anyways realized that you should never have to beg for attention from anyone like constantly havin to fight for them to even say hi to you is really fuckin absurd and mayb it shouldn't have taken me havin ppl now that actively seek my connection to realize that but here we are
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I think I need to stop tryin to force connetions with people just because we share the same labels. I have met some of the most annoyin ass people in the world because of this... and people I initially thought were annoyin I talk to frequently. heck, I even thought my hubby was a catfish when I first re-met him.
these label-based connections only work when I'm really lonely and actually have no one else. right now I have my hubby and know 3 people irl that I actually talk to. I just need to stop bein so dramatic. 1 of them might be bestie matieral.
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mayb people are right. mayb I do need to stop gettin involved with others and just start havin a social media addiction. just fuck the entire year I went effectly cuttin off any social media addiction urges, still live on timers for my apps to this day, and try to make real connections with people. it's just not possible in this world I fuckin suppose. I wonder if any of you could survive the 20min limit I place on apps like tumblr.
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I also don't have any friends any more bc god fuckin fuck me. thought I was special I guess not. what does it fuckin take to keep a friendship around here. what does it take to stop hatin where I end up every single fuckin time. just. fuck.
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tired of gaslightin around things I hate. "oh but that's not actually how it is" shut up. I don't know why I keep takin it when I know what I've experienced.
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don't like that my mood chart is startin to show patterns of bipolar I don't want to log anymore
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I wish people would stop thinking getting a like on a post is connection. it's really fucking not. talk to each other you damn cowards.
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I think that's the problem. I reach out and I reach out and I reach out but I never really get much back in response so I eventually stop reaching out. and then I'm blamed for not reaching out as if it's my own goddamn fault people don't know how to be friends anymore because they think social media mutuals is what friends is. I want to smack the phone out of so many people's hands when I go to a fuckin social event. double so when I can tell they're on social media and not texting someone.
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I'm not an introvert or shy I'm just fuckin tired of bein treated like I don't matter
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people are so hard to keep up with. I want to. I really do. but it's so hard when they don't keep up with you. this is why I only speak to my hubby most days I think...
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anyways never let me be open about addiction with strangers ever again they will always use it to gaslight me into thinkin I'm a dumb little addict who doesn't know any better and how can I possibly see past my addiction as if I'm not a grown fuckin adult who can actually make my own goddamn decisions
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hm. I do not feel.... liked
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hate how everyone treats shopping addiction as a joke and I can't even search shit online for recovery without seein triggerin things because ppl think "shopping addiction" is an aesthetic, spammin images of bags, luxury items, etc.
I fuckin hate it here
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I'm not like other landmines. I put why am i anxious by tom cardy in my landmine playlist
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