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I BEG one of you fancy editors to edit season 2 Viktor Arcane to Rina Sawayama’s Frankenstein… “you’re the one who can save me from myself… all I want to is to feel beautiful…” DO YOU GUYS SEE jayvik has plagued my mind and so now every song I hear is THEIRS

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“Didn’t you try to kill him?”

“The greatest thing we can do in life…”

“…is find the power to forgive.”

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💓 caitvi.

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I want to be good at writing I want to read every book in the world I want to feel smart enough to be confident and confident enough to feel smart I want to explore I want to meet someone who I can be me with I want to not feel weird in every setting I am in I want to never look in a mirror again I want to manipulate myself into thinking I am pretty I want to have friends who don’t expect me to be an earpiece I want admiration I want attention I want to stop thinking selfishly but acting so selfless to the point of depravity I want to walk for miles with no end in mind I want to do whatever I want I want to go rogue and disobey I want to kiss a girl I want to be loved I want to love myself I want to jump off the edge of this earth and find a new planet to destroy I want to show my shoulders I want to yell at the top of my lungs I want to prove my worth I want to believe I am valuable to someone, anyone I want to sleep all day I want to be caught doing something I shouldn’t I want to change the way I talk, look, eat, laugh, cry, stare, breathe

I want to be someone I am not

but I have wasted years of my life knowing that and still wishing

still wanting

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wanted to get this out of my system. dont know if i'll finish the full thing before season 2

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My piece for @dames-zine ! Featuring the Furies/Enriyes. I was very inspired by archaic Greek art like the snake goddess figurines which I got to see recently in Crete.

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I’M NORMAL I’M SO NORMAL WE ARE NORMAL

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A steampunk butterfly I made out of recycled electronics! (My first ever commission!)

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Arcane 2 trailer art how we feeling

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TALI LENNOX / “MOURNING DEW” / 2023 [oil on linen | U/D]

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Fiona Apple (1998)

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Virginia Woolf, A Room of One’s Own [originally published 1929]

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"She often felt she was nothing but a sponge sopped full of human emotions."

— Virginia Woolf, To the Lighthouse

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Absolutely obsessed with Mel's smile here

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jinx and ekko as coraline and wybie

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I get it, but media like animation is just not made or managed the same way anymore. Animators have much more of a time crunch due to money loss pressures now than ever before… simply put, animation just cannot waste its time because it’s seen as a massive money making project first and then an audience driven product second.

Problem with modern media is it feels like there’s never enough of The Thing I Want. As a kid it felt like there was always enough, but now it’s never enough. The argument of “8-9 45 minute episodes” doesn’t account for the fact that the way these episodes are scripted and shot are still paring down the script to the absolute bare minimum for a story to make cohesive sense. Every character action, every scene, exists to propel the plot or explain something. There are no “filler” scenes anymore, scarcely any interactions that exist solely to allow characters to exist as they are in their own time without pressure or looming threat or a plot or a plan or advancing the story. Everything is expedient. Everything has a “purpose”. Not a single word is wasted.

I don’t know, call me a maximalist time waster. A story shouldn’t solely consist of purposes or points. Sometimes things should just happen, time should be wasted. I would rather there be so much that fans will go on to cut it down than to have so little that every second is gold to be coveted for that one scrap of serotonin.

I want more Naruto filler episodes in TV shows, is what I’m saying. I want them to be available. I want to enjoy these characters a little bit more.

I also understand that I am viewing media from the perspective of a full time “fan” and that non-fandom people will see me as odd. I get it, but the thing is that fandom arose organically around titles and IPs that simply existed as they were, chock full of stuff for said fans to salivate over and dissect and play around with. The only thing that’s fundamentally changed, I think, is that we’re getting supposedly higher quality but less of it. I’d rather more than less, tbh. Am I insane or just an adult with an adult’s hunger.

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”Forgot that inside the icon, there’s still a young girl from Essex….”