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CAME UP WITH ANOTHER Tommy reality because I’m insaaaane!! Basically Tommy is european-romani instead of american-romani, I’m also european. We grow up together in some coastal european town. We’re like childhood friends to lovers. But without all the yearning because as soon as puberty hit we knew it was each other we wanted and we never thought of straying once. This reality is kinda just like us having constant romantic adventures together as hot tan, constantly shiny and salty, europeans. Yes please!! Also I’ll very likely be masc in this reality so it’s gay too 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

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bothering you telepathically rn 😛

I SUPPOSE I JUST LIKE YOU cause I currently feel unbothered. Don’t think you have the ability to bother me unfortunately… is that disappointing for you? Yay or neigh?😔

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may i ask, how do you balance shifting and your worship? i always have trouble with it lol

TYPICALLY I NEVER EXPECT too much of myself, because I know that the gods don’t expect too much from me. That’s more general advice to not overwork yourself. I also don’t overwork myself with shifting too. Burning yourself out won’t do you too well. I’m sure you could still shift when burnt out but burning yourself out with helpol can be difficult to handle. I typically don’t have issues balancing because my practice of each isn’t too intense or doesn’t usually take up too much of my energy or time. Though on a different note you can gain aid on shifting from your deities too if you so wish. I don’t have too much good advice, especially because I’m barely a year into my helpol practice. I’m also not too entirely sure what you struggle with in terms of balance between the two to answer too well. But let me know if there’s any specific things you struggle with and I can try and help at all 😅💕

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MY WORSHIP IN ALL MY REALITIES

A CONSTANT IN ALL MY REALITIES is my religion. Hellenic polytheism. However, the gods I find myself devoted to tend to vary from reality to reality depending on what is most important to me.

DIONYSUS — the god of wine, pleasure, and madness

This god is one I tend to devote myself to in realities where I am genderqueer or even polyamorous, since queerness is something a lot of people worship him for, myself included. There is one reality where my devotion to him is a major part of my family’s business, so he shows up in both different and similar ways compared to other realities in that one. That’s also to say just because I’m not devoting myself to him in one reality, doesn’t mean I don’t worship him still.

DEVOTION : young avengers, boy next door, ya!band, wag, modern!marauders, poly!marauders, band!marauders, smosh, challengers, twilight, dead boy detectives, inhaler, ancient greece WORSHIP : demigod, formula 1 (1), formula 1 (2)

APOLLON — the god of prophecy, art, and light

In a lot of realities Apollon was the god who stuck his neck out to help in the start of my practice the most. So he’s a constant in all if not most. He’s also is the god of not just art but specifically music, so in band realties and those of that sort, Apollon is significant in that sense. He’s also just sort of a ray of light for me in any reality.

DEVOTION : young avengers, boy next door, ya!band, demigod, modern!marauders, poly!marauders, band!marauders, smosh, dead boy detectives, inhaler WORSHIP : disney cast member, small town, wag, fem!marauders, challengers, twilight, formula 1 (1), formula 1 (2)

APHRODITE — goddess of love, beauty, and pleasure

In my masc realities Dionysus tends to be the god I devote myself to and gain his assistance with for self love; however, Aphrodite is who I tend to devote myself to for the same purpose in my fem realities. Self love is a big thing for me. But so is romantic and platonic love. My poly realities also see aphrodite worship as well because of the importance of love and communication in the relationships within.

DEVOTION : disney cast member, small town, coastal small town, poly!marauders, fem!marauders, band!marauders, challengers, twilight, inhaler WORSHIP : young avengers, boy next door, ya!band, demigod, wag, modern!marauders, smosh, dead boy detectives, formula 1 (1), formula 1 (2)

HERMES — god of travellers, language, and athletic contests

Hermes devotion is a bit more rare, but often seen in realities that have my or my partners career being a sport. That’s not to say he isn’t worshipped in a least a few other realities as well; for instance, realities where I compete in college or high school sports. Hermes is also great because I am multilingual in all realities, so keeping up with all the languages I know is great worship for him.

