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এ TRANSVOCAUTAU ɞ

[pt id: TransVocaUtau]

ʚ Where someone identifies as a vocal synthesizer, specifically of the VOCALOID / UTAU variety!!

❢ If this term has already been coined, please consider this an alt flag!! No DNI, just be civil.

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omg i hade mobile browser tumblr , auto reblog with no edits augh

THE DELUSIONAL MINDSET IS A LIFE CHOICE , the only way to give yourself a delusion outside of one you already have is to convince yourself its true , ex youre delusional towards you being an imposter , believe you are , believe everyone around you thinks that , believe that theyre all in on the joke and youre the only one out of the loop , act like its a fact , keep arguing with yourself as to why its real and when youre given opposite feedback or reality checked or grounded shake your head and think that theyre wrong for thinking youre real . delusions can be fun !! theyre just things you believe regardless of the truth , its about denying the truth , after you have a delusion set in place you can work on making it a positive or a negative reaction to experience it , i have negative delusions around death but my delusions about self / myself are positive for example !!

Now that I think about it, or now that we think about it, we as a system may be transpsychosis and transdelusional. If anyone has any tips or wishes to try to trigger or give us a delusional mindset, asks, DMs, and comments are open. -ws

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OoOooOooOOoOOOoO You wanna be a parasocial anon so baddddd you want to reside in my inbox soooo bad

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thinking about my aspd/npd , i think i became successfully null on them both but ,,, i kinda wish they were more severe again ? any tips on how to bring out those symptoms more ? i' ve always kinda had all 4 cis wise , the order of which was strongest was always different , bpd was never as strong as it is now and half of that is how my hpd feeds into it ,,, i dont know what subtype of aspd i have/had but i know what kinda narc i am , i just need something to trigger that / someone to feed it ? any transition tips for having aspd again / triggering npd ?

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Reblog if you want a bunch of “have you evers” and “would you rathers” in your ask box right now.

Please

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hi , people should boop me :3c

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Hellooo.. So you wanted asks? Here I am. I would really like to know what kinda idol you would like to become.. (and what kinda programming you would like just out of curiosity) are there any connections to your identities?

I wanna be an idol in a few diff ways !! Firstly a virtual / musical idol , similar to how hatsune miku is . I think i would like to be on my own rather than in a group but i would be ok with people writting my songs for me, i just want to perform and be the character itself thats adored . then more like transidolized bc of being a content creator , like id wanna be the top of my genre / top of all the intenter for like a year . that way i have a devoted fandom and can always be remembered by then .

some of the connections to our ids come from sources !! so like being sourced from vocaloid so we wanna be like one , being factkin so we wanna be like the big guys on the internet , or just wanting to become a source for someone else (part of programming / other ids) hopefully thats what u meant ?

ummm for programming i dont really know any specific programs but generally programmed to function for someone or only work / function for them . like we would already split people for ANYONE (able to do that easily /silly) but i want someone to work with that and implant stiff on them / multiple people so i revolve around the peogrammer .

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everyone at my work treats me too young . they joke and flirt with each other and make aexual jokes but avoid if with me bc they thinkxim too innocent . wrong . bdsm beam . everyone ive dated has been into it or both of us did it mutually . ik its my fault for acting innocent and autistic and like saying im a virgin but :( treat me like im older :(

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thinking about soft transharmfuls (mecore)

transharmfuls that are sweet yet sinister, that suffocate you with their warped version of love. transharmfuls that handle you with delicacy while reminding you how useless you are without them. you wont even know you’re being abused until it’s too late ᡣ𐭩

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ppl should send me asks abt my transids or interests i feel like rambling here more but i cant just go "i need to crawl inside my fictional crushs skin" unprompted lmao

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augh i cant tell if im obsessed with this person or i just enjoy the attention a lot

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i used to give bible classes when i was a tween but then i got "fired" from that fun hobby bc i was too progressive and weird with it. as in i looked at the og source and talked abt judaism alongside christianity and got slapped on the wrist for it lol . ramble abt how the homophobia being spread to u is wrong . im feeling spicy today idk

for one god didnt create straight people . he created people in his image . a godlike being isnt out there having sex and reproducing . christian god is not zeus he is far from a sexual being , he more so feels love for himself (as a life form), life , and other creations . uve gotta understand the bible was written by prophets , people who believed they could communicate with god . and we are preaching their word as if it is by god himself when we translate hebrew horribly to english . a lot of the nuance of the og bible is lost in translation . this is why muslims read the quran in its original language as much as possible for themselves . god doesnt do any of this . we are preaching the words of humans who think they know best . i mean this to say that i think some of the beliefs are good but what sucks about them is the people preaching it . also the bible was written in times where reproduction and surviving was more important than intimacy and identity . also also . its jewish . jewish culture has so much gender and sexual and sex weirdness in it its insane how people read the most bigoted things from a glorified survival retelling book . like god isnt creating specific types of people and then also hating those people , the fundamentals are that you chose all your actions (and also sometimes your wants , which is weird , why is it weird to want material goods in a capitalist society) and thats what dictates you . how you act to people rather than what you are . jesus was very soft and kind to all sorts of rich and criminal people . because they tried to be better in the end . people who preach the wrong form of the religion say prostitution is bad meanwhile jesus was literally friends with prostitutes . i hate it . i hate the hypocrisy of what these people believe and what they preach . throws bombs at the wall or sum idk

