry as he watched you toss his shirt.

The only sounds filling the room were pants coming from both of you, the pop of his jeans buttons and unzipping of his jeans as you pried them off. He didn’t even try to stop you, as much as he loved teasing, he too was getting impatient. The only thing covering him was his boxers, you hooked your fingers at his waistband ready to pull them off, but his hand caught your wrist in a swift movement. “No.” That simple word sent shivers down your spine yet also made you even more needy. You were on the verge of begging before he let go of your wrist and moved his hand to hover over your folds, teasing you just a little bit before his finger felt your clit.

He ran his fingers across your folds feeling your wetness, “All this for me?” He smirked, a teasing look as he watched your mouth fall agape. You moaned, “P-please” you begged him, needing to feel him inside you desperately. Your begging did it for him, he immediately plunged one of his fingers into you, relishing in the feeling of you around him. He took the chance with this one finger to stretch you a bit before adding another digit, watching your face morph into one of pleasure. He felt a sense of pride knowing he had you falling apart on him.

He did painfully slow thrusts with his fingers, his thumb coming to rub over your clit. The smug grin on his face told you all you needed, he was enjoying how you were practicing whining and begging him to give you the release you so desperately wanted, no, needed. When you thought he’d finally listen, he suddenly slipped his fingers out of you. “K-Kaz!” you whined, missing the feeling of him in you. He just kept his eyes locked with yours watching your almost pouting expression as he chuckled, bringing his two digits to his own mouth and sucking them. Your breath caught in your throat as you watched him lick you off his fingers like you were a five-star meal.

You bit your lip at the sight, your fingers taking their chance and hooking at his boxers again, wanting to pull them off. He gave you an all clear by lifting his hips a bit for you to pull them off. You had to lift yourself off of him for a second as you wasted no time in discarding his briefs. Fuck…was he hard. His cock leaking as it practically begged to be touched. You cupped his cock, it twitched in your hands as you started with slow strokes just to tease him a bit, and oh did that work.

His head fell back to the headboard, mouth going slightly agape as a sound of pleasure was heard from him. After a few slow strokes, you stopped and held his member in place. His eyes remained on you as you positioned yourself over his throbbing cock, his hand coming to rest on your hip as you slowly lowered yourself on him. Your mouth went agape as you inserted his tip, then further added more digits. Your hands moved to his shoulders to grip tightly as you sat completely down, his cock now fully in you, twitched. Your eyes fluttered shut as you attempted to get used to the feeling of him deep inside you.

You stayed like this for a few, getting both of you to adjust. An almost unheard whimper came from him the moment you started to move again, mixing with the sound of your moans that came flooding in. You couldn’t hold back any of them and oh did he love it. You moved slowly at first, up and down, until he started to offer assistance. His hips slowly thrust upwards as you came down, causing you to moan. He probably thrusted slowly a max of three times before he couldn’t help himself anymore and thrust harder up in you.

Lewd sounds filled the room, skin slapping against each other, loud moans coming from you that were unable to hold back. Your grip on his shoulders was unwavering, you held him like he was your lifeline. Deep, low moans could be heard from him ever so often, mostly grunts, but that only heightened the pleasure you felt. His hand grabbed the back of your neck, some of his fingers getting tangled in your hair as he looked up into your eyes wanting to see just how much you were falling apart on his cock.

The feeling of your tight walls around his throbbing part was making his mind clouded as he mindlessly thrust up into you. “Y/n fuck-” He panted, “Fuck you feel so good” He panted as he couldn’t help but pick up his pace. You could just feel yourself reaching your peak from his hard, deep, fast thrusts, moans spilling from you uncontrollably.

He suddenly started to slow down, which caused you to whimper, “P-Please please…don-” you pleaded and whimpered but were cut off, “I love you.” He breathlessly moaned out as he slowly thrust hard into you, with your clouded mind it took a moment to register his words, but when you did, “I…” you bit your lip to hold back a moan when he thrusted in deeper this time, “I love you too..” you managed to get out, and when you did he plunged harder, making you moan out louder than before.

