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Everyone is talking about how animals are scared by the fireworks.. don't get me wrong they definitely are and it makes me so sad, when thinking or reading about f.e. dogs dying because they ran a after they got spooked bc of the noise...

But can we talk about the mother's with little kids? Exhausted mothers, that were happy to put their little ones asleep, the ones that have to stay awake for many hours more, only for the stupid fun to let money explode in the air.. may be an unpopular opinion.. but some ppl might share these thoughts..

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Es bringt nichts sich zu ärgern, denn ändern tut es ja doch nichts.

There's no point in getting annoyed, because it doesn't change anything.

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Seeing u making your way, makes me just proud.

I hope that it continues this way, so your laugh gets genuine and loud.

Seeing you be better without me, makes me kinda sad.

I know I shouldn't say something, but I miss our friendship so bad.

I miss the quality time we spend. Laughing, crying, comforting each other in need.

But I know It's over, now we have to stand on our own feet.

I have to write about my thoughts, cause otherwise it only gets harder.

I wish back in time, I would've been just a little more smarter.

Now I'm feeling alone without someone having a personality like you.

The people nowadays don't have the same qualitys like you.

But I have to accept that I lost you complete.

Now I have to focus on family and future- indeed.

Even with that knowledge, I'm often thinking about this,

How could I not? My gallery is full of videos and photos from us.

I won't just delete them, even though they make me sad.

Some day heartache gets better and I'll be happy about the good time that we had.

If I would write everything at once, I couldn't stop for days.

But this poem needs to end, so this is how it stays.

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Things have changed to the better.

It's not like, this unbelievable event has erased my past/ my demons nor my fears.. but I definitely feel more at ease with all of that.

I'm no longer one food in the grave and one in the presence. I'm one food in presence and one food ahead. I'm fighting, I'm stronger, than I've ever been.

Many friends have gone. Some, I wish would've stayed- some that I no longer care about.

I'm not lonely anymore, even when there is no one, except myself.

I kinda like it though.

I don't have to stress about others and my relationship to them.

It's just me, working on myself, working on my family, our future that me and my partner build. I'm grateful. I'm hopeful & curious for the things that might come. I don't have high expectations, 'cause I can't get disappointed in that way.

I've learned a lot- I've matured a lot. Now with that knowledge, I don't need my parents to be proud of me, neither my other family or friends.

I'm proud of myself, cause I know what I've gone through, to evelop to the person I am now. - And you should be too.!

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Ich habe gelernt dass manche Menschen, egal wie sehr wir sie lieben und wie sehr wir uns das wünschen, einfach nicht zu uns passen.

Dass ist wie als würdest du dich in eine Hose quetschen die du so so schön findest, die aber einfach nicht deine Größe ist. Wenn du Glück hast passt du grade so rein. Du wirst aber schnell merken dass du einfach keine Luft bekommst weil die Hose so eng sitzt dass sie dir den Bauch komplett zuschnürt.

Du liebst diese Hose aber so sehr dass du es einfach nicht einsehen willst, also lässt du sie an. Du lässt sie an und bekommst immer weniger Luft und es wird immer ungemütlicher. Irgendwann reißt die Hose oder du ziehst sie aus, total frustriert und verzweifelt weil sie einfach nicht passt.

Danach wirst du an dir zweifeln. Wieso pass ich da nicht rein? Was muss ich an mir ändern damit ich es tue? Aber die Sache ist, wäre das die richtige Hose für dich müsstest du dich nicht ändern. Die richtige wird so gut sitzen, perfekt für dich so wie du bist. So ist das mit Beziehungen oder auch mit Freundschaften. So ist das Leben, ganz einfach auch wenn’s schmerzhaft ist.

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“We mature with the damage, not with the years.”

— Mateus William

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- Beau Taplin

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“The mind is beautiful because of the paradox. It uses itself to understand itself.”

— Adam Elenbaas

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One of my favorites ❤️

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“When a toxic person can no longer control you, they will try to control how others see you. This misinformation will feel unfair - but stay above it, trusting that other people will eventually see the truth, just like you did.”

— Unknown

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“Sensitive people should be treasured. They love deeply and think deeply about life. They are loyal, honest and true. The simple things often mean the most to them. They don’t need to change or harden. Their purity makes them who they are.”

— Unknown

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Was liegt zwischen der Vergangenheit und Gegenwart, dass wir nicht mehr "wir" sind, sondern nur noch Du und Ich?

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Irgendwie müde davon, mit Dingen okay zu sein, mit denen ich nicht okay bin.

-Yourinfinityhoney

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Hast du dich jemals gefragt, wie weit du im Leben wärst, wenn du keine psychische Krankheit hättest oder wenn deine Familie nicht kaputt wäre oder wenn dieses eine tragische Ding nie passiert wäre, das dich zerstört hat ?

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Wir waren einst so glücklich, doch heute frag ich mich was Glück ist.