DEVOTION : wag, challengers, formula 1 (1), formula 1 (2) WORSHIP : young avengers, boy next door, modern!marauders, poly!marauders

NIKE — goddess of victory

Nike is a goddess I find myself devoted to when I myself am the athlete. When my partner is the only one who is an athlete, that’s when it becomes casual worship. I don’t expect victory every time working with her. But when I do win, we both revel in it.

DEVOTION : challengers, formula 1 (1), formula 1 (2) WORSHIP : wag

THE MUSES — goddesses of music, song, and dance

The muses aren’t typically dieties I would devote myself to. Merely just worship. But in my band realities my worship goes above and beyond because the muses are essential to the sound I, and those I care about, play. I adore music and the art of it, so I cherish the muses even when that admiration doesn’t follow into my practice.

WORSHIP : ya!band, marauders!band, inhaler

EROS — the god of love

I don’t really devote myself to Eros, but I do worship him. Often alongside aphrodite since he is her son. Love is something very important to me, worshipping what he stands for is something I feel suits my life well. Also he’s literally cupid so.

WORSHIP : disney cast member, small town, coastal small town, poly!marauders, fem!marauders, challengers, twilight, inhaler

POSEIDON AND AMPHITRITE — god and goddess of the sea

Devotion for these two isn’t something that is heard of in my realities, but worship is. Some realities find me majoring in ecology with a focus in marine biology. And so I have a fondness for the ocean, especially its animals. While Poseidon is the god of the sea, Amphitrite is the mother of fish, seals and dolphins, which makes her perfect for worship within the context of my career.

WORSHIP : young avengers, disney cast member, coastal small town, modern!marauders, poly!marauders, fem!marauders, smosh

A/N : Today is my birthday!! So I wanted to make something that truly means a lot to me. I hope you enjoy this post, I enjoyed making it. If you’re seeing this I’m at disneyland having my “first” drink at the ripe and new age of 21!!

© rrezshifts last updated. 08/14/2025

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WHY IM LUCKY IN MY YOUNG AVENGERS DR

WHEEL OF FORTUNE “ fate, destiny, and unexpected change „ I more often than not find myself most lucky for having the people that I have in my life. In order there is, Tommy Shepherd ( my boyfriend ), my mom and dad, my older brother, Clémentine ( the family cat ), my boyfriend’s twin brother and mom (Billy Kaplan & Wanda Maximoff), Eli Bradley & Kate Bishop, Teddy Altman, and last but not least, Cassie Lang.

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© rrezshifts last updated. 08/13/2025

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ACCORDING TO AIRBUDS my five songs on repeat from last week are :

001 : X-Ray by Inhaler

002 : Billy (Yeah Yeah Yeah) by Inhaler

003 : Just To Keep You Satisfied by Inhaler

004 : Even Though by Inhaler

005 : Valentine by Inhaler

I’ve been listening to most if not all of Inhaler’s songs as I go to bed as when when I would make tumblr posts. Mind you it plays through the playlist I made only once before shutting off. But that was enough for 16 plays each apparently 😭😭 The order is most likely based on the average of which played before the other when on shuffle because they each have 16 plays and were never played in the same order. ANYWAY!!

when you get this, list 5 songs of this week, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers ૮ • ﻌ - ა

you get a favorite follower award! ❤️

(bootiful theme btw bby >< )

Tysm!! hmm I'll do this cause you're my cutie but I'm a bit shy about the ask part so I'll just tag them if that's okay

¹ honest - molly santana ² paint candy - close your eyes ³ step it up - idid ⁵ big feeling - bktherula ⁵ far from home - molly santana

absolutely no pressure tags @aliyahshiftsx @ashstwr @rumitome @softsolipsist @swaggiestgirlalive @keiiaq @luckycure @dizzybunni @hypehaerin @dollistive

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MY BIRTHDAY IS THIS THURSDAY . . . the 14th, and how self centered is it for me to want my friends and/or moots to make a moodboard based on how they perceive me. Just like a simple 3x3, 9 photos from pinterest moodboard of photos that make them think of me. Nothing fancy, doesn’t need to be aesthetic. I’m just a leo, so I like feeling seen and noticed, sue me 🙌🙌

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lowkey shifting is all about love

love for yourself, love for the world, and love for others

you're full of love and you just wanna indulge in it in different forms, bodies and lives

and i think that's very beautiful and you should never be ashamed of it 🍋‍🟩

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BEING BORED ONE DAY and deciding I’ll make magneto jewish-romani in all my drs . . . just for fun.

