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would you guys like to see some of my poetry? probably not? meh_

ik this sucks but go easy on me pls

She was beautiful,

Not in the way that a poppy is, not in the eyes of an observer,

Not in the aesthetic value or perception, no,

She was beautiful in the way that she was,

She was like a bright sun in June, emitting rays of charm,

A way that would inspire awe and melt one’s hearth,

One to die for,

And for a moment I wanted to dissolve,

And slowly seep into the pores of her face,

Be a part of something greater and to fit in the perfectly imperfect bumps,

To be total, whole and so totally engrossed that reality could collapse,

And the world could swirl into a well of chaos,

And the universe could dwindle and die out,

And the worst could come, the four horsemen with their steeds running high,

Yet I wouldn’t care,

For I was everything I wanted, in another person, and I had found home so far away

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I just saw a cute boy and now I’m questioning my gender like never before AAAAAAAAAAAA

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I am a fucking mess

guess what? I just discovered another bad thing about myself. I have problems with emotional and general vulnerability. plus, I’m kinda depressed, very anxious when I try to meet new people, probably have undiagnosed add and definitely have executive dysfunction and inattention and a bad memory, I have not found my passion in life, or anything I’m passionate about, I don’t study except for when exams are like right at the door but still manage to get high grades (for now), have a screwed up sleep schedule, I have these goals that are unreachable, especially with the way I am now, and I don’t feel like I have made any genuine human connections, ever, because I’m too fucking scared of appearing the least bit emotional, but will share all about my hobbies to sink my actual “person” in.

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according to my friends with and without adhd I have it but not to my parents ig. I feel stuck idk

Reblog and share about the stigma you’ve faced for sharing that you have ADHD.

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aahh

I’m almost certain I have adhd but my counselor told me that “ADHD is commonly misdiagnosed you may just have difficult focusing” and my anxious ass couldn’t tell her about the other symptoms so ig I’m gonna talk to her again (I’m new to counseling pls help) but I don’t think there is hope for me. ig I’m just normal but have bad memory + difficulty focusing + difficulty following through + too much energy sometimes + commitment problems + too fast brain

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I was looking through the Smithsonian open access collections for something and this is NOT what I was looking for, but these fireman hats from the mid 1800s DELIGHT ME SO MUCH.

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why

my country just rejected elon musk’s earthquake starling wi-fi gizmo. how’s your day going?

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fuck masculinity, we’ll all wear Rick Owens kiss heels from now on. actual heat.

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fuck mansplain manipulate manslaughter

we belittle bully boyboss in this blog

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I was bored

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patrick bapeman

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how do I tumblr

guys please help I do not know how to tumblr. how does one tumblr?