It was so intimate and raw the way he confessed to you, but not soon after, he started pounding into you faster than before. “K-Kaz-!” you moaned out, “I’m so close! please!” hearing your moans and endless cries of pleasure, his grip on the back of your head got tighter just for a second before he shifted his hand to cup your neck. Pressing firmly on your neck, not hard, but enough. Choking you as you bounced on his cock, deep grunts and moans leaving him as the scene unfolded.

Not soon after, your walls tightened around him, your legs shaking as your climax came, your moans of his name driving him crazy, you were a mess and it was all because of him. Your cum painting his cock which was all he needed, with a hard thrust into you causing an almost screaming moan from you, he spilled cum inside of you. The warm liquids filling you, his grip on your neck getting harder. His chest heaved as he panted from the pleasure, riding out both of your orgasms as he slowly loosened his grip on your neck.

His cock still inside you, you slowly lifted your hips to remove him. Once he wasn’t inside of you any longer, you collapsed on him, his arm coming to wrap around you, holding you against him. Both of you panted, out of breath and basking in the pleasure still fresh in your minds. A quiet whimper left you as you moved your arms to wrap around him, he shifted his body so he could lie down and you could do the same on top of him, as his arm held your waist.

“Tired?” He asked in such a teasing way with that smug smirk of his, you oh so loved. You chuckled softly from his tease and pecked his cheek. Your hand coming to cup his cheek, placing a kiss on his lips before resting your hand on his chest. It was sweet, the way the two of you cuddled like this. Sharing each other's embrace, warmth, the world around you was quiet and far away.

The comfortable silence fell upon the two of you for quite a bit before the man spoke, “Y/n…why me?” he questioned, his voice sounding hesitant. “hm?…what do you mean kaz?” Your soft affectionate tone made him feel all warm inside, he started again, “you could’ve been with anyone else, yet you’re here with me…why?” The question caught you off guard.

He thought you deserved someone else, someone better than him, but here you are in his arms. He was self-conscious, his lack of an arm, short temper, and changed ways… he saw himself almost pitiful. Yet you? You saw him differently, like the most handsome, perfect man you ever laid your eyes upon.

In mild disbelief you tilted your head up and cupped his face with one of your hands, “Why would I ever want to be with anyone else…I wouldn’t even dream of it. I love you Kaz, and you only.” Your loving words made his heart swell with love for you, he almost felt deserving. You brought back the happiness in him, he feared was unreachable.

“I love you too, y/n” He leaned in, kissing you softly. Pulling away he locked eyes with you, the most beautiful woman he’d ever seen…A soft smile on his lips before he started his assault, showering you with endless kisses causing you to giggle.

“Kaz!” The sound of your laughter mixed with his filled the room as you both relished in the feel of each other.

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[rosf1eld]

chat I will be taking a break from writing. I’ve been going through it and genuinely don’t have the energy or motivation to write. I’ll be back soon !!

[rosf1eld]

Jealously’s Dagger

Joshua Rosfield x reader

a/n: chat forgive me, this one took so long. I was actually forcing myself to finish this. ANYWAY I hope you enjoy, and as always I did NOT proofread this. Also I apologize if some parts seemed rushed, I was getting tired of writing this. Apologies for ending this so abruptly I could not handle writing it anymore. I MAY make a part two, only if anyone wants. I fear this isn’t my best work…

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“Come on, atleast let me try it out eh?”

Gav’s voice pestered you, asking the same questions over and over again.

A scoff left your mouth, “Alright Alright! I get it…

This is so stupid.

do as you please Gav.”

I mean…there was no harm in it…right?

As much as you were sure Joshua held no romantic feelings for you, you were quite curious how he would react. Gav gave a silent cheer, as if applauding himself to finally winning this back and forth.

“right then, i’ll get on it. I’m telling you, this will work.”

Gav gave a wink before he hurried off, quite excited…too excited.

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The scout made his way to the shelfs, assuming that was where Joshua would be. The phoenix seemed to spend most of his time there, other than the infirmary. Right he was, he immediately spotted Joshua with his head in a book.

With confident yet mischievous, strides he got in front of Joshua.

“eh em…

Gav cleared his throat, getting the attention of the focused man.

…Just the man I was looking for!”

Gav smiled wide, earning him a soft yet curious smile from the younger rosfield ahead of him.

“May I ask why?”