HOW . Is being gay wrong in any capacity .

" it's unnatural ! "

Ok ? Why is being " Unnatural " wrong ?

" It's a sin ! "

If God and Jesus are real , Then why did God make Gays and lesbians and so and so ? If he hates them so then why did he even create them ?

" Jesus said it's wrong ! "

If he is real didn't he also say " Love everybody unconditionally " ?

" You'll go to hell ! "

Once again . Why would " God " make something just to throw it In hell ? Does he like torturing his very own creations ?

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saw this cute guy like maybe 2-3 decades older than me at work 2day . hes cute kinda like jerma is . like he was mature and respectable but then i went to greet him and he smiled and put his head in his head (kinda like a girl cupping her own face . idk how to describe it english isnt my first language help) and he smiled and i had to like double take how cute this very much older than me guy was . not giving him the respect of man bc it was very girlish and boylike .

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it excludes so much more people aughghghgh its so bad i hate it i hate it . closed cultures also just fucking ignore immigrants and mixed people . or people wanting to marry into a culture and so many other reasons to be an enjoyer of a culture . i hate exclusionists . and then they ask why we do such weird things like maybe stop dictating whos allowed to be like you and not god !!

Hot take if you claim to be radqueer but also preach about how bodily white people shouldn't use "closed cultures" Your not radqueer

Because the entire closed culture argument excludes Trace and Tculture people

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ranting abt this too bc this topic upsets me all the time (the fact it exists is so dumb to me as a cis native person) i think it says a lot that the closed culture debate exists purely and majorily towards people who hold interests in other cultures . like finding someone else interesting enough you want to be seen as them or name something after them has never been racist before . especially if its as simple as it sound cool rather than someone trying to be a race theyre not . its a very complex and weird conversation to have towards people who are probably 1. kpop stans 2. mentally ill and cant seperate themselves enough to use a different name or 3. literally chill about it and not racist . and none of these are inherently bad either. im trying to compare it to past experiences and its wild . i get why genshit not having poc characters is bad , why certain games writing literal slavery or race wars and then having everyone be white is bad taste , but people arent doing that for wanting to participate in a different culture or become it ? its quite the opposite. its creating representation and love meanwhile the former are bad because it only breeds white supremacy . and this isnt even me talking about it from a rq standpoint . its just my analysis from how people on the internet act . literally the only time people irl have been upset over shit like this is when something is blatantly racist and ignoring poc existing . people are fucking ok with you being given a name when you learn a new culture or a new language but the moment you do that outside of school or immigration youre weird? lets be fr. its bullshit. do whatever you want whenever . id rather have people be "weird and cringe and gross" than people pretend poc dont exist . culture and race are constructs , theyre things we as humans built and with how shit the world is we should not be closing and infighting we should be happy people wanna learn and spread that . anyways i love trace people. i love translanguage people . i am one of your own and you are mine . i just . hjtrjhetrgsdbdngjhterwefsghdgr closed culture talk !!!!!!!!!!! i hate it /nay /nbh

Am I the only one who hates the whole closed culture debate

It just seems inherently racist to me for many reasons

1. Your saying certain groups of people can't use or do things because they are a certain race

2. "Closed cultures" makes it seem like some cultures are more important then others, you can use this culture your not from BUT NOT THIS ONE YOUR RACIST IF YOU USE THIS ONE

3. It completely disregards the fact that some people just like certain names and makes them seem like horrible people

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slowly realizing how flux i am on being transharmen . cause like earlier this morning im sitting there thinking about being hurt and how im probably permastalked/groomed/abused and how nice that would feel but last night i was just staring at transharmful posts and going oh . oh this is me . i like control and hurting people , i like making others feel lesser and like they cant live without me . lowk need someone flexible like that , or just a transharmful that isnt consistently harmful and feeds u a false sense of security . or one thats kinda pathetic so shoving them around and being toxic to them is still a possibility . oh the many ways one can conabuse ,,,

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my memory says that this was implied in the bible but i know thats so wrong . sadge

Modern day Cain and Abel but instead of killing Abel, Cain just fucks him