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I’VE GOT TWO QUESTIONS both possibly hypothetical . . . maybe. Firstly, how do I realistically make a desired reality to date both Tommy Shepherd ( marvel ) and Sirius Black ( marauders ) at the same time?? Secondly, how do I realistically make a desired reality where I’m passed around by each member of the band inhaler?

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THE CHARIOT

THANKSGIVING BREAK IN MY BOY NEXT DOOR REALITY

“ moving forward in a positive direction „

tell us about a journey in your dr!

When Thanksgiving break was making its way closer and closer, Tommy and Billy’s parents were thinking of how they were going to find time for their family that is still in New York for the holidays. Tommy, behind closed doors, begged his parents to stay in Beverly Hills for christmas and instead visit family for thanksgiving. They seemingly gave in to his begging. Then the twins’ parents one day, when talking about the trip around me, asked how I would be celebrating thanksgiving. And with a straight face just shrugged and said that my family doesn’t really celebrate thanksgiving.

Tommy then brought his brother on his side and gently asked his parents if they could invite me with them to New York for the break. At the time it was probably over a month out until thanksgiving break, and me and Tommy were not dating, much less kissing “for practice”. So it’s not like Tommy needed me to be there. But his parents said yes, and that they’d ask my parents to check if that was okay. When asked, my parents didn’t mind, I’ve had many trips without them. So in the end Tommy’s parents paid for my plane ticket and my parents paid them back and then it was a done deal.

Since this trip got planned, me and Tommy started hooking up “as friends”. Then I grew feelings for him. Ignored him. Only to be confronted by him, leading to us confessing our feelings and then starting to date one another. Come the thanksgiving trip Tommy and I are a freshly new couple. And I would be meeting his family . . .

The plan was to stay in Tommy’s maternal grandfather’s penthouse during the whole duration of the trip. The penthouse has 6 bedrooms, the master, 3 bedrooms assigned to the grandkids for when they’d stay over, and then two guest rooms ( one for the twins’ parents and one for me ). Seeing each of their rooms and how tailored it was to them was a sight, you could tell they spent a lot of time with their grandfather to curate such an environment in a house the wasn’t even their full time residence.

We flew over to New York City from LAX to LaGaurdia Airport, one-stop flight meaning we had a layover in Chicago. Our flight was on the night of Monday the 25th at 11:20pm. We arrived in New York around 9am. His parents rented a car, a fucking expensive one of course, and drove us over to the grandparent’s house.

I was fucking petrified the whole time, meeting your new boyfriends family, especially this early on is kind of insane and just very scary. Tommy tried his best to calm me down on the flight and on the drive there. He tried to secretly hold my hand in the car because his parents didn’t know we were dating just yet. They noticed but they didn’t say anything. I managed to keep it together pretty well when meeting his mom’s dad, who was lowkey really intimidating ( this is a non-mutant magneto variant for reference by the way ). But his mom’s mom was very sweet and while my palms were a bit damp when I shook her hand it was much less scary.

I was shown my room and then Tommy and Billy rushed to get me out of there and to show me around Manhattan. They couldn’t really show me too much before we had to come back. But it was still pretty eventful and fun to explore with them. We came back and hung out in Tommy’s room for a bit. And then Billy wanted to relax before dinner, so it was just me and Tommy.

I had my own room, like I mentioned. Which I didn’t really like when I knew Tommy was right down the hall. I texted him that night asking if he was awake. To which he confirmed he was then asked if I wanted him to come over to my room, and he did when I said yes. We just cuddled. And then he eventually fell asleep in my bed. And we woke up to Billy shaking us saying it’s time for breakfast, and that if we were so concerned with hiding our relationship we should stop doing risky shit like this. We counted ourselves lucky that their parents tasked Billy to wake him up and not come and get him themselves.

The day before thanksgiving we spent more time in New York, they had so much they wanted to show me. We had meals at their favorite restaurants and we went to various different locations. Parks, important streets, museums, they even showed me their old school. Then the night repeated itself. Relaxing before dinner, dinner, talking, falling asleep in each other’s bed.

