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[rosyandraw]

One of my immediate icks in fantasy books is when the bottom half of an outfit is referred to as pants.

It just really breaks it for me. It's just so cloyingly American I have to automatically demote a star.

Another clothing related book ick that has nothing to do with American's specifically: overly descriptive about an outfit when it isn't relevant. It starts reading like a child being let loose with a creative writing task for the first time.

Or a wattpad self-insert fanfic that starts with i reached for my really cool of-the-time trainers and my over sized band-specific hoody because i'm not like other girls.

[rosyandraw]

some days I love my job and then some days I'm trapped in a tiny 8x8 room across from someone who's done some of the worst shit you can think of and I have to pretend this dude doesn't make me fucking sick.

[rosyandraw]

Gang I know i'm like SUPER behind on replying to my AO3 comments, I'm not being an ignorant bitch, I will get to it, but I'm gonna post the next part first.

And thanks as always for being so patient and kind

[rosyandraw]

OMG URE BACK!!!!!! HOPE UVE BEEN OKAY!!!! I JUST SAW UR NEXT FIC LIST AND I'M LKKE WHOAAAS SO EXCITED FOR WHAT'S TO COME, GOOD TO SEE U AGAIN!!! Hope ur well!!!! 💕

Ahhhhhh thank you so much

I'm glad you're excited! I know I keep dipping in and out but it means a lot that you guys stick around and like, care

Very very appreciated (esp when I feel shit haha)💕💕💕💕

[rosyandraw]

(im the anon abt the forced marriage plot) omg it’d really be intriguing if it was a man omfff the twink on twink violence between laurent and the other twink ??? 😋 and who is auguste marrying laurent off to 😔….. why can’t they be left alone and be happy together 😔 omg i need to read this like yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!

OOOOOF

Say less!

You had me at twink on twink LMAO you have a wonderful point haha

With Laurent it's just Theomedes and Auguste in talks so there isn't anything decided yet but Damen is theorising wildly and he's not happy

I hope you it enjoy it when it does eventually go up 💕💕

[rosyandraw]

Hi, I'm happy you're back! I'm that anon from the lamen sexual dynamic question. Thank you so much for answering and being so lovely! I really appreciate it. I think I'll give it a try, I'm very curious how the story will end, and if Nicaise will be okay! Also thank you for your wonderful writing! I absolutely loved NMFY (it's one of my fave fics! delicious angst) and I really like ATKH too!

Hey hun

No worries at all, it's a very long chapter and there's like 400 words you may need to skim if it's not your thing but hopefully it doesn't detract from the ending too much for you.

Thank you for being so sweet and respectful, people like you make writing like this totally worth it 💕💕

[rosyandraw]

I hate to be that person, but I wondered if you plan to post more of ATKH? I'm wondering about a re-read and I'll go ahead if this is as it is for now, or forever, but if there's more to come soon, I'd rather re-read after finishing a first read... I really hope this doesn't make you feel any pressure, it's not meant to. I love all your fics so much but this one in particular and am 100% just grateful for everything you've shared with us. your writing is such a gift to the fandom

Hey my lovely

I'm so sorry for the delay, I have a pretty demanding job and life has been fucking insane for me recently.

But yes, I'll be posting tonight, I promise!

Thank you so much for the wonderful message, it really means a lot to me and don't worry, I don't read it as pressure at all, you are well within your rights to ask and i'm grateful you care enough to bother.

Hopefully you like it 💕💕

[rosyandraw]

“Alt-Canon, Damen and Laurent are grossly in love but Damen is being forced to marry someone else. All the angst and pining.”

I need to live inside your head so I can experience this story and read it firsthand NEEEEEDED NEED NEEEED!!!! The ANGSTFEST AHHH

ps is the someone else a man or woman 👀

Haha my head is a very strange place. Lowkey I had to take a break from writing it at one point because I hurt myself LMAO

Damen is marrying a woman and it's set the night before the Princess of Patras arrives in Ios to sign the betrothal agreement so it's a very imminent kind of angst.

They're also aware that Laurent's future marriage will be Akielon and Theomedes and Auguste are negotiating the who and when already so everything is shit and they're both suffering.

I am, however, willing to switch the sex of Damen's intended because I have gone back and forth myself so if you have a strong preference let me know and settle the debate in my head please 💕💕

[rosyandraw]

Hey slightly unrelated but do you see yourself leaving the capri / lamen fandom anytime soon? NOT SAYING I WANT YOU TO, but I see that you've been writing for them for years now, so was just curious - anyways, any new fic ideas / projects? Love ur writing and hope ur well!!

Heeeey

I'm good thank you, hope you are too

I get what you mean lmao dw

I write for other fandoms too, I tend to move in cycles haha. So tbh probably not anytime soon, I mean, it's not like you can ever reach a limit on the type of stuff you write or read for one fandom, it's all about creativity! So whilst I have that, and love for them, and the fanon doesn't piss me off to the point where I start hating the source material, we're all good lmao

These are next in line and they are all Explicit rated:

Whiskey Over Wounds - Laurent POV, one-shot

1920s Gangsters AU. Featuring cocky Damen and not-as-smart-as-he-thinks-he-is Laurent. With a side of mind games as foreplay, coerced sex, and dual possessiveness.

