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I gave up, I’m tracking cals again. I’ll be less strict (not weighing and measuring everything, just making close guesstimates) but it’s just so hard to know if I’m over or under eating without tracking 😞 I wish I didn’t have my mind poisoned as a child.

Told my best friends that I’m not tracking calories anymore, but within a day I caved and redownloaded the app. I’m just tracking at the end of the day now, and basically planning my next day ahead (with the intention to be flexible with that plan.)

So I’m basically double tracking all my food, but my friends and partner think I’ve actually stopped /:

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Told my best friends that I’m not tracking calories anymore, but within a day I caved and redownloaded the app. I’m just tracking at the end of the day now, and basically planning my next day ahead (with the intention to be flexible with that plan.)

So I’m basically double tracking all my food, but my friends and partner think I’ve actually stopped /:

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I ate literally whatever I wanted for almost 3 weeks, some days I binged and other days I ate normally, but I always ate if I was hungry.

I only ended up gaining 3lbs, I’m so happy 😁 I thought it was going to be more. Now I’m going to track again because I have some events coming up, and of course summer is coming.

I’m happy to know I can trust myself if I don’t track, and I won’t just gain an insane amount of weight.

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3 months to lock in

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I can’t wait to start lifting again so I can burn so many extra calories per day without even trying

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I feel so stressed because I keep “vowing” to go back to the gym, but it’s so damn cold where I live and I have to walk like a block to go to the gym. There’s no good parking, so even if I wanted to drive the small distance it’s just not convenient. But when I vow to go back to the gym, I ate more protein, and more calories overall.

Also, I just feel like I need calories to function at work. On days that I’ve packed less than 1,000 calories for my work day, I either cave and buy more food or I starve and do a bad job. And my job is lowkey important, like if I mess up it’s kind of a big deal. And then I come home and eat/drink like I didn’t already eat 1,000 calories or more earlier in the day.

I’m frustrated with myself. I know things will get better when the weather gets milder.

I am binging rn and it just sucks /:

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The only thing stopping you is you.

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I want to eat the other half of my candy so much rn, but thinking about tumblr is keeping me from doing it 😌

I even have it sitting on the table in front of me, and I’m home alone. But I’m not going to touch it. Actually, putting it away now so I won’t be tempted for the rest of the night.

I haven’t done well today, but at least I’m not giving in completely.

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Lost about 5lbs without tracking calories for a week, and barely trying.

Went on a trip and when I visit this place I eat less often because I’m usually following someone else’s schedule, and the local climate there also just kind of kills my appetite. So I can’t eat as often, and when I do eat I can eat maybe about half of what I normally eat. All that, plus I do a lot of walking when I visit there, and I only did 1 gym session but I absolutely crushed it.

I love when I visit that place because it feels like a “reset” for me, my stomach definitely shrinks and I just feel like it gives me a little kick start to get back to losing weight.

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Some organization gave my work a bunch of cookies for the staff and I have successfully regifted/avoided them 😇 I gave 1 to my partner, 1 to my brother, and the rest I got away with avoiding because “I’ll have some later” or “I already had sweets today” god I’m so good

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Might not see heaven because I used a food scale in front of some girl students who look up to me today 🥺

But at least I know how many calories and protein were in my snack

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I also chose to cleaned my house instead of having a snack, went to the gym, went for a walk in the freezing cold. Idk why I was so amazing today 🤷‍♀️

I can’t tell if it’s cringe that I’m proud of myself for not eating the free fudge in the break room, but I’m proud nonetheless.

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I can’t tell if it’s cringe that I’m proud of myself for not eating the free fudge in the break room, but I’m proud nonetheless.

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Tomorrow is Thanksgiving 🙃

I hope you’re all able to take care of yourselves, enjoy time with your families, and rest well afterwards.

Remember, it doesn’t have to be all or nothing. You can indulge in festive foods without it turning into a disaster.

We can do this

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I’ve gotta say I’m pretty proud of myself. I lost like 30lbs and I’ve mostly kept it off. Of course I’ve had ups and downs, and I’m not at my lowest weight right now, but I’m only about 5lbs above it. And my weight is going down right now ☺️

I really thought I would gain it all right back, but I’ve kept it off for almost a year and a half now 😇 go me!