Then it was thanksgiving, we were woken up early for the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade. We watched it on the TV but Tommy wanted to show me that you could kind of see it from the penthouse windows. Breakfast was fancier that morning, somehow. It was nice, the ambiance was perfect. It felt so home-like. I loved it. Especially being with Tommy, I just wished I could have cuddled up to him on that couch that morning but we were still “hiding” our relationship. Yet everyone in that damn penthouse knew.

Then for the rest of the day we stayed inside, played board games, I watched the boys play video games, and I watched Tommy paint for a little while. All while the house smelled like a feast as the adults were cooking dinner. And when dinner came it was big. Because Tommy and Billy’s uncle, aunt, and cousin came over too. Along with their paternal grandparents and the maternal grandparents of their little cousin. And each of them all brought various plates and dishes. The table couldn’t hold it all so we had to fill our plates like a buffet with all the dishes in a line on the counter.

I had forgot I was going to be meeting more of Tommy’s family so when they came in I was shocked and anxious. Tommy reassured me and introduced me to them. And it wasn’t too bad, because of course it wouldn’t be. It was Tommy’s family. We sat at the table, his younger cousin initiated a “what are we thankful for” sharing around the table moment that she learned from her elementary school. And when it got to me I said, “Everything new, new experiences, new places, new people.” Tommy just smiled to himself, not looking at me, but listening. And when it got to Tommy he said, “I’m thankful for family.” And he squeezed my hand under the table.

We all talked, even long after we finished eating. “The more you talk at the dinner table once finished, the less full you’ll be for dessert,” is what Tommy’s paternal grandma said. It was nice talking to them, or just hearing them talk. But of course they asked me their own questions. Ones I welcomed talking about, and other more awkward ones. But it still was all around fun to talk with them.

Then the kids ( us ) left the table as the adults cleaned up for dessert. The twins’ cousin asked me and Tommy if we were boyfriends. Which was very awkward but luckily hard for the adults to hear. I just looked to Tommy for him to respond. And he just affirmed that we were but she couldn’t tell anyone because it was a secret.

Later into the night, after dessert of course, their uncle, aunt, and niece left because she had a bedtime. Then later the other grandparents left too. And me, Billy, and Tommy retreated to his room to hang out for a while. But like the nights before, Billy left us to ourselves to relax on his own. And after about 30 minutes, Tommy’s grandma came into his room and just sat down with us to chat. By the end of the chat she said, “You two make a fine couple, you know.” Which left Tommy lost for words and me blushing. Because we thought no one but Billy, and then their little cousin knew. And she continues saying, “Everyone knows, we just didn’t want to point it out and make you uncomfortable.” I start hiding in my hands out of embarrassment but Tommy just thanks his grandma and gives her the hug she requested. By the time I take my face out of my hands she smiles at me and rubs my arm in comfort.

When she left I just jump on Tommy and hide my face in the crook of his neck and express my embarrassment. He comforts me but is ultimately happy that we don’t have to hide it anymore. I spend the night in his room that night. And the next morning he’s all over me, which takes me a while to get used to around his family, so he doesn’t push it. The rest of the day he takes me around New York again. More gently though because it’s black friday. And then we fly back to LA the next morning, Saturday the 30th.

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© rrezshifts last updated. 08/10/2025

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HEHEHEHE THANK YOU for the shoutout!! I love that reality very much 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

I LOVE THAT YOU HAVE A SMOSH DR!!!

♱ everyone say thank you theo ( @rrezshifts ) for the smosh reality inspo. he is quite literally the only reason i started posting abt it. i thought it might be a little too niche but nothing is too niche for tumblr ig

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THE LOVERS ℘ LETTERS IN MY BOY NEXT DOOR REALITY

“ love and being in sync with someone special „

Theo,

It’s awkward trying to figure out what pleasantries to use for you in this letter. A part of me is still trying to fight how I’m feeling in regards to what’s been happening, or more so hasn’t been happening, between us. I vaguely told my brother about what I was dealing with, and our situation that comes with it. Careful to not even suggest it may be you it’s happening with. But I needed advice on what the fuck to do. And my brother is typically good with that shit. He told me to write a letter, not to show to you or anyone else. Just to write and feel and get it out. Sort through my shit.