Joshua’s voice as polite as ever. The soft spoken man slowly shut the book, setting it off to the side. His blue eyes gaining full attention of the green ones ahead of him. This question made Gav smile even wider, gosh was he excited.

“Well you see, I was just wondering how do you go about confessing to someone?”

Joshua was quite surprised by this, not expecting anyone to come to him for this. He was always used to the more intellectual, history questions, not ones of feelings.

“Confessing? hm..I suppose it is best to just tell them your feelings, though it is easier said than done…”

Joshua looked away just slightly as he spoke his last statement. Gav, who was already intensely watching every reaction, picked up on this immediately.

“Easier said than done eh? I feel that brother.”

the blonde let out a chuckle, almost forgetting his actual goal.

“right then, the lady I intend on confessing to is none other than lady ____…so I reckon it’d be a bit more difficult.”

The green eyed man spoke, as he mentioned your name he eyed Joshua for any subtle reaction, and oh did he get it.

Joshua suddenly, yet subtlety tensed up.

“Lady ____…you say?”

Joshua looked away, but just for a moment. He asked as though he didn’t hear Gav correctly.

“That’s right…now how do you suggest I go about that?”

The kind hearted man held his polite smile, but it was threatening to falter.

“Apologies, but I don’t think i’m the right person to be asking…”

He was avoiding the question, he seemed as if he wanted to get out of there. The phoenix stood up, ready to leave.

“leaving so soon?”

The braided man was surprised by Joshua’s sudden hurry, though was he getting giddy about it. It was his goal after all.

“I should return to the infirmary, Tarja will scold me if I do not take my medicine.”

With a nod of the phoenix’s head he had made a swift turn, heading out the shelves. Gav had a smirk, yet he couldn’t help feel a tang but bad for deceiving the warm hearted man.

——

“Goodnight Clive !”

A farewell left your lips as you stood on the main deck of the hideaway. You, Clive, Jill, and of course Torgal had gone on a mission, clearing out akashic near Martha’s Rest as a request of Martha. This of course had left you exhausted, day after day killing more and more akashic, it was never ending and oh so tiring.

You had just bid farewell to Clive, leaving you alone on the main deck. Some lingered around in the ale hall, but most had gone to rest.

I wonder how Joshua’s been…

A soft sigh escaped your lips, throughout every moment he was always the one on your mind.

Maybe I should visit him? No it’s far too late…he’s probably resting.

You thought, though that didn’t rid of the want to see him.

Just for a mere moment…

The thought plagued your mind. Since you have to pass the infirmary to get to your own chambers, what would be the harm in popping in?

With that you pushed off the railing of the main deck, turning and moving at a steady yet faster pace down the stairs. Returning to your usual speed as you made your way to the other set of stairs. Once up you passed the hunt board, giving a slight pat to the moogle. Finally you got up the third staircase, which contained the infirmary’s door.

A quiet creak could be heard as you slowly opened the door. Since it was late Tarja had gone to her own chambers, leaving just Rodique to check on the patients before heading off.

You walked in, quietly closing the door behind you. You gave a nod to Rodique, not speaking so you didn’t disturb patients. Which there weren’t many patients, Joshua behind the curtain and two bearers on the opposite side. The curse seemed to be spreading…

Quiet footsteps made their way to the other side of the infirmary, where Joshua sat at the edge of his bed.

“Can’t sleep?”

Your soft voice broke through the silence, yet it remained quiet. The rosfield turned his head, his expression softening at the sight of you.

“Unfortunately…”

The man sighed before starting up again, “What do I owe the honor?”

A soft smile appeared at his words, if only he knew the effect even the smallest of things had on you.

“Just paying a visit, it can’t be easy being in the infirmary most of the time. Have they not allowed you move to chambers of your own?”

You moved slightly closer, so you were standing in front of him.

“I’m afraid not, at least not on my own. I need to be…supervised, like a child.”

Joshua muttered the last bit, but you heard it. It made your heart ache just a tiny bit, you knew he probably felt weak right now. Maybe you could attempt to make this better? A thought popped in your head, you tried to shake it away, but there was no harm in…suggesting the idea?

“Joshua…If you do not mind the…suggestion. Would it be easier…if maybe..”

You hesitated, not knowing if you were allowed to offer such a thing.

