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and he is NOT going to be pleased with his point total

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it bothers me that you often don't really hear about people having a "favorite album" the way they might have a favorite movie or favorite video game

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normal maps are so cool, like who thought of that? what guy was like "yeah i guess a lot of textures in real life are primarily apparent from how light interacts with it, what if we just simulated that"

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i followed for rain world, stayed for osc, and now an in stars and time post?? a lot of my interests right there

TEEHEE >:) i should probably update my hyperfixation page on carrd...

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scurvy has got to have one of the biggest disease/treatment coolness gaps of all time. like yeah too much time at sea will afflict you with a curse where your body starts unraveling and old wounds come back to haunt you like vengeful ghosts. unless☝️you eat a lemon

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trying to fight but im distracted....

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loop's skin always reminds me of an off the shoulder dress. so. siffrin.

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I need that mentally ill nonbinary rogue

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mutual 1: I need that mentally ill nonbinary rogue

mutual 2: I need that mentally ill nonbinary rogue

mutual 3: do you ever think about how much the main party in isat truly mean to each other. all this time siffrin thought the journey was only important to them but it meant something for everyone. theyve been travelling together for months and they didnt really realize the others shared those feelings until the very end but it meant something for all of them. fuck.

mutual 3: i need that mentally ill nonbinary rogue

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have you played my game "timeloop cookie clicker but bad" yet? have you perhaps left a review telling people how much you love "timeloop cookie clicker but bad"?

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I ENJOY SIFFRIN A COMPLETELY NORMAL AMOUNT I PROMISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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currently i feel like im at the edge of a waterfall, about to fall into this, but unable to stop it. i might be able to slightly redirect where i go, but im falling in to this no matter what. all i can do is plan for when im at the bottom of the waterfall, and get off the stream as early as possible. either that, or i learn to fly

You can pour your life into something and realize you don't care. You've never cared. You realize you've just been drifting down river, assuming it was fate. Suddenly you realize there's other shit going on. The world opens up. I think this is how a lot of people treat sex, business degrees, and writing a novel.

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Insane to me that the UK government is slowly trying to legislate trans people out of existence and I have not seen a single person talk about it

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i think abt this screenshot a lot its very important to me .... in my brain this becomes a thing post game. you will think about it

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i completely understand this, usually just call myself nonbinary or agender, and on forms i say that or prefer not to answer.

the whole concept of gender feels like a system im supposed to be observing, but instead i’ve been made an unwilling participant. that said, i am trying to get hrt, but i plan to not change my mostly neutral presentation at all. people keep asking me if i want hrt to become less masculine or more feminine and i cant answer them, because its not really either.

i get the disconnection from humanity too. heres a relavant lyric i like from beach life in death by car seat headrest:

“I am almost completely soulless.

I am incapable of being human.

I am incapable of being inhuman.

I am living, uncontrolably…

… It’s not enough to love the unreal.

I am inseparable from the impossible.

I want gravity to stop for me,

My soul yearns, for a fugitive from the laws of nature.”

i love these lyrics because i dont feel completely human and have been separated from the concept of being a Normal Human (due to autism) but i dont know what inhuman identity would fit me. i am incapable of being human. i am incapable of being inhuman.

anyway watch patricia taxxon’s video esaay “On the Ethics of Boinking Animal People”. its a video about furries but its pretty relavant to inhuman identities generally imo

i've been posting a lot here lmao treating this app like twitter on god

anyways i'm not gonna lie i hate tests surveys that ask your gender. not in a transphobic way. more of like an uhhhh i feel completely separate from the concept of gender entirely

you could say i'm non-binary spec but i also don't like using non-binary or agender to describe myself — i guess because it implies that there is a gender binary or spectrum that i'm specifically separate from. even if i'm not part of it, it existing would be how i'd identify that i'm not part of it to begin with. or at least that's how i'd personally feel if i used those terms to describe myself.

i also don't like "other: (please insert)/custom" responses because similarly, that implies i have a gender that is somehow correlated to the spectrum, even if not part of it

i don't like "prefer not to say" because that implies i have one and just would rather not share

i'm not unlabeled. i realise i technically am, because i don't have a proper word to describe myself, but it's not like it's an active choice of mine to identify as unlabeled. especially because that also implies i'm something, even if it can't be quantified adequately. unless i'm getting it wrong, i could totally be wrong in that

i dunno if any of this makes sense, i haven't quite figured out how to fully put my feelings into thought and verbalise on this yet

i'm not saying these options shouldn't exist, but i am saying i'd like there to be an "n/a" button. because this question is simply not applicable to me. i am completely removed from the concepts of both having a gender, and being genderless. i am not gendervoid, because there is no blank space where gender would otherwise be. i'm not gender neutral, because i don't feel neutrally in terms of gender

oh well