And it’s just…if we’re being entirely honest here. I fell for you the moment I locked eyes with you in our english class when I first moved here. And I was interested in you the moment I saw you through your window before the semester even started, no matter how weird that may be. And then it just kept growing and festering and I kept getting more and more scared to talk to you. My brother picked up on it. My feelings for you. But I felt stupid for feeling so strongly while barely knowing you. So I never admitted it. And then I got to know you, that day in my backyard in July. And I was screwed since then. I was downright in love with you from that moment on.

But you showed no signs of reciprocation, so I took the friendship you offered willingly. And held on to it so tightly for months. Until about a month ago, some silly conversation we had lead to you getting us to “practice” kissing. And then we kept practicing kissing for a week after. Until things escalated. And kept escalating more and more. But the one thing that was stressed was that if there were no feelings, we’d have no problems. And I agreed. Which was so stupid because I already had feelings, and I knew I did. I felt like a creep for doing this with you on the basis of “this’ll mean nothing” when it has meant everything and so much more to me from the beginning. But that feeling of being a creep would fade the second you would start touching and holding me. I could never help myself around you.

And then our arrangement escalated even more. Our hookups went the farthest they could go, and we had sex. And I was happy. I was really happy. Not just because of the act but the way you acted before, during, and after it felt entirely romantic and caring. And I stupidly thought that maybe you might start feeling the same way for me in the way I feel about you.

But now it’s been nearly a week after that afternoon, and you haven’t talked to me since the day after it happened. You’ve all but ghosted me. I’ve tried texting but you leave me on delivered, sometimes even read. And I’m just very confused. But most especially scared. I’m trying to remember every small interaction we’ve had since then. All of which are mostly glances and looks I catch you giving me. I try to understand and pick up on any small clues that could tell me what’s happened, but you’re giving me nothing. I’m worried what happened between us ruined things. Ruined our friendship. I’m terrified you picked up on my feelings, the ones you said couldn’t occur and are planning on running before it’s too late.

I can’t risk losing you though. So I plan on confronting you in class. Making you talk to me. Because I can’t take this anymore. I could take all of this much better if I didn’t feel so strongly for you. But I do. I feel so terribly strong about you. And yet through this unbearable anxiety I can’t seem to want my feelings for you to go away. I just want you to come back. That’s all. I just want you back. Even if it means having to forgo any and all romantic feelings I have for you. I’ll do it, I just want you here with me again. One week of feeling the farthest from you I’ve ever felt is driving me to an insanity that hiding my feelings for months has never brought me to. Jesus christ I love you too much to lose you entirely, and I’m just begging any god available and willing that I haven’t.

Yours truly, Tommy

My dear Tommy,

I feel like shit. I’m watching you from afar everyday, and when you notice me I can see the hurt in your eyes. I can only imagine how confused you must be. But I just needed time away, to think, to gain the courage to be around you. I felt like if I tried talking to you after the moment I realized I was in love with you, I wouldn’t have been able to have a sane reaction.

To start from the beginning, you drove me absolutely wild when you first looked at me in english, maintaining the flirtiest eye contact with me for most of your introduction to the class, only to avoid me for several months afterwards. The way you actively stayed away from me rattled around in my mind more than it should have. And the interactions we did have, very short and very unfulfilling were what my friends heard me complain about for days.

Some could say I had some form of feelings for you at the point. I can’t personally say that’s not true. But…I don’t know, I think I can more obviously pinpoint possible feelings when you first actually talked to me that day in July. Those hours we spent together were some of the most gratifying moments of our friendship, and it was only the beginning. I’m aware we flirted that day. I may not have realized it at the time. But when I was made aware, I had recognized it was never my intention to flirt with you, so I just assumed that was the case for you as well.

A friendship was genuinely all I wanted from you for a while. And when I suggested we practiced kissing it wasn’t out of some secret romantic or sexual agenda. I just thought we could both benefit. You made it seem like you would benefit, despite how good at it you seemed when we first went at it. And then it all escalated. To hand stuff, and then…other stuff. I’ll be honest and say the feelings I mistook for excitement for what we were doing might’ve been something more. And my eagerness to jump your bones definitely weren’t wholly platonic. But I was just dumb for not realizing it.