“hm..?”

Joshua eyes locked with yours, his full attention in you awaiting your words.

“…a mere suggestion, if you would want to stay in my chambers? just until you can have your own of course, you can totally refuse! it’s just an offer, forgive me if-“

Your nervous rambling made Joshua smile as he watched you.

“My lady, I understand. Though I would not want to be a bother…You have already so much to deal with, I wouldn’t want to pile on that.”

You sighed, if only he knew…but alas.

“Joshua, you are anything, but a bother…”

“I suppose if I would be no intrusion…or bother, I would not refuse.”

His mind went to Gav, he had stated his feelings for the lady and here he was intending to share chambers with her. Would that stop him? Nope.

Your face brightened. Wouldn’t refuse? He would share chambers with you after all !! Wait. He would share chambers with you. Suddenly you began to get a bit nervous, but of course you weren’t gonna back down.

“I was hoping for that answer, I’ll let Rodique know. If you need help gathering any belongings let me know.”

You walked over to Rodique who had just finished checking over the bearers.

“Rodique, a word?”

His eyes turned to you, a soft smile formed on his lips as he greeted you.

“Lady ____, Can I help you?”

“Indeed. I was hoping to move Joshua to my chambers, he seems to be having a hard time being here all the time. It’d be good for him.”

You quietly explained, which the healer had a nervous look.

“Well…Tarja trusts you and so do I, just keep watch of him will you?”

He spoke as he went over to Tarja’s desk, handing you a pouch, containing bottles of liquid and mixed herbs.

“His medicine, the potions are for the coughing, soothing his throat and easing the blood loss. The herbs to ease his pain and regain his strength.”

You listened carefully, making sure to take mental notes as you grabbed the pouch.

“Thank you Rodique, leave him in my hands.”

You smiled and nodded as a farewell. When you turned Joshua was up and ready, clearly he seemed to want out of the infirmary.

——

A click was the only heard as the door of your chambers shut. Joshua had sat on the bed, clearly tired. A comfortable silence fell upon the two, he seemed more relaxed in a different setting.

“Did you want any water…or anything?”

You broke the silence, hoping to make him as comfortable as possible.

“Thank you, I’m alright.”

He smiled at you then placed a hand onto his chest.

“Are you well?”

“Just…hot, It feels suffocating having this sealed into me…”

His voice was so quiet, he was hesitant to tell you this, but comfortable enough to do so. You went over to the windows, opening them to bring cool breezes in. When you turned around Joshua had his scarf off, his chest glowing.

“Maybe it would be best to leave it uncovered?”

You suggested, though you did just want to see him shirtless.

“Hm…I suppose you’re correct…”

With that he had slowly pulled off his shirt, the last thing you’d expected him to actually do. You turned your head to give him the privacy, even though you’d be sleeping in the same bed.

Joshua blew out the candle next to him, the room illuminated only with moonlight.

“Any discomfort?”

“A lingering one…it is not a bother.”

A usual discomfort lingered always, that physically pained you. You only wanted the best for him, for him to have nothing but goodness. Seeing him like this was difficult.

He laid his head on his pillow fully, pulling the blanket over him.

——

After a bit of time you had gotten dressed in sleep wear, your usual tank top and shorts. You assumed he’d fallen asleep as you got into bed.

Your eyes fell upon him. His chest rising up slowly, and down. His peaceful expression as he dreamed away. Your mind raced with thoughts of only him, what was he dreaming of, was he in pain, what did he think of you?

A sigh escaped you, shutting your eyes you finally attempted to sleep. It was hard knowing the man of your dreams slept right next to you, your husband in your mind, but a friend in reality.

——

As you awoke in the morning Joshua laid facing you, he was still asleep soundly. You watching him, like he was a painting. Something so elegant, you couldn’t believe he was real and in YOUR bed.

And this is how it was, for days. He spent time in your room almost all the time, he would go by the shelves from time to time.

As you hoped this would give you opportunities to speak to him more you couldn’t help but notice he’d been distant. He would only really speak to you when you gave him his medicine, or asked about his symptoms.

This was…slowly driving you insane. You figured you’d had done something wrong, but he wasn’t being rude. He was so kind, so thankful all the time. Just the lack of speaking bothered you.

