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Gah!!! I love your William and Pamela at the survivors group piece so much, I've been rotating them in my head for days. How do you think things would've gone down if William had survived/ what are your head canons or scenarios for how it would've gone?

I just can't stop thinking about him passing out after he's spared, his adrenaline winding down, before he wakes up in an ambulance with a oxygen mask over his face, going into a blind panic because some primal part of his mind thinks he's back in his first trap. Or quitting his job and having to go back to get his things seeing all the empty desks that once belonged to now dead friends or the piece of carpet replaced because his security guard bled on it. Or him feeling sick when he feeds his piranha, having to switch them to worms because he can't handle the blood in the water, feeling guilty that he ever could. Reuniting with the people he saved, crushed with guilt for all those he couldn't, invited to the survivor group meeting by Addy and encouraged by Pamela but completely unable to look Tara- or maybe anyone at all- in the eye, because he feels like he deserved it and they didn't.

Idk why I'm so obsessed with him rn but I just want to squish him like a stress ball. Sorry for the super long message lol. Have a good one

ahh im so happy you liked the piece!!

don’t apologize for the long message! this is the best ask ive ever received. you've been warned of an incoming ramble!

it's funny you ask about scenarios... i've actually written a couple of stories revolving around post-trap siblings, i'm just unfortunately notorious at not finishing writing wips haha.

you mentioned a lot of the same things that ive thought about! passing out at the end of his game, leaving umbrella, etc etc… and i find the most prominent part of post-trap siblings is william’s guilt, as sad as it is. he survived, and he’s grateful, but he’s constantly heavy with grief... for those he lost and the damage done to him.

william went through so much during his trials, and i imagine it takes him a while to finally recover. he has to lay off his left hand for a while, struggling to complete tasks while one-handed. his side is injured, startled by sharp pains that shoot out randomly when he reaches too far or stretches. he has to mend his burns with ointment, hiding them behind scarves. he wears long sleeves, ashamed of the words permanently scrawled on his wrists. it's not entirely physical, though. he's losing sleep from nightmares and ghosts hang over him like a dark cloud.

admittedly i think about will recovering in the hospital a ton. pamela is always there every minute of every day, and she is there waiting when he finally comes to:

it’s also a little ironic in a way, now that william has to worry about paying medical bills now. it would be even more ironic if umbrella didn’t cover costs… (sorry will).

pamela caring for him would be another layer of guilt for will, pitying himself that he needs his sister to help with mediocre tasks like reaching for a cup or washing his hair. but she insistently reminds him that she doesn’t mind at all, and more often than not she hurries towards him before he can even ask for assistance.

i also think about tara so so much. i personally don't think she completely forgave him for what he had done. she spared him with the hope that she would never see him again, relieved there wouldn't be another man buried in the ground, and yet there he is, sitting a couple of feet from her at the survivors group meeting.

i juggle with the decision of her acting aggressively toward him (ex. "how could you show your face here, after everything you've done?") or passively by saying nothing at all and refusing to even look at him. during saw vi, tara is headstrong but also deeply empathetic. i imagine she would be brave enough to confront him, whether on good or bad terms.

ive also briefly thought about william trying to make amends outside of jigsaw survivor group meetings, which would involve brent as well. i haven't written any interactions between him and brent because i think he would hastily avoid any confrontation with william. although he spared him alongside his mom, he still can't muster forgiveness after william handed his father a death sentence. he still needs time to grieve.

(ive also briefly imagined william trying to make amends by offering funds to the abbotts, as they lost a lot of money through umbrella due to his shitty insurance policy. but that was just a very very tiny idea i had.)

i didn’t even think about the office carpet and feeding the piranhas! i assumed that with the office becoming a crime scene and william's long recovery, some piranhas might die from neglect and hunger. though, this could cause william to deeply cherish the ones who survived.

i do imagine william eventually returning for his things and finding addy there too, also clearing out her room. her reason for quitting would be a combination of trauma and refusing to work there without william. will would be terrified seeing her, thinking that addy would hate him for what she went through because of him, but he’s shocked when she yanks him into a tight hug. she would frantically ask him if he’s alright and fret over how exhausted he looks, and they would shed some tears together too.

the remaining employees from the dog pit are ones I don’t really imagine often. william had a close relationship with addy, as well as emily and shelby, but i could see them refusing to interact with william after it all. memories of overlapping screams and shotgun blasts emerge too quickly for both parties when encountering the other. it’s just too much.

and most importantly, pamela practically swarms william while caring for him, but she has her ghosts too. she didn't suffer as much as her brother, but she's still haunted by rusted cages and vats of acid. she nearly lost her only family that night, and sometimes she’s tortured by the horrific scenario through nightmares.

the most important thing to me is that the siblings recover together. they never would have thought jigsaw would bring them closer than they had been before the game.

anyway, post-trap siblings ramble over! this was so fun to share, and it’s really exciting to know that someone else enjoys my silly self indulgent au. i hope this was relatively coherent haha. i have many thoughts!

p.s. i also want to squish william easton like a stress ball… (affectionately)

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post trap siblings at jigsaw survivors group

thinking about pamela trying to make him feel better and taking him to one of bobby’s jigsaw survivor group meetings…but I don’t imagine he enjoys it very much

also bonus sleepy will doodle that i was too nervous to put above the read more 👉👈 it was an excuse to doodle his scars ok..

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small scary cowboy

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the dandelion field

oil paint on canvas, 2023

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my grad cap!

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the “listening” series, drawn with colored pencil and graphite on symphonic band score paper

these are a couple of works featured in my art show this semester :) definitely my favorites out of everything i displayed. here’s a picture of one side of the gallery i took up!

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update! the second work got put on the cover of my college’s literary magazine :)

portraiture unit

(life model, contemporary)

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doodled on some cassette tapes :)

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jimmy!!!!!!!!

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happy wip wednesday!! i like to log my drawing progress behind the scenes and i did a LOT with this siblings doodle…thought it would be fun to share :)

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happy (belated) valentines day from nikari ❤️

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portraiture unit

(life model, contemporary)

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“but you may be mistaken.”

behold! my entire piece for @sawfanzinegameover!! it was such an amazing opportunity to be a part of this zine and be surrounded by so many incredible artists and writers and collaborators <3

here are some closeups!!

and of course billy wanted to take a peek at the zine…he approves!!🌀🌀

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i was desperate to draw him in his all-black cowboy get up <3

closeups

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like to drop an anvil on ruby. reblog to drop an anvil on ruby

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i drew this guy a lot in 2024

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art vs artist 2024!! wow look at this nerd. only ever drawing The Guy