And then we took things too far. We had sex, and jesus christ, that probably should’ve never happened. It was one of the best moments of my seventeen years on this earth. But after that, when I saw you the next day, smiling with your friends across the cafeteria, a flip sort of switched. I had a realization that these soft and longing feelings I had grown for you, meant more than what I had come to believe they meant. And that this new desire to nurture you and create something more concrete with you, did in fact hold a lot of weight over whatever we had going on.

And I liked these feelings, I wanted to do something with them. And then I saw you put your arm around this girl next to you and I just, I didn’t know how to deal with the intense and uncomfortable feeling in my chest. I got up quick and fast and left the lunchroom. You saw me, clearly not okay, rush out of the busy cafeteria. And you texted me, to check if I was okay, offered to check on me. But I couldn’t face you. Begged my friends to come find me so you wouldn’t have to. And I confessed everything to them.

They suggested I take a break from you. Calm down and figure out my feelings and what I want to do. And I’ve been trying to. But I can’t seem to lock down a solution, a way for this all to turn out alright. How to move past my fear of losing you, of scaring you off. We said no feelings when we started this relationship and then I fell in love with you fast and hard and I don’t see my feelings going away.

I can’t face you with this intensity bubbling within me. I’ll crack, I’ll ruin everything. But I don’t know how much longer I can be without you, and how much longer I can watch you try and figure out what’s wrong. Or how much longer I can read your texts asking me if I’m okay, if you did anything wrong. I feel like shit for making you feel this way, but I’m petrified. And I am frozen in the fear of losing the person who’s become the most important to me. And for some reason I’m convinced I can still hold onto you this way. That somehow you won’t give up on me no matter how long I stay away, even though deep down I know my time is limited before you do. When the time comes, treat me gently like you always do, please.

Forever yours, Theo

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© rrezshifts last updated. 08/09/2025

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ONE ROBERT KEATING FACECLAIM is Tommy Shepherd, the other is Remus Lupin. But they come together to make me really horny for this bass player. Amen.

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YEEAAAHHH . . . he’s incredibly chopped. And also straight??? I don’t know how they keep getting in here man 😭😭 Still taking this notification as a sign however 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

CHAT . . . is this a sign??? I know I’m gonna open this notif and be met with probably a brunette who’s probably 5’8” but… beyond that, is this a sign? 😭😭 I feel realistically I shouldn’t try matching with this person but like… 🥺🥺

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CHAT . . . is this a sign??? I know I’m gonna open this notif and be met with probably a brunette who’s probably 5’8” but… beyond that, is this a sign? 😭😭 I feel realistically I shouldn’t try matching with this person but like… 🥺🥺

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THE HIEROPHANT

THE BIRTHDAY WEEKEND IN MY BAND REALITY

“ tradition and convention „

August 14, 2023 at 2:47 AM

I finally got a break from everything that had just happened, and I just need to write this down. Kinda to like idk cement all of this into like a physicality almost. It started yesterday technically now, Sunday the 13th of August. Me and the band as well as our friends were celebrating the weekend in between me and Eli’s birthday. A joint birthday party tradition that has been in the friend group for ages.

Tommy had taken me and Eli out for a couple hours. He took us to a couple comic book shops, said he’d buy us a couple issues if we wanted. While we were out the rest of the friend group was decorating our townhouse for the party. Keep in mind me and Eli already knew it was happening. It was in our calendars. Billy, Teddy, Kate, and Cassie were finishing up decorating the cake when we got home. They didn’t bother yelling surprise just gave us hugs as we got in and told us happy birthday.

Then they pulled out the alcohol. I was turning twenty-one, and Eli was turning twenty-two. And despite all of them being there for my first drink many years ago, they felt me finally becoming legal drinking age was something to celebrate. We socially drank as we talked and ate and watched movies, and then talked over those movies. We got so restless that Kate dug through the closet with the board games to pull some out and we played a couple.