As Joshua was in the shelves you leaned against the railing of the main hall, glancing out to the ocean.

“Something on your mind?”

The cheerful Gav walked next to you, standing beside.

“It’s Joshua, he’s been so…distant?”

You sighed, “Maybe i’m just being overdramatic. He’s probably just tired.”

An awkward, nervous chuckle escaped the Figure standing beside you.

“…Right, lady ____…”

“Gav. What did you do?”

You asked suddenly tense, standing up straight.

“Look, I didn’t think he’d be this bothered. Remember when I tried out that thing, to see if he’d get jealous? well…I wanted to take it a step further so when he was in the shelves, I found him again…again maybeeee I told him I would be confessing to you.”

Your eyes widened slightly, was Joshua…jealous?? No…that’s not like him, but if it was…mayhaps you have a chance!

“You know, I would be mad, but actually this is…I have to go, thanks Gav!”

You patted his shoulder before hurrying away as he tried to speak, though he failed unable to get his words out since you’d left so fast.

You made your way to the shelves searching for him, no sign of him. He was probably in your chambers then, he usually was. You hurried along to your chambers, when you walked in you saw him leaning against the open window.

“Joshua, can we talk?”

You asked as you shut the door behind you, going towards the window where he stood.

“Yes, my lady?”

Oh his words could make you melt, his voice…his everything.

“It’s about Gav-“

“Did you say yes?”

He had cut you off, which had surprised you.

“Say yes? What? Oh no Joshua, that whole thing…was a…ploy, Gav is just a friend, like a brother honestly. He has no feelings for me nor do I for him, he was only-“

“You don’t love him?”

You could see the relief in his face though he tried to hide it. It warmed your heart, if you could you’d just shower him with kisses.

“No no, It was this stupid thing, he wanted to see if you’d get jealous, I know it’s dumb…I don’t know why I let him…”

You say, awkwardly looking down. A chuckle escaped Joshua, making you look up at him.

“A ruse to see if i’d get jealous? Well i’m relieved to know it was just a ruse I don’t think I could bear if true.”

He spoke with a smile on his lips, his eyes focused on the sight outside. The last part he had mumbled under his breath, intending for you not to make out. Your eyes flickered from his lips to eyes, the warmth in your heart only growing as your heard the words he hoped you didn’t.

“Joshua…”

You breathed his name before, without thinking, cupping his face and locking you lips with his. A soft kiss, full of love. Your lips on his soft one’s, forever savoring the taste. You had figured he’d pull away by now, but his lips slowly moved against yours.

As the kiss came to an end you pulled away slowly, looking up at him with wet lips looking at his glistening ones.

“I’m sorry-“

Before the apology could be fully delivered he crashed his lips back onto yours. His hand went to your hip, the other to your face. Your mind was blank, the only thing you could possibly focus on was the sweet, tender, loving kiss and oh you basked in it. You wanted this to never end.

Your tongue grazed the opening of his mouth, but before you could seek entry he pulled away.

“I have yearned for your kiss since the moment I returned to you. Would that I had the courage to just tell you before, but it does not matter now. I need you my lady, I’ve always longed for you…”

Your knees felt weak. If only he knew how you truly felt about him, but it was impossible to get into words. As you opened your mouth to respond, his lips met with yours again.

Oh did he seem hungry for you…

——

[rosf1eld]

By your side I shall remain…

Joshua x Female Reader

fluff

summary: Joshua attempts to comfort you on your period…

a/n: sadly my period JUST started so instead of sulking i’m writing !! this was written in haste so forgive me if it’s not all that. not proof read again, i’m in too much pain to care.

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You laid, curled up in a ball at your chambers in the hideaway. Your arms were pressed tightly against your stomach. Low groans escaping your lips ever so often. You had only hoped they would end, but no these period cramps never did.

It was the first day of your period and you were stuck in your quarters, balled up on your bed. You hadn’t left your room all morning, which was not common for you. The others figured you were still resting, even though you almost never slept in.

You were always a strong warrior, not one to waste any time. Always the first one up and ready. Not many focused on your lack of presence, but Joshua.

He had contemplated checking on you, but his nerves had gotten the best of him. He stood leaning against the railing of the deck, pondering.

“Is something bothering you, Joshua?”

