rudysvoid

[rudysvoid]

Happy Lana day I mean 4th of July

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One second it was 2014 now it’s 2025 wtf

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Been making way more money than before. I’m not rich at all but it’s lost its value to me a little. Like I was having trouble sending crypto around and lost about $50 in fees for no reason. But didn’t feel like much. 2 months ago it wouldn’t felt like a blow to my bank account. I’ve been to the mall like 3 times the last week and spent around $1k so far just cause bored

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Stogie, bourbon, Lana, and the stars

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Listening to Lana del Rey rn

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Chewing gum and drinking an ice cold mineral water tbf

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TUMBLR BOYS DONT EAT AT 12AM

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I’m hungry asf but not gonna eat. Gonna resist. Need my sharp ass jawline back. Cheekbones are already here

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I hate nostalgia. Move the fuck on man. Wtf are you doing. The past is the past. Escape it. Do something. Run away. Don’t come back. Run away and don’t reminisce

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I think I get it now

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It’s late at night past 12 and I wanna eat so bad. I’m craving making a burger. I already have the patties plus some super good cheese. Yum. But nah I’m gonna wait. I’m already down 10lbs and my jawline is starting to show more. I haven’t been this weight since 2020. I barely ate today too. I’m not actually hungry, I’m just really craving it. I’m drinking water and going to bed. I will not give in. I stopped drinking soda too. I need to look good again. I have such good cheekbones that pop out. Being fat covered all that but they’re showing so much more now. I miss getting stares and girls reciprocating when I’d talk. As sad as it is, looks matter A LOT. I was broke as hell but even then just cause my face was handsome, my life didn’t suck. Nothing tastes as good as looking attractive

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She’s so mentally unstable. I hate her then I love her. I wish I never met her

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Nevermind

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I’m consumed by her and I hate it. I’m so obsessed with her. She always questions my love and asks if I love her. We fight a lot. Fuck I love her. I never wanted to feel this level of obsession again. I never wanted to desire someone this much again. Why did she come back into my life. We were so good as just friends. Why did this have to happen. I want things to end and go back to just friends who never get jealous, but I never wanna see her with another guy. I want her for me and only me. Things from her past that never bothered me at all now really bug me. I’m romanticizing her so much. WHY!!! Me and you were JUST FRIENDS and that was FINE. I don’t wanna feel all these strong emotions over you FUCK

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You’re really gonna sacrifice your jawline and looking good because bagel bites taste good at 4AM? Fuck that drink water and stfu

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Sup