An Act Of Mercy –Damen POV, one-shot

Canon Divergence of the assassination attempt in Laurent’s rooms in Book 1. Except it probably doesn’t go the way you think it will because I wanted to keep them true to their canon-selves and what we know about each of them where sex is concerned so it didn't go the way I planned either.

For I Have Sinned – Damen POV, long-shot but highkey it's getting longer than planned

Medieval Catholic Guilt with priest Laurent and raiding-and-pillaging-cocky-asshole Damen. Theology, Viking-esque behaviour, Laurent fucked with a crucifix, and a heavy dose of dub-con no-means-yes-but-god-will-be-sad.

By Moonlight to Drown –Damen POV, one-shot.

Alt-Canon, Damen and Laurent are grossly in love but Damen is being forced to marry someone else. All the angst and pining.

Choking Hazard – Damen POV, one-shot.

Basically just a kink-fest featuring the first line: Laurent wasn’t so dismissive when he was choking on a cock. With purposefully ambiguous relationship dynamics and all the bodily fluids... like more bodily fluids than I’ll want to tag.

I also have some multi-chaptered one's on the go but they are a long way from being ready, these one's are the ones' good to go haha

Soooo hopefully there is something on the list that tickles your fancy and if not then maybe the next lot will be more your bag 💕💕

[rosyandraw]

Hi I've been reading ATKH and I'm really enjoying it, it's so good! And I know it might be weird to ask but could you tell me if you plan to change Laurent and Damen's sexual dynamics? I know you tagged them as top/dom Damen and bottom/sub Laurent and I love them as such, but I've read chapter 11 and there're some hints of Laurent wondering about switching. You always seem so understanding and respectful so I thought I might ask. But it's okay if you don't feel like answering

Hi my lovely!

Thank you so much, I'm glad you're enjoying it.

Of course I don't mind, it's fanfic, spoilers aren't a thing, tags are there for a reason, you know? I'm never gonna be that person so never worry about asking me anything.

I will, however, post the answer under a cut so people who don't want to know won't see.

To answer your question: the dom/sub dynamics do not change.

However, there is a flip fuck scene in the last chapter. Sorry if that's not your thing, but wait! Hear me out first!

Damen is topping from the bottom (because top/bottom doesn't equal dom/sub, you know?) and it's very apparent what the deal is. He's domming Laurent the whole way through.

It's very much a "last first time" moment for Laurent where he makes some realisations about every other sexual first he's ever had and what was taken from him and that's where the exploration springs from.

The scene remains true to Damen's previous expressions about bottoming: it can be good but generally it's not his thing and not what he prefers. So whilst he has a good time it's not really about him.

It's in line with all of their other sexual scenes and it was very important to me to keep their dynamic in tact, regardless of who's topping.

The scene start to finish is 2800 words long and Damen is bottoming for maybe 1/4 of it lmao, if that doesn't tell you how it goes idk what will.

I hope you give it a chance and trust me not to do you dirty or make them OOC, but if it's not your thing then I understand.

Hope that answered your question lovely 💕💕

[rosyandraw]

I think you have put me in a reading slump, after reading not meant for you nothing hits the same😭😭 It was one of the finest pieces of literature i’ve ever read on ao3 and nmfy!laurent was like looking at the mirror for me so it was so refreshing as well as bittersweet to read it! Love ur work xx

Omg thank you so much, way too kind, but I really appreciate such a huge compliment it genuinely means a lot to me.

I'm glad (and also sad?) that you could relate to Laurent in NMFY and he got a happy ending so that basically means you will too haha

Thank you again lovely 💕💕

[rosyandraw]

Hi 💕 how are you? Hope you’re well🫶 I was wondering when you were aiming to post new and final ATKH chapter 🥹

Hey darling,

I'm okay thank you, doing alright now! So I'm aiming to have it up tomorrow night

So sorry for the long long wait 💕💕

[rosyandraw]

Different anon but I agree with that other anon. We desperately need that missing water sports scene.

Omg I need it too ngl

I did write it and cut it out and I wish I didn't but I was reliably informed it was too much LMAO

I don't think I'll post it as a missing scene but I am going to re-work it into a stand alone fic just because haha 💕💕

[rosyandraw]

Hey Holly, going anon because I’m scared this is a weird ask…

Since you’re so good at writing angst I was wondering if you’ve ever considered writing bdsm gone wrong in any of your stories? Like both characters not really knowing what they’re doing and someone ends up hurt mentally or even physically. Lots of overthinking, misunderstandings, etc. Or maybe you hate that and it’s just too much? Feel free to say if so.