A voice emitted from behind Joshua, making him turn.

“hm…I’m simply lost in thought.”

Joshua gave a soft reassuring smile, which the man chuckled at.

“If you are so concerned, you can go check up on her.”

“Clive…i-it’s not…”

A light pink tint appeared on Joshua’s cheeks from his brother’s words. Of course he could figure out what was wrong.

A light chuckle left Clive as he watched Joshua’s reaction.

“There’s no point in losing your mind over something so simple, go see her.”

Clive nudged Joshua as he gave a knowing smirk, to which Joshua sighed at, he couldn’t deny his brother’s words.

“I…suppose you are right…”

Joshua nervously admitted, what was the harm

in going to check up on you?

Clive lightly pushed Joshua, as if he wanted to hurry him.

“Yes, yes I’m going!”

Joshua jokingly rolled his eyes, and began to walk in the direction of your quarters. He couldn’t help but nervously fidget as he did.

Why was he so nervous…it’s not like this was the first time he’d be in your chambers…

Joshua made his way to your room, when he finally did he hesitated. Taking a deep breath he raised his hand to knock.

Knock, Knock, Knock

Three knocks was heard from your door, to which you groaned. You didn’t want to get up and open the door, actually you didn’t want to move at all.

Reluctantly you raised your voice, “Who is it?” you called out in a tired tone.

“My lady, it’s Joshua. I only wanted to check up on you, if you wish for me to leave I shall.”

The moment you heard Joshua’s voice you recognized it, you hurriedly sat up.

shit.

You didn’t want him to see you like this. All curled up in pain, you seemed a mess, weak. You felt pathetic.

Nonetheless you stood up, hurried to the door and opened it. You always wanted to be around him, your condition wasn’t going to stop that.

“Joshua,” You breathed and gave him a soft weak smile.

“is something the matter?”

Joshua asked, immediately noticing your weariness.

You didn’t say anything instead suddenly hugged him, burying your head in his chest. He hesitated, only out of surprise. His arms wrapped around you in a gentle warm embrace.

“My lady, are you alright?”

He spoke softly, his voice like a warm blanket.

“Can you just…stay with me?”

You requested hesitantly, as if you were afraid of his rejection.

“Of course, anything you wish…”

Joshua spoke, a warm smile on his lips. You looked up at him, getting comforted just by the sight of him. You noticed quickly how Joshua’s face was completely red, he was a blushing mess.

A quiet chuckle left your mouth as you gently pulled away from him, your hand taking hold of his. You pulled him into the room, closing the door behind him.

“Will you lay with me?”

You asked him, though you were partially toying with him, you could tell how flustered he already was.

He only nodded, too embarrassed to say yes. His reaction made you laugh as you pulled him closer to you, so you both could get on bed.

As you laid down he followed, wrapping his arms around you in an almost protective embrace. Your stomach was pressed up against his, you held onto him like he was your lifeline.

“Thank you Joshua, for being here.”

You muttered quietly into his chest. A gentle kiss was planted onto your head.

“You need not thank me, I will always be here…”

You hummed silently in response, cuddling him as your eyes fluttered shut.

“Are you in pain?”

His voice quietly asked.

“mm…It’s just…my period.”

You groaned, he gently caressed your back.

“You being here…is more than enough.”

You left a gentle kiss on his chest, snuggling deeper.

“Then know this, I shall always be by your side.”

[rosf1eld]

Reunited at last…

(Joshua Rosfield x reader)

fluff?

summary: Joshua searched for you, the dominant of Leviathan, his love.

—

Joshua had travelled to a distant village, one where the dominant of leviathan was said to be spotted.

could it be…? this time…

Joshua only hoped. After all the leads he had followed to no avail, he was growing tired. He was losing hope…but no he couldn’t give up, not ever.

If there was even a tiny chance he could see his love again, he would take it.

He had been searching secretly in the shadows through the village, still he couldn’t find a thing. Finally he had ended up in a secluded spot, somewhere by the shore.

A defeated sigh escaped his lips.

could this be it? would he never find his love again?

“Don’t take another step.”

Your sharp tone caught the man off guard. The side of your sword aligned with his neck.

You weren’t stupid, you had noticed the unfamiliar presence snooping around.