Halfway through the second game of life, Teddy pulls out his phone because it was vibrating like crazy in his pocket. He opens a text and kinda just freezes, then chaotically yelps and looks to scour through his phone. We look at him very confused, Tommy questions what’s up with him. Teddy just haphazardly hands the phone to his boyfriend, Tommy’s brother. And he stares right at the screen and his mouth drops. So Tommy takes the phone from his brother and I lean over his shoulder to peak at what he’s looking at. At the sight of what was on the phone screen I’m caught so off guard and so confused and I ask, “How the fuck are we trending on twitter?”

At that Eli takes the phone from Tommy who had clicked on the hashtag and started scrolling through the tweets, all positive in nature. I take out my phone to check our spotify analytics. Our music was being streamed at an all time high. And since it was a bit past midnight, our monthly listeners analytic had been updated. I stared at the analytics and saw our once 127K monthly listeners change to a whopping 573K monthly listeners. I just let out a “Holy shit…” and Tommy grabbed the phone from me.

“What the fuck,” is all he said. And then my phone was passed around the table we sat at, our game of life session completely forgotten. Eventually all of our phones came out as we inspected and looked the band up on any and every social media. We weren’t just trending on twitter.

After some investigating, Cassie had found that we started going viral on tiktok after a fan of ours posted a video from a show of ours of a minute long snippet of our song and it had gone viral. (It was a video from one of our recent shows where we played a new single coming out soon, “All I Wanted” where Tommy was the lead singer. And me and him were very…close with each other while he sang it). Which then prompted more of our pre-existing fans to post their own snippets or for already posted clips to gain traction too.

Apparently our band aesthetics (cough cough how hot the members were) and our stage presence were what really set off the interest, then one of our songs picked up and started a trend on tiktok not too long after. Crazy, and near impossible sequence of events that got us here. Talk spread around on social medias just enough to get people interested. Now we’re just sitting in the living room of our house unsure what to do and where to go from here. Billy has ideas because he’s a business major, but we’re too in our feelings about the initial weight of all of this to think critically.

August 20, 2023 at 7:23 PM

It’s been a week since we blew up, and it’s only gotten worse(? better?) from there. We were steadily watching the climb of our numbers as well as the talk about us online. We posted not long after our birthdays on our personal accounts about me and Eli’s birthday celebrations the past two weeks hinting about the uptick and how insane it was. And we noticed our followings had also massively increased.

Currently as we speak that 573K monthly listeners has grown to 850K monthly listeners. We assume it’s starting to die down a bit, but the climb it still has made in a week is very much still absolutely crazy to us. We posted about a small show we were doing in New York in a few weeks and it sold out very fast. And honestly we’re very very unsure how to handle this new fame. We’re not used to it quite yet, obviously.

Billy is standing in as our manager because we’ve never had one, stupidly, and he’s always been good at helping us with stuff like this. We actually just got told that we’re being invited to The Late Show to preform if we’ll take the opportunity. And Billy is also suggesting bigger venues from now on. But we’ve barely been outside of New York to preform. I mean we have been outside of the city several times for smaller festivals and such but…

It’s all a little overwhelming I’ll be 100% honest. Tommy is doing his best to comfort and reassure me. And it’s helping a bit, but I’m still freaked the fuck out. I’m trying to request we start small. But everyone’s adamant about The Late Show. Not that I don’t want to go on, it’s just such a big a scary leap. Tommy says it’s not a big deal, the audience is small, just have to ignore the fact it’s being streamed live to thousands of people. Which was helpful until it wasn’t.

I’m just thankful we can still comfortably go out into public. If we keep growing I don’t know necessarily when that comfort will stop. But at least New York City never really has too much of a problem with that. Which worries me for if it’ll be different when we travel now and how different it’ll be.

Kate wants to take us out to dinner to celebrate soon, as in tonight. And I’m looking forward to it, because I’m hungry as shit. Just hope my nerves don’t stop me from stuffing my face.

I do think, when I look at everything big picture, from when we found out to now. I do think my anxiety has gotten better surrounding this than how it started. And that is thanks to all of my friends (and my therapist). And I can sense some excitement surrounding all of what’s to come. That’s not to say I haven’t been happy. I’ve been ecstatic, there’s just some bubbling worries that it’s hard for me to ignore.

Anyway new things to come, both an exciting and terrifying time to see where it goes from here. But I’m just happy to be doing it with those closest to me and who I love dearly.

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