I really do love observant Damen so maybe it’s hard to make it work with Damen/Laurent but I find myself hunting for this trope a lot. Ik there’s not really any bdsm in canon but I think there’s a lot of moments in the trilogy where we could sense Laurent had certain thoughts or fears about sex and didn’t say anything (maybe that’s just my interpretation). Also maybe I relate to wanting to please someone at my own detriment so I wanna read about my fav characters doing it and cry.

I like the angst that it brings and watching it all get pulled slowly back together. I think it just makes the happy ending that much better. And there does HAVE to be a happy ending lol.

I hope this ask makes sense 😅 I guess I’m really just wondering if you like that trope (is that the word for it?) If you’ve ever held yourself back from writing it because you didn’t know how it would be received?

I’m sorry this ask is so long and random lol.

Hey my love, don't apologise, I love this kind of ask, don't be scared, I'm so balls out you can literally ask me anything, I promise my head and real life is weirder haha. There's no such thing as too much here!

And I could talk about BDSM all day long. Especially with Damen/Laurent.

To answer your question bluntly: yes.

Yes, I have considered it. Like a hundred times. BDSM takes place in the mind first and foremost, the sex is a small part of it and for a lot of people not a part of it at all. So BDSM "going wrong" -or safewording out, pushing too far, it not hitting for one or both/all- is kind of inevitable at some point, especially if those involved are misinformed or new to the scene or aren't communicating properly. Plus there are different issues that come with different dynamics. Is it strictly a BDSM relationship? Do they play with other people? Do they have romantic partners? Is it a 24/7 dynamic? If it's monogamous and committed how do they work it into their real life (esp if set in canon)

So yes, big fat yes I love this idea.

I love observant Damen too but I would only write something this intensive for Damen/Laurent so unfortunately if you're thinking of a different pairing I probably won't be writing that lmao

I do think it could work with Damen/Laurent though tbf, i'm thinking about Damen in the baths in book 1 where Laurent manipulates him and he doesn't recognise Laurent isn't flirting (because Laurent did want Damen to think it was sexy but he was also not into it, you know?) That Damen could make some mistakes.

So could a Damen who trusts Laurent to be honest with him... only to be gutted when Laurent wasn't and ended up getting hurt because of it.... you know?

And tbh no matter how observant or in-tune with someone you are shit happens. You can get carried away, Dom-space isn't talked about nearly enough tbh. There's so much I want to write about it, like, weaving in and bastardising my own experiences, to give it a sprinkle of reality haha

But yes I agree about Laurent, pretty sure I wrote a whole lengthy canon-sub-Laurent-meta on here some time ago lmao so I definitely read him that way too and definitely have 10000 thoughts on what Laurent is thinking. I'm not projecting... lmao

But yes, I am a HEA girly, and yes, this does make a lot of sense and it's crazy because I've been thinking about it a lot.

I have NO idea how it would be received, but then I thought ATKH would be badly received and people have been very kind, so I am a terrible judge and I don't let perception stop me from writing what I want to write.

My only thing I keep getting stuck on is canon or modern?

Like, terminology/apparatus/acts and stuff would be so much better in a modern verse but there is something so enticing from a character study POV about canon verse haha

Do you have a preference?

Also thank you for thinking I write angst well, I appreciate it 💕💕

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My version of depraved is used and abused and screaming (pts if its both pleasure and pain). I want Laurent covered in bodily fluids with all the weird and wonderful kinks you can come up with. Idk idk how you be feeling bout a gangbang? Or some kind of auction/slave thing? Omega Laurent???????? Literally anything you can come up with. I AM SAT

Ooooo ok. Love this.

Used and screaming I can do lmao

Bodily fluids and weird kinks I can definitely go in for. Gangbang potentially but tbh I just don't see Laurent going in for that kind of thing. Damen though.... mmm now that's a visual.

The auction/slave thing could be interesting, has my mind going all kinds of places!

And you're probably going to be shocked but I've never written A/B/O lmao and I don't really read it either, it's never been my jam but there are elements of it that can be hot I guess.

Basically something kinky horny and weird?

Lmao I'll see what I can do haha 💕💕

[rosyandraw]

Hi Holly,

It’s great to see you around again! I hope it means you’ve found a bit of breathing space in this challenging period.

Loved the latest ATKH installment!

In case you’re looking for more porn one-off ideas… what about NMFY Damen and Laurent getting a little deeper into their D/s dynamic and doing a scene where they play with Laurent’s limits around public exposure?

Hey my love!

Thank you, I have (somehow), it's been stressful but over the worst of it now thankfully.

I'm glad you liked it, I can't believe there's only 1 part left to post haha

Ooooo honestly I love the idea of NMFY Damen/Laurent exploring that, I'm thinking semi-public OR a scene where Damen is just pretending people can see them, to test it out, you know?

That would be fun 💕💕

[rosyandraw]

important question: is nicaise gonna be okay?!?! 🥺

I can 100% confirm that I will not be doing anyone dirty with only one chapter left to go.

I promised you a HEA and Nicaise is part of it, I promise 💕