“m-my lady…please-“

The young lord tensed up as your angry tone cut him off.

“Who are you and what do you want?!”

Your gaze burned through the back of his head.

“You mistake me my lady!”

He spoke nervously his hands up in surrender even though his back was faced to you.

“Then speak.”

A sigh of relief escaped the man as you lowered your sword. He finally turned to face you…

no…no…no…it couldn’t be? it can’t be…?

Your cold composure faltered, eyes widening at the sight of him.

His eyes softened, a warm smile appearing on his lips.

“it truly is you…”

Joshua breathed, “When I heard word of the dominant of Leviathan…I knew…I knew it would be you…”

You felt as if your world had regained color, as if your will had returned.

“Joshua…”

You let out a shakey exhale. You hadn’t even noticed how much you were shaking, the sword gripped in your hand suddenly fell to the floor. A loud clang echoed which soon mixed with your footsteps, you ran to his arms.

The familiar scent hit you has your arms tightened around him.

“…I thought i’d never see you again.”

His soft voice spoke into you as he held you closely. He kissed the top of your head.

You tried to respond, but only got choked up. Your arms tightened around him and you buried your face into his neck.

You felt alive again…

•a/n•

not proofread again i’m too lazy.

[rosf1eld]

Joshua sought comfort in you…

(joshua rosfield x reader)

fluff

summary: Joshua had a nightmare and went to you for comfort…

—

The moonlight seeped through the open window, curtains blowing gently in the night wind. You laid awake yet again, you could never sleep.

A soft sigh escaped your lips as you gazed at the moon which shone so bright outside. A quiet night, but peaceful.

Knock, Knock, Knock

Three quiet knocks placed themselves at your door, as if the person knocking was doing so cautiously. Confused you sat up, removing the covers.

At this hour?

You thought as your feet placed on the floor. With a few strides you arrived at the door, taking a deep breath as if you were preparing for the worst. You always seemed to do that.

You grabbed onto the cold, metal door knob and gently turned it.

“…Joshua?”

You spoke confused yet softly, your eyes landing upon familiar blue ones.

“…My lady, forgive me for the disturbance.”

Joshua appeared nervous, almost like he was ashamed.

“No no, it’s alright I hadn’t slept yet.”

You gave him a soft reassuring smile. You felt the need to calm his nerves, even though you doubted your ability to do so.

The soft spoken man gave you a sheepish smile.

“If you do not mind…”

Joshua fidgeted his fingers, though hard to notice you did immediately.

“May I enter, my lady?”

His voice and expression were hesitant, he was afraid of your rejection.

With a soft reassuring smile you nodded and opened the door wider for him to enter.

He nodded in return, a small thank you escaping the young lord’s lips.

The small click of the door shutting and locking, the gentle flap of the curtains, the synchronic breathing of the two became the only sounds.

A comfortable silence fallen upon the two. The lord’s uncommon awkward gaze looking to the side.

“Is everything alright Joshua?”

Your soft voice broke the silence, making his eyes fall upon yours. You could swear you noticed a hint of red on his ears, but maybe it was the lighting playing tricks on you.

“You were gone…I had lost you…”

A sudden pained voice emitted from Joshua. This had caused you to inch forward towards him.

Before you could speak he had started again, “I-…I cannot…”

Your eyes widened slightly as you noticed the young lord getting choked up.

“oh Joshua…”

You reached forward, wrapping your arms around him in a protective embrace.

“You could never lose me Joshua…I will not stray, ever.”

You reassured him, gently caressing his hair.

“My apologies…”

His voice ached with unshed tears.

“You have nothing to be sorry for…”

Joshua’s head dipped and buried itself into the crook of your neck. A wet spot formed which practically broke your heart.

“I love you, I will stand by your side for as long as you’ll have me, my lord.”

A soft kiss planted onto the side of his head, your touch soothing him.

“I love you too, more than anything”

—

•a/n•

First post on here !! I’ll be posting more though it will most likely be inconsistent. I’m not really that good of a writer sadly, but I do enjoy it very much soo. I hope you enjoyed this and I shall write more when I can !! :) btw not proofread (I couldn’t be bothered)

This does take place in the hideaway. I didn’t include background much since it was a short fluff :))